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LilyGracesMommy · August 2016

hi,

so as im sure as everyone before me, I'm not pleased to be here, but I am at the same time grateful( to find support and comfort hopefully).

my story:

had DD #1 right at the end of my freshman year of college with DS#1 born right after my nursing boards. DD#2 after DS finally weaned conceived after 4 cycles (at only 22)

been TTC #4 essentially since DD#2 came along ( though a bunch of cycles were NTNP) she was born 6/14 and considering we've been not preventing for so long I'm not sure what has come to be a barrier for us.

were both overweight ( but were when DD#2 was conceived)

DH has since been put on Zoloft ( which has its own set of problems in the bedroom) and am wondering if that's part of the issue

the he hardest thing right now is after 2 losses DH isn't even sure he wants to continue to try for a fourth ( where I'm dead set on it)

sorry for the rant, but I'm newly hopeful on getting to know you ladies as well as conceiving our rainbow baby

rainbowturtles · August 2016

I'm not sure what to say other than I'm sorry for your losses and there is a LOT of support, comfort, and also great information here.

I'm not sure if you're ready for questions so we can maybe get a little info and help you more? For instance:
How old are you?
If you've been trying for over a year have you considered an RE?
How are you tracking your cycles (or are you)?

If you're not feeling ready for advice/info, that's okay, too

Sorry you're here and I hope you get your rainbow baby soon, too

LilyGracesMommy · August 2016

@rainbowturtles I am 25 will be 26 in October.
i use FF and have been tracking my bbt as well as secondary signs ( cp and cm)on and off since DS was born but consistently since my previous chemical In December

I do not see a RE currently but wouldn't rule it out in my future

not sure when I will ovulate again and as much as apart Of me is ready to move on to another cycle, the other side wants to grieve and wait before even attempting again...

i feel so conflicted, I want to take time to just be sad but I realize the world is turning and continuing without me and I don't want to miss out on my living blessings and regret not being present for them. But i also don't want to regret not taking time for my loss and giving it the value and grief it deserves...

thank you for listening and welcoming me

chloe97 · August 2016

Welcome @LilyGracesMommy I'm so sorry for your loss.

rainbowturtles · August 2016

Also, sorry if any of that info is in your siggy, I'm mobile Bumping and it doesn't show siggies, in case you were wondering why I was asking lol

Be sad as much as you need to. I truly believe you can do both: be present for your children and be present for your grief

Both are incredibly important.