Let me try to sum it up shortly. We finally got pregnant last July, 1st pregnancy at age 30 for both me and my husband. I lost it Sept 1st at the 11week day mark. We've been trying since, with no luck. I blamed myself forever then I've been really depressed because more then half my friends got pregnant real quick after most without even trying. Then now my SIL is and I'm happy for them but it reminds me what I lost, and unfortunately kinda, its a close family and we live with my MIL so I get to hear everything about it from everyone. I still feel like a part of me is missing and now I don't want to be around babies yet I still want one of my own. I feel like its so messed up to feel the way I do. I feel like everyone just expects me to be moved on and ok with everything, so I feel like I can't even allow myself to feel some of the things I'm feeling. Any advice ? Anyone else taking forever to get pregnant again and feeling like they just can't be around other babies?