Sorry for the rant but I really do not fell like I can share these feelings anywhere else.
I MCed at 11 weeks back in December, well my edd was this past week. I am so happy for my current pregnancy but as you all know that does not erase the pain from the previous loss.
To make things more painful my sil was due 10 days behind us and just had their baby yesterday. I am so happy for them and for the new addition to the family but I am also heart broken. I want my baby so bad. I see their happy pictures and cannot help but see exactly what we lost.
Anyway, I had to get that out somewhere and I know you ladies would understand. Thanks for reading.
"Go in peace! I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil." -Gandalf
m/c #1 01/10/12
BFP #2 01/18/13. EDD 09/10/13. Missed m/c 02/18/13.
BFP #3 5/1/13 My rainbow DS born 1/13/14
BFP #4 11/11/15 spontaneous m/c 12/28/15
BFP#5 Praying for another rainbow in February!
Re: Bad PGAL brain day
I'm sorry you just experienced your due date, my DH and I are getting out of town to be together on our lost due date (also anniversary week). Honor the child you lost, but don't rob this child of joy.
*Hugs*
Lots of love. Be gentle with yourself.
A
2010: son born 9/1
2013: 2 miscarriages + d&cs, both at 10 weeks: April & July
2014: son #2 born 6/29
2016: Baby girl stillborn at 21w6d 4/29 and baby boy stillborn at 20w 3d 11/16
DD born sleeping 12/17/2014
Pregnant with EDD of 09/28/2016
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
BFP#5 Praying for another rainbow in February!