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PGAL Check In 7/18

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in October 2016 Moms
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How are you feeling mentally/physically?

Next appointments/milestones: 

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GTKY: What's your favorite part about summer?
*American in Tanzania, East Africa, since 2013
DH - Tanzanian
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  • UponAStar16UponAStar16 member
    edited July 2016
    Ok phew, I was reluctant to say anything but it really hit a nerve

     Edited because words are hard 
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  • PupatellaPupatella member
    I was also thrown by the loss post. I understand wanting to vent and talk about your story, but it is a definite trigger warning, not a possible one. 

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  • mrsdj19mrsdj19 member
    edited July 2016
    Weeks: 27 weeks today

    How are you feeling mentally/physically? I'm in super nesting mode. But we have a ton of work to do on the house, not just the nursery so I'm feeling stressed about that.

    Next appointments/milestones: Had my glucose test today. Hope I passed and don't have to do the 3hr test. The drink was actually not has bad as I thought it would be, but I have a sweet tooth. Baby may have one too because he started kicking up a storm a couple minutes after I downed that thing. It was a lot more volume than I was expecting, about the size of one of those small gatorade bottles. 

    Rant/rave:  I feel huge and unwieldy. I can't believe my belly will get a lot bigger. A coworker today saw me and was like omgosh you look bigger than 27 weeks. :neutral:

    GTKY: What's your favorite part about summer? BBQs with friends and family
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  • westcoastfoodiewestcoastfoodie member
    edited July 2016
    **********TRIGGER WARNING*******************




    We went to our birthing class last night and were going over delivering. I almost had to walk out because it was giving me so much anxiety comparing to my previous delivery. Our instructor asked about what our biggest fears were and all the other new mom's answers were so simple... the epidural, tearing, ect... DH and I looked at each other and knew each of us were thinking the same thing, and that is that the worst could happen again. I wish I, and all of you, could have that naivity towards having our babies, where all we think about is the ripping and the tearing and epidural. Now my PGAL brain is in overdrive. Can it be october yet?

    Edited because spelling.
    Me: 31 | DH: 43
    BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
    Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
    BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
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  • anna.oskaranna.oskar member
    Julia70286 said:
    **********TRIGGER WARNING*******************
    We went to our birthing class last night and were going over delivering. I almost had to walk out because it was giving me so much anxiety comparing to my previous delivery. Our instructor asked about what our biggest fears were and all the other new mom's answers were so simple... the epidural, tearing, ect... DH and I looked at each other and knew each of us were thinking the same thing, and that is that the worst could happen again. I wish I, and all of you, could have that nativity towards having our babies, where all we think about is the ripping and the tearing and epidural. Now my PGAL brain is in overdrive. Can it be october yet?
    *hugs*  I would have been the jerk who made all those other poor moms feel terrible and blurt out my truth.  I hope they never have to know what our funky PGAL brains do to us.
     
     
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  • UponAStar16UponAStar16 member
    I'm sorry @Julia70286 :'( It's hard seeing people who clearly have no idea what could happen and feeling the need to protect them when you weren't protected from reality. What happened to you was so, so unfair, and I just wish for all the take-home rainbow babies for all of us! 
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  • westcoastfoodiewestcoastfoodie member
    Thanks @UponAStar16  and @anna.oskar ...  Here's to our rainbow babies and the best octobers ever. We're almost there :)

    Me: 31 | DH: 43
    BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
    Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
    BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
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  • PupatellaPupatella member
    edited July 2016
    @Julia70286 I cannot even imagine, and I am so, so sorry. I love your positive attitude about your rainbow baby. We are almost there!!

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  • ShawnaTSShawnaTS member
    @Julia70286 You are so brave for even going to a prenatal class. I've thought about going to one this time around, but I'm pretty sure the innocence of all the other ftm would just be a trigger for me. You try so hard to have a normal pregnancy, but it is just never the same after a loss. Seriously, so brave of you. <3
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  • kmtz89kmtz89 member
    @Julia70286 aw, I agree, you are so brave! Keep your head up, October is just around the corner. 
    *American in Tanzania, East Africa, since 2013
    DH - Tanzanian
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  • lindzserslindzsers member
    Weeks: 29 + 3

    How are you feeling mentally/physically? Alas, the glow of the second tri has faded. I have terrible eczema  breakouts on both arms and one of my hips, nausea in the afternoon, and heartburn at night.  I'm still staying fairly active, which is helping swelling stay minimal, so that's a plus. Particularly as we don't have AC and I'm super worried about puffing up like a blowfish.

    Mentally, doing OK. I had a day last week where she was realllllly quiet and I totally convinced myself something was wrong. Just had an appointment today and everything is fine.  They do want to do another scan because of the cyst they found on her ovary last month (I posted about it on a symptom board I think...but basically, they found a cyst on her right ovary during the anatomy ultrasound. It was still present at a followup ultrasound).  So now, we go back for another scan to see if it's still there, which they are assuming it is, and then we get referred to a specialist.  Not really what anyone wants to hear, but we're trying to stay optimistic. Cysts can range from benign and dissolve on their own, to cancerous and causing ruptures, etc etc.  One day at a time.

    Next appointments/milestones: Well we're officially on appointments every two weeks, so our next appointment is two weeks from today where we see whether the cyst has dissolved or not.  

    Rant/rave:  ECZEMA IS THE WORST. I am terrible at not scratching it. Rave - we got some amazing gifts at our baby shower. I've allowed myself to start unwrapping things from their packages (even though the nursery isn't done and we can't put the stuff away anywhere yet) just so I can feel the fabric and start to visualize baby using them.  

    GTKY: What's your favorite part about summer? When not growing a human, vineyard visits and splitting a bottle of Rosé with my husband at a lake we like to swim at.  But I do love the cicadas and tree frogs here in VA. Beautiful sounds.

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  • lindzserslindzsers member
    And I agree with all the other posters @Julia70286 - holding it together in that kind of situation takes a special kind of strength. I don't think anyone quite gets the levels of anxiety you feel after a loss. 

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  • PupatellaPupatella member
    @lindzsers eHugs, and praying the cyst dissolves before your next appointment.

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  • westcoastfoodiewestcoastfoodie member
    Thanks guys. I hadn't even really thought twice about going to a class... I just wanted to learn techniques and all that jazz to have an smoother birth. I had never taken a class before. Here's to another week down for all of us <3 
    Me: 31 | DH: 43
    BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
    Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
    BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
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