Rainbow Mamas!

JoMunson

we did it! Time for a catch up!
1. How are you feeling now that you've given birth?
2. What feelings/anxieties do you still have about your loss?
3. Will you try for more kids or are you done?
and whatever else you can think of!

lizChesnut

1. How are you feeling now that you've given birth?
Relieved! So thankful LO is here, healthy and so strong! My only real birth plan I insisted on was to come home with a healthy baby! And I got that and everything else I hoped for, Natural vaginal birth went as smooth as one can hope. 

2. What feelings/anxieties do you still have about your loss?
I'll never know that baby...in ways I try to be thankful for everything I learned about life and loss, even tho I really would rather to never have needed to learn it, 
3. Will you try for more kids or are you done?
I really don't know at this point. I have a stepdaughter who's been in my life since she was 2, her mom's out of picture, I've raised her so she's mine! I have two kids, a girl and now a boy! Both healthy beautiful children, I got to experience pregnancy and childbirth. Some crazy part of me worries I'd be pushing luck....nonsense. I might be done.

and whatever else you can think of 

 I waited a year to try again after my miscarriage. Couldn't stand to hit pregnancy milestones when I would've still been pregnant with the first, it was to much anxiety, plus I think I "needed" to be able to get good and drunk on what was the original due date. 

I took my miscarriage pretty hard. No one around me really understood what I was feeling, I guess I didn't either...

and_peggy

1. How are you feeling now that you've given birth?
I feel great and so thankful for my sweet angel baby.

2. What feelings/anxieties do you still have about your loss?
I will never not think about the baby I'll never meet on earth. My heart still breaks for her but I also know that I wouldn't have my baby girl.

3. Will you try for more kids or are you done?
and whatever else you can think of!
We would like 3 or more children so yes, we will try for more.

folamij

1. How are you feeling now that you've given birth?

In a way relieved. My entire first trimester I obsessively checked for spotting/bleeding; and anxiously awaited every single check up that took place every 2 weeks to hear her heartbeat. Second trimester brought fears of having a late miscarriage, and by the third I was allowing myself to actually accept this baby was healthy and strong. However, I still didn't set up her nursery early though; almost as if I didn't want to get my hopes up despite all signs that she was growing strong!

2. What feelings/anxieties do you still have about your loss?
My only anxiety stems from TTC with the possibility that another loss may occur. We tried for awhile before discovering we were expecting; and shortly after I miscarried. 

3. Will you try for more kids or are you done?
and whatever else you can think of!

Absolutely! 

JoMunson

I should probably do this too
1. How are you feeling?
good. Since my MC was the first time I'd been pregnant I had a fear that DH and I weren't comparable genetically and we'd never be able to have children. If Ez hadn't gone to term I don't think I would have attempted another pregnancy. But he's here and wonderful!

2. Feelings/anxieties about my loss?
my mom reminded me that she tried to talk to me about it once and I said "yeah we're just gunna take it and shove it really deep down". I still don't like talking about it or thinking about it but it's almost like having Ezra healed that wound for me. 

3. Will you try for more kids?
absolutely! I have confidence in my body's ability to carry and birth a child now! Let's get knocked up yo!

anything else...
i read online that book "I'll love you forever" is actually about the authors wife's experience with losses babies. My MIL got me the book when Ez was born and now I want to burn it (like I said...shove it way down!). 

evalynn24

1. How are you feeling now that you've given birth? I physically feel great. I'm still pretty emotionally wrecked. I went through the miscarriage (twice) and made it almost to the end when I let myself be relieved and excited and then we had a stillbirth
2. What feelings/anxieties do you still have about your loss? See above...I am still feeling like, anything can happen, don't get comfortable, be worried, the second you feel relief shits going to hit the fan...
3. Will you try for more kids or are you done? My body needs to reset after 18 months of pregnancy, but I believe we will try again after a year or so. I feel like I was made to be a mother and I would be extremely sad if we couldn't have another.

and whatever else you can think of!

my rainbow->

khochanadel

1. How are you feeling now that you've given birth? Like I'm living in an alternate universe.
2. What feelings/anxieties do you still have about your loss? Mother's day was still hard even though my babies were here, because we had to terminate right around that time. 
3. Will you try for more kids or are you done? Hell no! I was blessed with twins so I wouldn't have to! My nephews will be at our place this weekend so I worry my husband will be back on his "I want a boy" bandwagon.