My name is Cat I'm 28 years old and had a miscarriage at 5 weeks in May.
My story is a little complicated and I don't know what to do to feel better at this point because I feel like it's my fault.
My Story begins in February of 2016 when my husband and I first started trying to conceive that quickly was put on hold when I started having stomach issues in March. I went to the doctor and had to meet with a Gastroenterologist and scheduled my colonoscopy and endoscopy for April 8th the endoscopy biopsy showed that I had a stomach infection called H. Pylori. I was put on an aggressive antibiotic called Pylera. We were no longer trying to conceive at this point but they did give me a pregnancy test before I started the pills just in case (it was a urine test not a blood test) it was negative). I also did a home pregnancy test on April 25th the day before I was supposed to get my period and it was negative as well. The next day came April 26th and I started spotting very lightly and this continued for four days so I chalked it up to being my period and the antibiotics were somehow affecting it. My aggressive 10 day, 14 pills per day regimen finally came to an end on May 2nd and I was feeling a lot better.... That is until May 8th when I started spotting again which is odd for me and I was very confused so I took a pregnancy test and it came up positive! It came up positive on the 9th as well but later that night that's when the bleeding got really bad. I had the worst cramps imaginable and was bleeding heavier than a normal heavy period. I want to the hospital and they tested my HCG levels and I was in fact pregnant but miscarrying. They said it was a natural miscarriage and told me that the antibiotic I was taking could have caused it but there is never a definite cause for a miscarriage. Needless to say I feel distraught and entirely at fault for the miscarriage.
Anyway I was starting to feel better, or so I thought until 2 days ago when I got my first post miscarriage period. It just seems to be some sort of dark reminder of what I had but lost.
Nobody really seems to understand the pain I'm feeling. I just keep getting told to try again like it's that easy... I have so many unanswered questions like did I really cause the miscarriage by taking those pills and not knowing that I was pregnant? I had a preconception visit in January and they said everything was fine but did they not catch something that's wrong with my body? Can my body not carry a baby? I just feel trapped in this web of the unknown and guilt and just simply terrified of getting pregnant again and miscarrying.
Pleaaaasssee help me! If anyone can just relate to me or just give me some guidance it would be very much appreciated because I don't know what to do anymore. Thank you<3