TGIF Check In! June 3rd

Spartanrd4

Anything happening this weekend? Can't believe it's June already...summer will be here before we know it! 

Spartanrd4

Nothing much going on this weekend. Tonight I convinced DH to go see that new chick flick Me Before You with me in exchange for me seeing one of his stupid super hero movies- Suicide Squad or whatever. Tomorrow I am going to a Pride Festival with some friends while DH is photographing a wedding....he is doing a wedding pretty much every Saturday this month except July 4th weekend. Of course I like the extra income but also bummed that he misses out on a lot of activities in the summer. 

For some reason I got a little anxious about TTC yesterday (DH and I got into a little argument which put me in a funk)- sometimes I feel overwhelmed about it all. I just wish that I and all of us still had our babies and didn't have to do all this. Anyways sorry for being a downer- I am going to focus on just relaxing and having fun this weekend while I still can and try to be positive. 

SnobunnieMel

Pretty low key weekend here. It's supposed to be 118 tomorrow so I'm going to mostly hibernate and try not to let the down time trigger the TWW BSC. Work is better. Keeps me busy. 

DH is working so no plans really. I have been hunting for a Honda Pilot that meets all the things we want and found one online we may go look at. That's about it

iceandsnowflakes29

Nothing much here. A Netflix and laundry marathon are the plans for tonight. I'm drowning in laundry. My husband had to dry his pants before he could go to work this morning if that tells you anything. 

mylittleversailles

Meeting my sweetie pie for lunch for a veggie dog, then heading to see my friend in the hospital. She was in preterm labour about a month ago and now has some trouble with her placenta. It's all pretty scary and overwhelming.

This weekend, we're cleaning the house before heading out on Monday to Winnipeg. DH has never been to my hometown, so it's about seeing my grandma and reconnecting with my old haunts with my best friend. Winnipeg isn't really a nice place, but there are nice bits. I'm already dreaming of coming home, though. I'll bake some lemon thyme cookies to take to people, too.

Have a good one.

dpjennifer

My parents are coming to visit for the weekend because my birthday is on Monday.  It was also my EDD, so I'm taking the day off and hoping I can have a nice relaxing weekend.  
Also, O is supposed to happen sometime this weekend, so I'm hoping we can get some BD in.
Spartanrd4 My mom and I are planning to go see Me Before You as well this weekend!  With my DH and father being very grateful they can puppy-sit and not have to sit through it.  LOL.  

mylittleversailles

My close friend just flaked on cat sitting! Our cats are a bit needy and they need company of someone to sleep her overnight - that and the plants need watering morning and evening. I secured her help before we booked the tickets; we would have stayed home otherwise it's too important to us. She said she'll come Monday and Thursday! Like cats eat twice a week. I! am! so! stressed! out!!

catiecatp

This weekend may involve working - depending on what I get done today - because the interview on Tues/Wed went well but took up time away from class prep and will take up more time as I negotiate (woot!). I've got an idea on salary ranges and placement policies but haven't gotten any benefit details because it is all on password protected pages (which is a bit of a WTF - don't you have documents you can send? don't most people ask about benefit plans before signing contracts and moving potentially long distances?). 

Tonight will be mini golf and dinner out - Sunday I'll go visit with a friend and her new born colt (born Wednesday night). Fingers crossed they can get me some of the benefits details before tonight so that we can actually make a preliminary decision by Monday - and move on to negotiations with HR. 

Also hoping AF stays away and the TWW crazies don't ramp up too much. Hoping that this is our month and for some reason I'm feeling positive. Wouldn't that be something - job offer and implantation in the same week?

Aera11

Currently sitting on a plane waiting to take off.  I'm off to Savannah & Hilton Head.  DH is from there & he's in a wedding so he went earlier this week.  @spartanmd I'm reading that book now so I can see it when we return let me know how it is!

I went to the doctor before the airport and received my hcg trigger...I had three mature follicles so FX! Lots of bd on this vacation. And now no cocktail, but I'll take the follicles & TI over that any day! Just trying not to get my hopes up.

oh no @reneeannemm do you have anyone else you can ask?

dubcompanion

@reneeannemm Hope things pull through for your friend. How scary. 

@iceandsnowflakes29 Gotta love those Netflix and laundry marathons! I have one every other week.  

@Spartanrd4 My husband works retail. Luckily, he gets most Saturdays off but always works Sundays. This Sunday he's missing a grill-out where some friends of ours we haven't seen since Halloween will be. Kinda stinks, but it's for his job, so we'll deal and I'll go solo.

TW - death and loss 

Today is my grandfather-in-law's funeral. Last night, DH's aunt was telling the large group of family (12 of us all altogether) about the night he passed away. We were all gathered in the front of the lodge we were staying in Everyone's eyes were moist, and then suddenly, I lost it. I bolted up, said, "Excuse me" and ran to the back of the house. DH followed after me, and together. We kneeled down and just sobbed. I cried over my aunt, who I lost last spring and who had been a mother to me - she'd died from a brain tumor and basically collapsed to her death at the young age of 59 - and for my baby, the baby who won't be born in 20 days. 

I was was too embarrassed to rejoin the circle, but DH assured me we were in a safe place. We walked back to the front hard to where everyone else was. They all placidly smiled at us, and his outgoing cousin beamed at me and said, "We love you, dub companion." And that was that.

I'm still feeling a bit awkward, as I was the only one who lost it in front of everyone, and I'm an in-law. I cared for their grandpa, no doubt. But it was mainly just all of the grief I've had to go through the last 12 months. I just felt it right there. In some ways though, I'm relieved. I haven't had a meltdown in a couple months, and I know now I'm not dead inside. I'm still fighting for the little life I lost 6 months ago. 

Sorry for the long post. I think I needed to "vent" before the funeral. I'm sure I'll be in good company again if I do break down, and I may even not be the only one then. 

mylittleversailles

So many hugs to you @dubcompanion Grief is an overwhelming beast, it comes in waves and sometimes it is a tsunami that knocks us down to the ground and consumes us. 

@dpjennifer My thoughts are with you as you approach your EDD. I hope you do something wonderful for yourself.

@Aera11 Safe travels! I was able to secure a friend, but he had planned to be out of town, so it really is a lucky fluke. We would have had to cancel, break my grandma's heart and lose the money, as this was a credit.

Wishilivedinflorida

@Spartanrd4 My DH works every Saturday, so I can totally relate to missing out on things with him. Hope your TTC anxiety eases soon.

Hoping you stay cool, @SnobunnieMel ! 118 is quite hot...

@iceandsnowflakes29 I love Netflix for the very reason that it distracts me while folding laundry.

@reneeannemm Oh no! I hope you can find a fix to your situation soon! I'm sorry your friend is being so flaky.

@dpjennifer I'm sorry about the EDD, and wish you a relaxing weekend. Happy early birthday! Hopefully you can get some BDing in when you need to.

@catiecatp Your weekend plans sound fun. Hopefully you don't have to work too much this weekend otherwise. What are your testing plans (if any)?

@aera11 Fx for your 3 good follies and lots of BDing this weekend!

Oh @dubcompanion I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. Don't be ashamed of your grieving, ever. Sending you hugs.

I'm working again this weekend. I had a mini meltdown on our work scheduler because I've had very few weekend days off these last couple months. For the month of June, I'm working every weekend, and the one weekend I requested off, they tried to coax me into working anyway (I said no). I have a rotating schedule, so the weekend time off should be evenly dispersed, but everyone else's requests in my department make it so that I end up covering their time off, mostly on weekends. I'm done and over with bending over backwards for everyone else and getting screwed. Hopefully July is better.

I'm staying mostly in and getting reading done today, maybe trying a new Pinterest recipe for dinner, getting a run in, and watching Game 3 of the Stanley Cup tonight. I don't know if anyone here likes hockey, but this video made me ugly cry during the game Wednesday. It made me want a kid even so much more than I already do: https://www.nhl.com/video/day-with-the-cup/t-277350912/c-43910003

catiecatp

@reneeannemm - I'm so glad you found someone to cover for your friend flaking.

catiecatp

@Wishilivedinflorida - first off, thank you for sharing that video (and the cry warning). We're NHL fans too and that was a beautiful video.

In terms of testing - FF recommends Sunday (11 DPO), but it has my LP wrong because I don't think it has been catching my slow rise. We're late testers - the last time I think it was 18DPO. Today theoretically might be 10DPO because we woke up early and BD rather than going back to sleep so I missed temping either on -1 or O... It would be great if I could wait another 7 days but I don't know if that will happen. I've been getting a dip yesterday and today - but I'm hoping it will bounce back up soon, or at least level off.

Spartanrd4

@Aera11 I read the book too- I wont say anything to spoil it, will let you know how the movie is. I love Savannah and Hilton Head- I went there 2 summers ago and had a great time. I love cities with a lot of history and of course the beach. Have fun!  

SnobunnieMel

@Wishilivedinflorida DH thought I was nuts cause I totally broke down during that clip the other night. Such a good one 

Wishilivedinflorida

@catiecatp Fx your dip bounces back. Your temp pattern sounds frustrating. I hope you can hold off to test until it makes most sense for you. 

@SnobunnieMel Even DH cried at that one. I told him we should look up the other "Day with the Cup" vids and he refused based on his reaction to that one. Haha!

chloe97

@wishedilivedinflorida@catiecatp Love that video! We are of course Hawks fans in my house and my ILs were friends with a Hawks support staff member and got invited to his day with the Cup party. We got to drink champagne out of the Stanley Cup a few days after our wedding. It was pretty cool!


Why did I think you live in Canada @SnobunnieMel - is it really going to be 118 there???

@dubcompanion I'm sorry for your loss and totally understand it. When I met DH (now late) very sick grandpa I burst into tears about my own grandfather. Sometimes grief can rear its ugly head and overcome us and times when we don't expect it to.

As for me, it my birthday Sunday (Happy birthday  @dpjennifer - we are nearly birthday twins). We are going to the Dixie Chicks concert. I bought these tickets a week before my 1st MC- so I was expecting to be 8.5 months pregnant. I'm trying not to think about it and focus on being excited to see my favorite band after 10 years of not touring in the US. I actually sent in a request to hear So Hard- which is about infertility struggles. I listen to the Long Way album nearly every day in my car/ it's one of the only albums that I can completely relate to at this stage in my life. Song about losing grandparents, marriage issues, infertility, speaking yield mind and being punished for it.

Im having an endoscopy on Monday because I've been feeling like I have something stuck in my esophagus and regurgitating food like crazy. My hypochondria is BAD these days, so I'm convinced it's cancer half the time and get sad and freaked out. Apparently the Dr thinks I have esophagitis which can often be caused by stress.

We are also getting dog supplies this weekend!! We pick up Ernie on Tuesday now because of my surgery!  So excited!!

amberruka

With being on call the last weekends, it's my free weekend before Wed when I fly home to the east coast for 1.5 weeks--hooray! So tomorrow we are going boating out on the Columbia River (but early...it's supposed to be 100 here in Oregon, not quite 118 but still!!). Sunday we will probably go hang at our favorite bar...because f--k it, I'm benched (and trying not to think about how I'm probably O this weekend). 

@chloe97 you're getting a new dog? Sweet!
@reneeannemm I hope you find someone for your kitties! Mine is an attention whore as well.
@dubcompanion I'm sorry you had to go through that, but hopefully it was more of a release and a little cathartic. 
@catiecatp implantation and a job offer would be a GREAT weekend! FX!!

rainbowturtles

DH has been gone for five days and will be home this afternoon so that will be nice I talked to him on the phone last night and he joked that he's tired and sore so I'd have to "do all the work" lol I said "hey but I'm tired and sore, too!" And he said "ya but you only painted for 2 days" I got kinda ticked because I actually painted for 5 days and aside from him rollering a couple walls that I'd done all the edging on on the weekend, I painted that whole kitchen, including trim. Plus I have chronic illnesses and pain so it was an even harder task so I was really proud of myself and excited I got it done before he got back so that he doesn't have to do it and it felt like he just took the wind out of my sails and didn't appreciate it. Men sometimes, am I right? LoL I'm giving him a pass, tho, we all say stupid crap sometimes and the previous day he seemed grateful so oh well.

I made a lasagna this morning so we'll have dinner made for this weekend since we'll be working on the kitchen renos at the new place again and last weekend we got takeout 3 nights in a row I think and it's just too expensive but I'm also too tired to cook after all that work. So I'm feeling positive about that.

Also, I'm making tacos for tonight so I made some homemade salsa and an avocado cilantro crema that I'm pretty excited about

Going to try to mostly rest until he gets home now, tho I'm kind of obsessed with my workouts lately even when I'm feeling sore and drained but don't want to push it. I might try to pot some Thai basil that I managed to grow roots for, just have to figure out what soil I want to use. Mostly because DH left me some pots and I'll lose it if he comments that I haven't potted it yet lol

edited to add quotes around "do all the work" in case the innuendo wasn't obvious lmao

SnobunnieMel

@chloe97 I live in Phoenix. My hubs is Canadian and we were there recently. I am also a huge Hawks fan (stil wearing my Blackhawks scrub cap through the rest of the finals even tho they are out) and got to see the cup a few years ago after the win in 2010. It was amazing! 

dubcompanion

You all are the best. Thank you for the kind words.  

TW (loss)

Strolling through the cemetery (which was kinda neat, because so much of DH's family was buried there and to see my married surname on so many tombstones was more fascinating than weird to me), I came upon the grave of an infant. Engraved on it was a short poem, which read: "Sleep on, sweet baby, and take thy rest. God called thee home, he thought it best." I snapped a photo so I would always remember it. And yes, the gravestone bears our surname. 

End TW

Once we arrive back home, it's onto a relaxing weekend and grill-out with friends.

 @dpjennifer @chloe97 I wish you the happiest of birthdays! Both of you deserve one so much.  

@rainbowturtles About the DH - ha, yeah, men and their need to compete: "Yeah, well, I worked harder, so there!" We love 'em so we keep 'em but some days are harder to than others!  

@amberruka Boating and bar hopping - I like your style!!

brooklyngirl18

@reneeannemm i'm sorry your friend flaked but thankfully you found a backup. 
@SnobunnieMel 118?? omg, no way I could handle that kind of heat!
@aera11 have a great trip. I've never been to Hilton head, but i've been to savannah and it's beautiful. 
@dubcompanion big hugs!
@chloe97 happy almost birthday! endoscopy doesn't sound fun at all but thankfully you'll have a puppy to snuggle shortly after.

DH and I are going out for date night tomorrow, to celebrate my promotion woohoo. otherwise, I'll be hanging around catching up on house work.

mylittleversailles

@chloe97 DH has allergic esophagitis and it's no fun at all. I'm sorry.

So, to cap this gorgeous day off: we're enjoying the evening on the deck and suddenly it fills with noxious smoke. The building a few doors down (attached to us; we're on a major street above commercial spaces) is on fricking fire. There are dozens of firefighters and cops on the street right now. It's under control, but the cat carriers are at the ready.

Wishilivedinflorida

Oh no! @reneeannemm stay safe and praying your building isn't involved! And also that the smoke is kept to a minimum. You are having such a rough day! Hugs!

Suddenly my pity rant here that I got the date of the hockey game wrong (it's tomorrow, not today) seems rather trivial. 

Happy early birthday, @chloe97!

@dubcompanion Thank you for sharing that sweet little poem. It's heartbreaking and strangely comforting all at once. 

iceandsnowflakes29

@dubcompanion

*TW deaths mentioned*

I completely understand. I'm very sorry for your losses. My dad died 4 years ago. One year ago, my step dad died and he was very much like a second father. I basically re-lived my dad's death during that time. It was awful. It was like I was grieving 2 people at once. My dad was 52. He died of a heart attack or stroke. Not sure, which. His neighbor found him dead in his apartment. It was a huge shock to me. I was 25 at the time.

My step dad died from his 6th bout of cancer and did not tell me. He called me shortly before he died with what, I later realized was a cryptic good bye phone call. 

(Technically he wasn't my step dad anymore because my mom had recently left him after many years but, we remained close). 
So, long story short, nobody told me he had passed. I called him one day to check on him and when he didn't answer I got a bad gut feeling. 

I Googled the obituaries, to put my mind at ease, and found his name. This was on a Monday. He had died Saturday.

KarenBeth714

So sorry about the losses and memories of losses that some of you are thinking about this weekend. It's so bittersweet to remember sometimes.

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend and feel connected with yourselves and your families- and get a chance to relax!

I'm so excited that DH and a friend and I are going to a concert on Sat night ( a banjo player - don't judge lol) and its the first concert I've gone to since our loss- which was new years even. It's probably like a record for me because I love live music. This is a step forward in feeling normal. Currently, I am enjoying a glass of french wine that I bought to enjoy all by myself...because I just realized that I begin pg testing in two days again for this month and well, I better drink some wine while i have a chance!

BornReady

@karenbeth714 I love the banjo! Are you by chance seeing Bela Fleck?!? If so he is my love. "Big Country" is the theme song of my life (in my head)...

fivetimesnoluck

I had the best visit with my oldest friend today! She lives in Nashville and we don't get to see each other often. But she and her beau were visiting Charleston with her whole big family, so I drove up for the day. Maybe I passed @Aera11 on the way out of town! 

It's a busy weekend for me so I'm very glad I took today off to have to do something fun. 

@reneeannemm I hope you, your cats, and your house are safe from fire and smoke. xo

@dubcompanion big internet hugs to you. 

Happy Friday! 

KarenBeth714

Yup @BornReady going to see the flecktones!! I love big country too.. and stomping grounds! Can't wait!!

BornReady

@Wishilivedinflorida I'm not even a hockey person and was crying at that clip, so touching. Family and love is such a beautiful thing.

@reneeannemm I hope the fire stayed away, sorry it put a damper on enjoying your lovely outdoor garden.

@chloe97 Have fun at the concert and good luck with the endoscopy on Monday! Sending you good vibes for some answers. 

@dubcompanion Grief is such a funny thing isn't it? Shows up and crashes over us so unexpectedly. I'm sure everyone understands.

@catiecatp Good luck decision making!Lots of exciting stuff going on for you, fingers crossed for you on many fronts, especially baby making ones.

@spartanrd I get in a funk about TTC sometimes too. I feel like I should be past all of this nonsense by now and have kids I could be doing things with, instead of STILL waiting to get pregnant. It puts me into some bad places now and again. Hugs your way.

@snobunniemel Enjoy your AC this weekend and happy car shopping!

As for us we are just hanging around mostly, but trying to go to dinner out tonight. Tuesday is our due date, so we want to spend some alone time one on one to honor this time and make a toast to the steps we are taking to get our rainbow baby. 

Otherwise, I have been pre-occupied at work, so I need to do some catch up at some point. 

Hope you all have a great weekend, we all deserve it!

dubcompanion

@iceandsnowflakes29 I'm so sorry that you've lost two important men in your life, one gone too soon and the other without a word. One of those alone would be hard to heal from, let alone compounded upon in a short time frame. Hugs to you and thank you for telling your story.

rainbowturtles

@iceandsnowflakes29 It was almost creepy reading your post. My dad died at 52, too, but from a truck accident (he was a truck driver and would have survived had he worn a seatbelt...wear your seat belts, people!), and I was only 3 months old.  Then my stepdad who was like a dad to me and I called him dad, died 7yrs ago from cancer. We also thought he was doing better than he let on and my mom and him had also split (years before) plus he lived in a different province. His death was very hard on me. Anyways, I'm sorry for your losses and just found the similarities a little eery! 

mylittleversailles

@KarenBeth714 L O V E the banjo. It is spectacularly hard to get good at, too.

@BornReady @fivetimesnoluck @Wishilivedinflorida Everything is fine here. It was an apartment above a super shady "massage" parlour. No one seems to have been hurt and it was under control almost as soon as the first responders got here. The owner is cleaning it out today; lots of bags of black stuff on the curb. 

BornReady

@chloe97 Hope your procedure went well today and you are home resting. Also, happy belated birthday, hopefully the Dixie Chicks were a good time!

chloe97

Thanks @BornReady! The procedure went well. I have esophagitis like we expected and most importantly for my hypochondria- I got my Dr to say that I do not have cancer. Now I just need to work on the hypochondria.

Dixie Chicks was amazing! A few of their songs made a little emotional, but in a good cathartic way. We pick up our puppy tomorrow. Big week!

catiecatp

@chloe97 - I'm glad your procedure went well and I hope we get a few puppy photos as soon as the pup gives you a moment of rest.

Wishilivedinflorida

@chloe I'm glad to hear your procedure went well and some of your fears were relieved. Esophagitis still sucks, through. Happy belated bday and glad the concert was awesome. I'm so excited for you to get your puppy and to share more pics (if you want), I'll live vicariously through you since DH said no to a dog for now! 

brooklyngirl18

@chloe97 i'm sorry about the esophagitis but i'm glad it's nothing more serious. YAY for puppy cuddles!

yolandamunoz

Oh @chloe97 I hope you are feeling better and recovering fast! your puppy will help you and cheer your days.

hugs!

Spartanrd4

@chole97 feel better and looking forward to more puppy pics