I hate breastfeeding. I was thinking back over some of the biggest challenges I've had - those things that I wanted to quit, but I pushed through. It's not the lack of sleep or having to figure out calming methods that are making me wish these first months away. It's the every 2-3 hours of having to bust out a boob and have it sucked on. It's the not being able to wear normal friggin' clothes. It's the inexperience/unknown of pumping and returning back to work. It's the militant all or nothing breastfeeding resources. This has got to be the most selfless thing I've done. I cannot wait until I build up a stash of breast milk and can drink an entire bottle of wine along with the highest mercury sushi I want. Maybe all I need is a really killer hangover to tie me over for a couple of months.
Fffc No. 2: My back has been killing me. My mom and husband keep saying "Get a massage!" But I haven't. I want one of them to 'gift' this new mama a massage :-P
I hate breastfeeding. I was thinking back over some of the biggest challenges I've had - those things that I wanted to quit, but I pushed through. It's not the lack of sleep or having to figure out calming methods that are making me wish these first months away. It's the every 2-3 hours of having to bust out a boob and have it sucked on. It's the not being able to wear normal friggin' clothes. It's the inexperience/unknown of pumping and returning back to work. It's the militant all or nothing breastfeeding resources. This has got to be the most selfless thing I've done. I cannot wait until I build up a stash of breast milk and can drink an entire bottle of wine along with the highest mercury sushi I want. Maybe all I need is a really killer hangover to tie me over for a couple of months.
THIS. I had no idea how hard breastfeeding would be! I thought that if my supply was good and she had a good latch it would be smooth sailing...ha! How stupid I was. It's seriously the hardest thing I've ever done in my life! And by far the most selfless. I've also never been so committed to something this difficult, I'm pretty sure I would have quit by now if it were anything else and to be honest I have no idea what it is that keeps me going with it but I'm not giving up. I set 8 weeks as the time to introduce her to the bottle and I'm sticking to that, I've only got 4 weeks left!
Not only are we approaching Memorial Day weekend but this weekend is also the 100th running of the Indianapolis 500. I'm not a huge race fan but DHs family is and I've gone to the race with them every year since we started dating. It's a great booze fest and this year I have to sit it out. I know I can't go to the actual race but I'm very tempted to pull out some of the pumped milk I have and booze it up with the family at their golf tournament and cookout tomorrow. I told myself I'd EBF for 6 weeks but it's so draining.
@Charla1224 And today is carb day! I hope you can enjoy your weekend somehow! I'm wondering if traffic and such will be crazy this weekend around the city since it's actually sold out this year?
I also severely dislike breastfeeding. While there are many good things about it (health, not having to wash bottles, being able to eat a whole pan of brownies and still lose weight), it's hard being the person who feeds the baby 95% of the time. I can't play w DS1 as much as I want which sucks. Though I managed to stick it out for 6 months last time, I am ok with quitting when I go back to work if it makes my life more enjoyable.
I've been in the hospital for 4 days 3 nights and I'm supposed to go home today. I really want to go home but I'm so overwhelmed at the thought of going home to a place that has been taken over by DH and our 3 other kids. All I keep envisioning is mountains of laundry and dishes and a weird smell. I may cry when I walk in the door.
@missnc77 figuring out pumping has to have been one of the worst parts so far! I still don't quite understand it.
My ffc is that I love cosleeping. Little one has a cosleeper on our bed and I love being able to just reach over and sooth her, or just acoop her up for night time feedings. Sure in a few months we're going to transition her to her room, but I'm going to miss being this close.
Disney Junior had kind of been on tap in my house since all the help left. As someone who was relatively strict about TV time with my toddler before having another baby, and even more so prior to pregnancy, I feel pretty damn guilty about this.
Disney Junior had kind of been on tap in my house since all the help left. As someone who was relatively strict about TV time with my toddler before having another baby, and even more so prior to pregnancy, I feel pretty damn guilty about this.
I'm with you @Bluejay3030. Trying not to feel guilty but it's hard. I don't know if you're open to it, but I've been trying to replace straight up tv with educational iPad apps in an attempt to have a more interactive experience for DS1 than mindless tv watching. I really like the Duck Duck Moose apps. While I'm feeding DS2 we sit and read a book through one of them or play a game and talk about it - for example he's obsessed with cars and they have a transportation bundle so we talk about washing the blue car, I ask if he can make the yellow car go etc so there's a little more interaction. It's helped me feel better about it and obviously he loves it.
I love my MIL. Really. But she has become so overbearing now that her first grandchild is here. She asked when she was visiting me in the hospital if she could watch me breast feed. I said sure and then she proceeded to come and stand right over my shoulder to watch. The two other times I fed Robin at her house she has been all up in my face hovering inches away from me moving LOs hands so she could see and it's driving me NUTS. Plus the smell of her breath kills me. I love the woman dearly but am on the verge of snapping at her if she doesn't give me some freaking space!
Fffc 2- baby girl has been sleeping all day and I'm not rushing to wake her up. Sometimes I love just laying on the couch, watching real housewives, with her sleeping on my chest. Being quiet. I guess I should wake her at some point to eat and do tummy time.
LO has been sleeping for the past 3 hours and it's been glorious. I managed to get some laundry done, pump, take a nap, transfer some of my milk into the freezer supply, pick up around the house a little, and get some dishes done. Now we're just chilling here with him sleeping on me and I'm watching tv. I have a feeling I'll regret this tonight, but it's so hard for me to disturb him while he's sleeping.
I'm with you ladies that are talking about breastfeeding being hard! I'm actually pissed at my midwives/Instagram/celebrities who make it seem like "you love your baby, you put them to the boob, it's bliss forever and you'll never want to stop". It's true, I don't want to stop breastfeeding, but it's really hard to be the only person. Must be nice to be the DH of an EBF mama- change the diaper then pass the baby off because they "must be hungry". i might also currently be hiding in my bathroom because DH stayed up to play video games till goodness knows when and is still asleep at 1pm while LO and I have been up since 9:30am.
I snapped at DH the other day and said "I can't believe using the bathroom and showering is a privilege now!" Because baby's always gotta be held or watched
Also, I dreaded my mom coming over to help me for 2 days out of the week. But she has, surprisingly, stepped up. I thought she was going to sit around and play with the baby (aka make him more angry then pass him back to me to soothe) or be a useless sack of potatoes.
She's washed dishes, prepare bottles, taken out the trash, changed, fed, put down for nap time so I can nap. It's helped me a ton. Really thankful for her even if she drives me crazy sometimes.
@AliciaD39 YASSS girl! Milk stash counting makes me happy too! And also, ditto on the cooking. DH is the cooker in this Fam, and he's trying...
Re: FFFC
DS: Born 5-17-16
DS: Born 5-17-16
stupid I was. It's seriously the hardest thing I've ever done in my life! And by far the most selfless. I've also never been so committed to something this difficult, I'm pretty sure I would have quit by now if it were anything else and to be honest I have no idea what it is that keeps me going with it but I'm not giving up. I set 8 weeks as the time to introduce her to the bottle and I'm sticking to that, I've only got 4 weeks left!
I know I can't go to the actual race but I'm very tempted to pull out some of the pumped milk I have and booze it up with the family at their golf tournament and cookout tomorrow. I told myself I'd EBF for 6 weeks but it's so draining.
DD: 05/14/16
My ffc is that I love cosleeping. Little one has a cosleeper on our bed and I love being able to just reach over and sooth her, or just acoop her up for night time feedings. Sure in a few months we're going to transition her to her room, but I'm going to miss being this close.
@gampster Whhhaaaat? You're too nice! I would have said no way.
i might also currently be hiding in my bathroom because DH stayed up to play video games till goodness knows when and is still asleep at 1pm while LO and I have been up since 9:30am.
Also, I dreaded my mom coming over to help me for 2 days out of the week. But she has, surprisingly, stepped up. I thought she was going to sit around and play with the baby (aka make him more angry then pass him back to me to soothe) or be a useless sack of potatoes.
She's washed dishes, prepare bottles, taken out the trash, changed, fed, put down for nap time so I can nap. It's helped me a ton. Really thankful for her even if she drives me crazy sometimes.
@AliciaD39 YASSS girl! Milk stash counting makes me happy too! And also, ditto on the cooking. DH is the cooker in this Fam, and he's trying...