Back here after 2nd loss TW

chloe97

Hi all:

I was a sporadic poster in this board December-February this year. My husband and I just suffered our 2nd loss in 6 months. This one was due to Triploidy (maternal) which we were diagnosed with at 12 weeks. We are beyond devastated. 

Im turning 37 in 2 weeks and my dreams of 2 children are quickly diminishing. I'm very very worried my eggs are bad. I've always had a bad pen/plastic chewing habit. I stopped completely when starting to TTC, but I'm worried that the BPA exposure has left me with only bad eggs left. We start working with an RE after I get my first period.

TTC after 2 losses at 37 is such a mindf$&@. I have no time to wait and I'm scared to death of getting pregnant again. I'm already thinking about egg donors. The good news is that I can get pregnant, I'm trying to focus on that, but it's hard.

PurpleRains

@chloe97 I am so very sorry for your loss and for your worries. I'm glad you are here - these ladies are amazing support. That you can get pregnant is fabulous! Focus on that and listen to your RE 

PoeMasque

So sorry to hear about the loss, I'd wondered where you went (yay to being able to get pregnant!). I know several women in their 20s who have suffered 2 or even 3 losses before carrying a healthy baby full term (and I see it at work all the time), so try not to feel too bad about the age part of it. 

good luck with the RE and welcome back to the board. (Although I feel sad in saying that )

Hopefulmommy1980

I am so sorry for your loss.

jennh75b

Welcome back, I'm sorry for the circumstances, though, and so very sorry for your losses.  

Vastra

So sorry for your losses. Hope the RE can help bring about some happy news. 

KLake42

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Please don't worry too much about the pen chewing.  I think all of us start looking for what it is "we did wrong," when we face struggles.  There are millions of factors at work, most of which are totally out of our control (environmental, genetic). 

You didn't do anything wrong.  The universe has thrown some hard stuff at you, and you are doing your best.

I hope things go well with the RE.

MntnGirl

I'm so sorry for your loss and hope that your time here is short. I agree with the PP - please don't blame yourself. We all have good eggs and bad eggs in the queue. Your RE can help assess what the best options are for you to grow your family. Taking that step was inevitable for DH and I and having a plan gave us hope.

KT&John

I'm so sorry for your losses. Glad to hear you are working with an RE. Hope your stay here is short and with some time you are able to be free of any blame you have placed on yourself.

thistle8677

@chloe97 I am so very sorry for you loss