I'm so tired of small talk about my pregnancy. I know people mean well, but there's only so many times I can state my due date, how I feel, the baby's gender, etc.
Married: May 2012 DS1: May 2016 DS2: Jan 2019 Baby #3 EDD: 6/18/24
I had to smell my underwear this morning to see if my water broke or if it was something else. Results are in.... I pee'd myself. What's extra sad is that daily accidents have become normal. I always miss that last trickle.
@yogahh I hated breasfeeding with my first, was so hard on myself I pumped exclusively for 6 months...total nightmare.
I hope this time it is easier/more enjoyable, if not there is no way in hell I will beat myself over it and I happily will formula feed.
I feel you.
I had to start supplementing last night. And honestly I'm ready to just say screw it, we are a formula house. But I'm going to give it a few more days.
@yogahh my first was exclusively formula fed and this next on will be too. My daughter is perfectly healthy and happy so if you decide to choose formula everything with be just fine!
I'm with @bshurdy - I'm so freaking tired of people commenting on my stomach or how she's "dropped" or "oh my gosh, you're still pregnant" comments. Yes, I'm still pregnant, obviously, or I wouldn't be at work. Next, I still have 2 more weeks. And lastly, can I comment on your belly and how it's changed in the past 9 months? Because I'm sure you wouldn't like what I have to say just as much as I don't like what you say.
I thought I'd hate breastfeeding, but I've been lucky that she was a good latcher, and my boobs were ready to make milk. I just hate that I feel like my life has turned into a ticking time clock between when she wants to eat vs. trying to do basic things for myself such as shower, eat, and go to the bathroom.
My FFFC - MAMA WANTS A DRINK. I didn't at first because I was so tired, but I want a glass of wine or a margarita so bad now. If I knew I'd have a good 2-3 hours between nursing, I'd have no problem drinking a glass or having a drink. But right now, sometimes she goes 2-3 hours, and sometimes she wants a mid-way snack. I just know if I go for a drink, in that window, she'll want a snack. I'm only 1 week post partum and not ready to start pumping, so I guess I just have to wait.
Anyone else had a drink yet? Not a sip, not a half glass, but a nice full glass of delicious vino?
I've picked up my 32lbs toddler twice now during my cs recovery...I was given a max weight limit of 20lbs for the first 2-3 weeks, but really, I'm just proud of myself that I've only done it twice. I mean, really, I'm still his mom too. How can I realistically go that long without lifting him at all?
@yogahh I hated breasfeeding with my first, was so hard on myself I pumped exclusively for 6 months...total nightmare.
I hope this time it is easier/more enjoyable, if not there is no way in hell I will beat myself over it and I happily will formula feed.
I feel you.
I hated it last time, too. SO much. It didn't work for our family at all and I felt so guilty and disappointed at first. As soon as we switched to formula, the baby was full and happy, I was happier and I felt like I had made the best decision for us. I felt like for the 6 weeks that I tried to make it work, I was missing out on enjoying any time whatsoever with the baby because of all the issues.
This time I've already decided to go straight to formula and no one is changing my mind. I refuse to feel like I did the first time (even though it could work better this time) and I feel so relieved.
On the other hand, I definitely admire the moms who start out with a hard time and push through it to go on to have a successful BF relationship with their babies!
I've picked up my 32lbs toddler twice now during my cs recovery...I was given a max weight limit of 20lbs for the first 2-3 weeks, but really, I'm just proud of myself that I've only done it twice. I mean, really, I'm still his mom too. How can I realistically go that long without lifting him at all?
this makes me hurt! I am afraid to bend over to pick up a kleenex
Today is my anniversary, but all I really want is sleep. Not a fancy dinner, not jewelry, not a night out or a movie. Just some glorious uninterrupted sleep. I don't want to get dressed up, do my hair and makeup, none of it (this is a big departure from my typical self). Just a bloody rest would be nice!!
Since that won't happen, I'm making DH pick up Thai on the way home and we are going to Netflix and chill once the toddler is in bed. Because that's all I can manage at this point.
I went pee the other day while I was baby wearing because my PP self could NOT hold it another second in order to take him out before I ran to restroom.
I went pee the other day while I was baby wearing because my PP self could NOT hold it another second in order to take him out before I ran to restroom.
He's gone to the bathroom with you for the past several months anyway, so no shame in it now. Still a funny visual, though!
I guess this goes with @VS2016 confession. I don't even really try to hold in gas anymore. 9 times out of 10 I just let it out. :x Especially at the gym. On the elliptical, bending over to pick up my water, stretching.. I just don't even care anymore. LOL
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
I'm usually pretty low maintenance, but I'm really pampering myself in these final days before LO arrives. I went for a mani/pedi after work yesterday, I have a prenatal massage scheduled for tomorrow afternoon, and I'm getting my hair cut and colored on Tuesday. Today is my last day in the office. Technically, I'll be "working from home" up until the time I deliver, but that actually means I'll be sleeping in and checking/responding to emails a couple times a day while I lie on the couch and catch up on Netflix. So, I guess my FFC is that I selfishly hope my "limbo" time between now and actual ML doesn't get cut short by LO's early arrival. Even though I'm getting uncomfortable, I'm sort of hoping I make it at least to my EDD (a week from Monday) because need some time to decompress, and who knows when I'm going to have the opportunity to relax again!
I'm with you! My girls actually do latch but it's still so uncomfortable for me. And I still pump and I hate that too. And I feel so guilty! Everyone keeps saying it shouldn't still be painful at this point, but it is so I'm not sure what to do next.
We are being induced on Sunday, and our 5 year anniversary is next Saturday. My FFFC is that I fully intend on having a little wine to celebrate. I think I've waited long enough and I want to celebrate!!
I still haven't had anything postpartum that I wasn't allowed to have in pregnancy. So I asked DH to pick up some sushi today. I don't think it's going to happen. Also bummed bc we were going to go for a walk somewhere today with LO. I was pretty excited. Got all ready, got the baby fed and dressed. Then DH changed his mind. And since I can't drive for 2 weeks I'm stuck here. DH kinda sucks today.
I'm technically not done with my work project... but it is currently being peer reviewed so I have nothing to actively work on. Eating chocolate chips seems like a good use of my time. I wish I knew if it would be reviewed today or if I should just go home though
I still haven't ordered a breast pump (due date is, uh, tomorrow) because I'm that convinced that I'll hate breastfeeding and won't want to do it.
If it turns out I'm wrong, fine, I'll order the pump at that point and I'm sure it'll all work out -- if it's going well already, I should be able to keep going without a pump for at least a week or so -- but I honestly have real, real low expectations of what I'm going to be willing to do on that front.
It isn't even about any "real" reason like pain or discomfort or prior sexual trauma or anything like that. I just straight-up do not want to do it. At this point I'm just banking on either hormones will hijack my brain, or this ain't happening.
My parents sent me a box of 12 chocolate covered strawberries yesterday as an early birthday present (I'll be 34 Monday eek). There are 5 left and I fully plan on eating them all today.
I hate having "big" boobs. Quotes because size DD seems huge to me since I'm used to being a small B. I definitely won't miss these milk jugs when I'm done BFing.
Mine is that I'm really enjoying the quiet downtime of being overdue. I wrapped up work stuff, and I'm living this glorious life of naps, Netflix and nesting. I work a lot, and every time I did baby stuff this spring, I'd feel guilty for what I was putting off work-wise. When I was working, I felt like a failure for not committing time to baby stuff. It's nice just having some quiet time for me, and to focus on picking (and re-picking and re-picking, lol) his go-home outfit, and reorganizing drawers and filling out this baby book my sister gave me. I feel more rested than I have in months.
I thought I'd hate breastfeeding, but I've been lucky that she was a good latcher, and my boobs were ready to make milk. I just hate that I feel like my life has turned into a ticking time clock between when she wants to eat vs. trying to do basic things for myself such as shower, eat, and go to the bathroom.
My FFFC - MAMA WANTS A DRINK. I didn't at first because I was so tired, but I want a glass of wine or a margarita so bad now. If I knew I'd have a good 2-3 hours between nursing, I'd have no problem drinking a glass or having a drink. But right now, sometimes she goes 2-3 hours, and sometimes she wants a mid-way snack. I just know if I go for a drink, in that window, she'll want a snack. I'm only 1 week post partum and not ready to start pumping, so I guess I just have to wait.
Anyone else had a drink yet? Not a sip, not a half glass, but a nice full glass of delicious vino?
I had my first drink last weekend one week PP... I told DH I wanted a nice big glass of red wine with dinner . I pumped before hand to make sure I had enough milk to cover the 2-3 hour time span it takes for the booze to process . The wine was delicious and well deserved ! I'm thinking I may have one glass on the weekend to unwind and relax even though it's a pain in the ass to plan ahead with pumped milk ! Oh that mom life !
@bkjade - I looooooooove doughnuts. I'm now tempted to go to the grocery store for one, even though they are probably stale. They just sound that delicious!
@bkjade - I looooooooove doughnuts. I'm now tempted to go to the grocery store for one, even though they are probably stale. They just sound that delicious!
Oh yeah, I had 2 delicious blueberry donuts today...no shame!!
2. I have $20 to go before I reach the $40 gift card when you spend $250 on baby purchases on target.com. WHAT ELSE do I need? I know eventually bottles, but my first was such a gremlin and I hate to buy without trying the two kinds I already have. Any ideas?
I hate pregnancy recovery WAY more than being pregnant. Being pregnant was way way easier. I hate being practically on bed rest and the constant pains now.
I'm probably jaded from my long hours of labor on pitocin and epidural not working which all ended in an emergency c-section. I'm hoping my next experience will be better (which won't be for a long time!)
@tgortney Hugs. It will get better, but I agree, recovery sucks. You're simultaneously given more responsibility than before and have reduced ability to handle that new responsibility. Plus, somehow you're supposed to enjoy every moment and also pretend you're not in pain. It can be a shock, especially the first time. Just try to be kind to yourself. It helps me to be a baby/toddler cuddles hog, so I'm trying to do that as much as possible.
I hate having "big" boobs. Quotes because size DD seems huge to me since I'm used to being a small B. I definitely won't miss these milk jugs when I'm done BFing.
Oh man I'm the opposite! I'm a small B usually too and I've always wanted slightly larger boobs. my complaint today is on cloth diapers. I was so for them and I've been peed on three times today through the leg hole. Cmon kid, I wore JEANS today!
@That1didntcount I obviously don't know what you already have, but could you just buy a few boxes of wipes or something?
I was thinking that - at this point you kind of have to buy sensitive wipes right? Since you don't know how they'll react? Any experience with the target up and up brand? They are probably a better value right?
David Schimmer (not sure I spelled his name right) has a new show coming out. Not sure I'll ever be able to see him as anything other than Ross from Friends.
Re: FFFC
DS1: May 2016
DS2: Jan 2019
Baby #3 EDD: 6/18/24
What's extra sad is that daily accidents have become normal. I always miss that last trickle.
DD: 05/14/16
I hope this time it is easier/more enjoyable, if not there is no way in hell I will beat myself over it and I happily will formula feed.
I feel you.
My FFFC - MAMA WANTS A DRINK. I didn't at first because I was so tired, but I want a glass of wine or a margarita so bad now. If I knew I'd have a good 2-3 hours between nursing, I'd have no problem drinking a glass or having a drink. But right now, sometimes she goes 2-3 hours, and sometimes she wants a mid-way snack. I just know if I go for a drink, in that window, she'll want a snack. I'm only 1 week post partum and not ready to start pumping, so I guess I just have to wait.
Anyone else had a drink yet? Not a sip, not a half glass, but a nice full glass of delicious vino?
This time I've already decided to go straight to formula and no one is changing my mind. I refuse to feel like I did the first time (even though it could work better this time) and I feel so relieved.
On the other hand, I definitely admire the moms who start out with a hard time and push through it to go on to have a successful BF relationship with their babies!
this makes me hurt! I am afraid to bend over to pick up a kleenex
Since that won't happen, I'm making DH pick up Thai on the way home and we are going to Netflix and chill once the toddler is in bed. Because that's all I can manage at this point.
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!If it turns out I'm wrong, fine, I'll order the pump at that point and I'm sure it'll all work out -- if it's going well already, I should be able to keep going without a pump for at least a week or so -- but I honestly have real, real low expectations of what I'm going to be willing to do on that front.
It isn't even about any "real" reason like pain or discomfort or prior sexual trauma or anything like that. I just straight-up do not want to do it. At this point I'm just banking on either hormones will hijack my brain, or this ain't happening.
I work a lot, and every time I did baby stuff this spring, I'd feel guilty for what I was putting off work-wise. When I was working, I felt like a failure for not committing time to baby stuff. It's nice just having some quiet time for me, and to focus on picking (and re-picking and re-picking, lol) his go-home outfit, and reorganizing drawers and filling out this baby book my sister gave me. I feel more rested than I have in months.
DS: Born 5-17-16
BFP #1: 9/12/2015
DD: 6/1/2016
BFP #2: 1/16/2018 MC 2/2/2018
1. I ate two lbs. of strawberries today.
2. I have $20 to go before I reach the $40 gift card when you spend $250 on baby purchases on target.com. WHAT ELSE do I need? I know eventually bottles, but my first was such a gremlin and I hate to buy without trying the two kinds I already have. Any ideas?
I'm probably jaded from my long hours of labor on pitocin and epidural not working which all ended in an emergency c-section. I'm hoping my next experience will be better (which won't be for a long time!)
my complaint today is on cloth diapers. I was so for them and I've been peed on three times today through the leg hole. Cmon kid, I wore JEANS today!
Another FFFC.....I gave up on "serving size" for ice cream a LONG time ago. I just scoop what looks good and tell myself it's for the calcium.....
@That1didntcount - I ditto the wipes/diapers option. Perhaps some larger clothing? Pacifiers? Something you may not need for a couple months maybe?
First Pregnancy
Second Pregnancy
- BFP: 09/11/2015
- EDD: 05/25/2016
Baby Born04/15/2016
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