Hi everyone. I'm having a really hard time coping when my loss. This was my first pregnancy and I've longed to be a mommy for as long as I can remember. When I went for my 12 week ultrasound my sweet baby was only measuring at 9 weeks, there was still a heartbeat. A few days later I ended up in the ER. Blood levels dropped and no heartbeat was detected on the ultrasound. My best friend just had a baby, my other best friend and my sister in law are bothdue 2 weeks before I was due. They both find out the genders of their babies this week. My other sister in law is due in 6 weeks. I just feel so defeated and crushes. None of my friends have experienced this (nor do I want them orAnyone to experience this) It's just hard to talk to them.
I keep praying and praying for a healthy pregnancy.
Re: Went for 12 week ultrasound but my baby stopped growing at 9 weeks
BFP #1 12/23/12 EDD 9/3/13 DD #1 8/26/13
BFP #2 2/25/16 EDD 11/5/16 MMC 4/15/16
BFP #3 8/31/16 EDD 5/12/17 It's a GIRL!
I found a lot of support here on The Bump, and it really made things.. more concrete as I typed things out and actually told people things. It helped me cope. Strangely enough, I'm glad I had people to tell - like my sister and and my small group. I was forced to keep busy by traveling and being around people and also returning to work, and that distraction helped me from spiraling down into a bad place for my health.
I encourage you to cry, mourn "silly" things that are tangible to you right now (like my announcement picture I can't use anymore) and keep busy. Don't isolate yourself all the time.
I know it's hard to be around women in your life who are pregnant or have babies, and I'm so sorry seeing them hurts. Hugs, hugs and more hugs.
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
I feel like a terrible person for seeing pregnant women and wanting to cry. Saturday is my sister in laws baby shower. Just need to get through that without a breakdown in front of everyone.
I'm staying busy and much as I can. My students are great! I'm slowly getting back into my workouts.
I can't wait to start trying again!
@Sugargirl1019 I know exactly what you mean when you said you mourn your announcement picture. We had all these plans, we had all these ideas and wants for our pregnancy. This is the dumbest thing but about 5 days before my mc I ordered preggy pops, well the day after my d&c they arrived. Im sure I looked hilarious crying over preggy pops candy but I was heartbroken. We all have those lil moments and Im sure Ill have more. We are grieving more than the loss of a baby, which that alone is hard, but were grieving the life it would of had, our chance at holding our babies, placing them in their nursery, their first words, all that. Those lil moments i break down allow me to function the rest of the day. We will be stronger from this, and our babies are waiting for us.
I feel like I have to go to my sister in laws (brothers wife) shower on Saturday. This is their rainbow baby. When they went for their 18 week appointment they found out their baby's heart stopped beating. It makes me feel horrible that they lost a baby and I have the jealousy feeling when I see her. What is wrong with me?!
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
I told them my story and had to take a little break..
as of now, I'm laying in bed with horrible cramps. I'm feeling like it's my AF coming (almost 4 weeks after D&C).
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN