@NamelessAria So good to see you!! I was all worried about you a couple days ago and totally stalked your previous posts to figure out where you were! Also, sorry you came back to the WTO.
@SnobunnieMel and @jenmlangtake2 I am so, so, so sorry to see you guys back here. Huge hugs. I'll be thinking of both of you in the coming days!
R/R/CS:
My grandma passed away this weekend. She was my last grandparent and it hit me today that I might have a child one day who will never know her. And it just makes me sad.
GTKY: Do you have any unusual fears? Something others might not find scary? I love how we all share common fears. I have many fears, but my house starting on fire with my animals in it tops the list. @mrsdee15 ET terrifies me! I'm scared of the dark, heights, spiders, flying, and death (among many other things).
WAYDTGKU: Clomid CD 5-9 but it didn't work. Just waiting for my doc to get back to me after looking over my chart so we can move on to the next round.
R/R/CS: I hate waiting. I just want to move on.
GTKY: I am afraid of large objects in the sky. That's the best way I can describe it although it's not 100% accurate. I get freaked out when the moon is big. I also get uncomfortable when skyscrapers are shrouded in mist, but not necessarily skyscrapers in general. The Eiffel Tower didn't scare me, I don't think. Thinking about Jupiter, especially thinking about it side by side with earth, makes me nervous. Looking at google maps and seeing the dark shapes of deep parts of the ocean freaks me out. But also, balloons being lost and flying up into the sky makes me uncomfortable.
Yeah, it's a weird thing.
Husband & I married May 26th, 2012
Me 28 Him 28
TTC #1 since January 1st 2016
Anovulatory with PCOS Clomid 50;100;150;200: No O TSH 3.75 Put on 50mg levothyroxine 1500 MG Metformin 7.5 MG Letrozole: No Follicles 9 MG Letrozole: 21mm Follicle no pregnancy 4 cycles at 9 MG Letrozole, No pregnancy
Hugs and love to all who need it today. Lots of heartbreak and hurting here, and just know I'm thinking about each of you and hoping for the best.
Month/Cycle: 13
CD: 27
WAYDTGKU: Clomid plus everything else
R/R/CS: Still no O. So I called the doc, who doesn't believe in temping, and they just want me to repeat same dose next cycle with additional monitoring near O, but they asked if I had started my period yet and I said no, and they said well, just test anyways even though you don't think you have ovulated. Which is what my overly optimistic husband was wanting me to do yesterday, but I talked him out of it because science. So after they mentioned it too, my BSC came out... What if I was wrong? What if my temps were just off?? And so I tested. In WTO. And of course, bfn. I knew better than that. Stupid. So I'll just be over here sticking with my science from now on, and DH and Doctor can go with the rainbows and butterflies special snowflayke ideas.
GTKY: Do you have any unusual fears? Something others might not find scary? I have a real fear that someone is behind the shower curtain in every bathroom. I literally have to look before I go to the bathroom.
Married 2011
TTC #1 since April 2015
Fur child: One awesome Golden Retriever IUI August 2016 : Cancelled due to polyp September 2016: Polyp removal/hysteroscopy October 2016: IUI #1- BFN November 2016: IUI #2- BFN December 2016: IUI #3 - BFN January/February 2017 - IVF + ICSI + PGD March 2017 - FET
@NamelessAria those ones make me SUPER itchy, but blisters, that's just awful...
linzrunz sorry to hear about your pup, Fx for a speedy recovery.
Overall it seems like there's a lot of ladies having a rough day or couple of days, so I'll just throw one big blanket hug out to anyone that feels like they need it.
Month/Cycle: 2/2
CD: 11
WAYDTGKU: aiming for BD EOD, temping, trying to figure out CM, waiting...
R/R/CS: so not TTC related. But I HATE the building/neighborhood I live in, I'm so glad I'm moving out but 2 weeks, but right now it's two weeks too long, the people around here are awful. Today it was some trashy woman who apparently doesn't understand that stopping and standing in the middle of the driveway of a busy parking garage for no apparent reason is a) a stupid thing to do b) is completely pointless since she could have stopped walking 2 feet to the left and been completely out of the way c) that when a car pulls up to said driveway you should move the 2 feet to the left rather than continuing to block the driveway, and leave the driver blocking traffic on the road. And apparently this woman is so crazy that when I shook my head at her ignorance as I had to drive around her and it was all but impossible to open the garage door with the parking key, she took that as a cue to chase me into the parking garage to my spot, which is unfortunately right by the door, and scream at me, calling me every name under the sun, (I'll be honest, I had a few words for her by this point too). Tried to follow me to my apartment and when I wouldn't allow that she spat right in my face. Then still wouldn't leave me alone until I eventually called the cops. What bothers me most now is that a) she knows where I park my car, and b) that she took pictures of my license plate and of me. The police that came to talk to me were great about it, I really didn't even want them to have to respond after she left, but I couldn't get rid of her any other way and after I called the dispatcher ended up sending them anyway. And to top it off, this psycho has a tiny perfect baby... and all I could think was why does she deserve that but I (not to mention all the amazing women on here who have been waiting and trying so long and want it so bad) don't get one.
GTKY: Do you have any unusual fears? Something others might not find scary?
like I mentioned above I have a paralyzing fear or heights, I'm also petrified of mice and other small rodents (pet or otherwise) oddly the larger ones, from rat sized up (as pets, pretty sure a wild rat would still send me for the hills) don't bother me at all. I also have an unfortunate habit of assuming that the absolute worst case scenario is what is inevitably happening.
@Kiki75 thank you. I think we are going to try to go back to just enjoying each other. As small as it is I think him noticing I'm temping and seeing all the tests in the garbage are making it more stressful for him than it needs to be. We will see. I'm a control freak so I like to know what's going on but at the same time I'm doing all of this stuff and I still don't have a clue!
@loveinak I'm so sorry for your loss. I was in that same place this fall, it's hard but I promised to keep his spirit alive for future generations. Hugs
@Mlight28 I didn't know temping was something doctors could "not believe in." I could understand questioning the person's methods or something, but this isn't a Santa Claus situation. So your doctor doesn't think that temperatures shift during a woman's cycle?
@Mlight28 and @MollyandD Mine doesn't either. When I mentioned in my first appointment that I was temping he just shook his head and said 'that's not an indicator of anything'. He's been amazing in every other regard, but I just continued to temp and not mention it.
Me: 32 DH: 33 Married: October 2015 TTC #1: October 2015 EDD #1: June/July 2017
@MollyandD@MelissaM090 I know, right?!? I had read on here that many doctors don't really put much trust in temping, so I wasn't blindsided by mine when he brushed it off too. I would have totally printed out charts and brought them, if I hadn't heard that here already. But yeah, I'm with ya. I have no clue how he could not at least see the science behind it. He told me to use OPKs, which I have never gotten a single positive, so I'd be wasting my time and missing my window every time.
Married 2011
TTC #1 since April 2015
Fur child: One awesome Golden Retriever IUI August 2016 : Cancelled due to polyp September 2016: Polyp removal/hysteroscopy October 2016: IUI #1- BFN November 2016: IUI #2- BFN December 2016: IUI #3 - BFN January/February 2017 - IVF + ICSI + PGD March 2017 - FET
Re: WTO Monday
@SnobunnieMel and @jenmlangtake2 I am so, so, so sorry to see you guys back here. Huge hugs. I'll be thinking of both of you in the coming days!
CD: 8
WAYDTGKU: PNV, metformin
R/R/CS: My grandma passed away this weekend. She was my last grandparent and it hit me today that I might have a child one day who will never know her. And it just makes me sad.
GTKY: Do you have any unusual fears? Something others might not find scary?
I love how we all share common fears. I have many fears, but my house starting on fire with my animals in it tops the list. @mrsdee15 ET terrifies me! I'm scared of the dark, heights, spiders, flying, and death (among many other things).
CD: 32
WAYDTGKU: Clomid CD 5-9 but it didn't work. Just waiting for my doc to get back to me after looking over my chart so we can move on to the next round.
R/R/CS: I hate waiting. I just want to move on.
GTKY: I am afraid of large objects in the sky. That's the best way I can describe it although it's not 100% accurate. I get freaked out when the moon is big. I also get uncomfortable when skyscrapers are shrouded in mist, but not necessarily skyscrapers in general. The Eiffel Tower didn't scare me, I don't think. Thinking about Jupiter, especially thinking about it side by side with earth, makes me nervous. Looking at google maps and seeing the dark shapes of deep parts of the ocean freaks me out. But also, balloons being lost and flying up into the sky makes me uncomfortable.
Yeah, it's a weird thing.
Clomid 50;100;150;200: No O
TSH 3.75 Put on 50mg levothyroxine
1500 MG Metformin
7.5 MG Letrozole: No Follicles
9 MG Letrozole: 21mm Follicle no pregnancy
4 cycles at 9 MG Letrozole, No pregnancy
Month/Cycle: 13
CD: 27
WAYDTGKU: Clomid plus everything else
R/R/CS: Still no O. So I called the doc, who doesn't believe in temping, and they just want me to repeat same dose next cycle with additional monitoring near O, but they asked if I had started my period yet and I said no, and they said well, just test anyways even though you don't think you have ovulated. Which is what my overly optimistic husband was wanting me to do yesterday, but I talked him out of it because science.
So after they mentioned it too, my BSC came out... What if I was wrong? What if my temps were just off?? And so I tested. In WTO. And of course, bfn. I knew better than that. Stupid.
So I'll just be over here sticking with my science from now on, and DH and Doctor can go with the rainbows and butterflies special snowflayke ideas.
GTKY: Do you have any unusual fears? Something others might not find scary?
I have a real fear that someone is behind the shower curtain in every bathroom. I literally have to look before I go to the bathroom.
IUI August 2016 : Cancelled due to polyp
September 2016: Polyp removal/hysteroscopy
October 2016: IUI #1- BFN
November 2016: IUI #2- BFN
December 2016: IUI #3 - BFN
January/February 2017 - IVF + ICSI + PGD
March 2017 - FET
@beary67 sorry you had such a tough weekend, glad your DH is such a trooper. Fx all goes well with the RE
@snowbunniemel and @jenmlangtake2 so sorry ladies, I can't begin to think of what to say.
@NamelessAria those ones make me SUPER itchy, but blisters, that's just awful...
linzrunz sorry to hear about your pup, Fx for a speedy recovery.
Overall it seems like there's a lot of ladies having a rough day or couple of days, so I'll just throw one big blanket hug out to anyone that feels like they need it.
Month/Cycle: 2/2
CD: 11
WAYDTGKU: aiming for BD EOD, temping, trying to figure out CM, waiting...
R/R/CS: so not TTC related. But I HATE the building/neighborhood I live in, I'm so glad I'm moving out but 2 weeks, but right now it's two weeks too long, the people around here are awful. Today it was some trashy woman who apparently doesn't understand that stopping and standing in the middle of the driveway of a busy parking garage for no apparent reason is a) a stupid thing to do b) is completely pointless since she could have stopped walking 2 feet to the left and been completely out of the way c) that when a car pulls up to said driveway you should move the 2 feet to the left rather than continuing to block the driveway, and leave the driver blocking traffic on the road. And apparently this woman is so crazy that when I shook my head at her ignorance as I had to drive around her and it was all but impossible to open the garage door with the parking key, she took that as a cue to chase me into the parking garage to my spot, which is unfortunately right by the door, and scream at me, calling me every name under the sun, (I'll be honest, I had a few words for her by this point too). Tried to follow me to my apartment and when I wouldn't allow that she spat right in my face. Then still wouldn't leave me alone until I eventually called the cops. What bothers me most now is that a) she knows where I park my car, and b) that she took pictures of my license plate and of me. The police that came to talk to me were great about it, I really didn't even want them to have to respond after she left, but I couldn't get rid of her any other way and after I called the dispatcher ended up sending them anyway. And to top it off, this psycho has a tiny perfect baby... and all I could think was why does she deserve that but I (not to mention all the amazing women on here who have been waiting and trying so long and want it so bad) don't get one.
GTKY: Do you have any unusual fears? Something others might not find scary?
like I mentioned above I have a paralyzing fear or heights, I'm also petrified of mice and other small rodents (pet or otherwise) oddly the larger ones, from rat sized up (as pets, pretty sure a wild rat would still send me for the hills) don't bother me at all. I also have an unfortunate habit of assuming that the absolute worst case scenario is what is inevitably happening.
DH: 33
Married: October 2015
TTC #1: October 2015
EDD #1: June/July 2017
But yeah, I'm with ya. I have no clue how he could not at least see the science behind it.
He told me to use OPKs, which I have never gotten a single positive, so I'd be wasting my time and missing my window every time.
IUI August 2016 : Cancelled due to polyp
September 2016: Polyp removal/hysteroscopy
October 2016: IUI #1- BFN
November 2016: IUI #2- BFN
December 2016: IUI #3 - BFN
January/February 2017 - IVF + ICSI + PGD
March 2017 - FET