I've always considered myself a pretty realistic person... But when it has come to this inevitable miscarriage, I am in complete denial. Perhaps it's because my miscarriage story is a little different from what I've been reading... My pregnancy came as a most delightful surprise. I had an IUD removed a month prior and was concerned when my periods were not returning. Eventually I took a pregnancy test and was ecstatic at the results. However it made timing the pregnancy pretty difficult - since I didn't have a LMP, the only way to know how far along was through an ultrasound. During the US, they quickly identified the sak which already had a fetus measuring 6.5 weeks. The best part was that my baby already had a heartbeat that we could see - a tiny little flicker that reassured me that everything was going to be ok and my baby was developing nicely!!
Fast forward 3 weeks and I'm then 9 weeks pregnant. Suddenly I notice brown spotting. I know that spotting is not normal but pretty common, so I try not to panic... After research, I decide if it has not gone away after 2 full days, I will go in. However, I wake up the next morning to blood. The blood is not a lot, but naturally concerning regardless. I go in and they do another US. This time they see the sak, but the baby has mysteriously disappeared. They take me back to the office to discuss miscarriage.
They immediately talked to me about D&C. They told me the baby never formed. When I explained that I saw the baby before the doctor just said he didn't have a clear copy of the scans but that it might have been a mistake. How can one doctor show me my baby (with a heartbeat) and then 3 weeks later the baby is gone and another doctor is telling me the baby never formed at all? I cannot come to terms with any of this. I feel destroyed and I cannot grieve right now when I feel I don't know the whole story.
Did anyone else see their baby with a heartbeat before their miscarriage? Was anyone able to explain to you exactly what happened? I'm having trouble coping because my understanding is lacking and I could really use help.