How to cope after stillbirth

Aquarius923

Hi everyone,

On 12/10/15 my daughter was born still at 23.5 weeks. No cause was found besides suspected atypical abruption. We were devastated as she was also our rainbow baby.

On friday, I discovered I was expecting again. I am 4 weeks today. I had initial hcg and progesterone drawn on friday. At 3w2d hcg was 30 and progesterone was 25.9. The on call doctor refused to order a second draw and I never got a callback today.

I know there isn't nothing that can be done for me right now. What will happen, will happen. However I'm already having major anxiety over this pregnancy. I'm convinced I'm going to miscarry or there will be no heartbeat on the 27th.

How do you deal with this? How do you find faith? 

waterfall213

I'm so sorry for your loss. My daughter was stillborn in September at 31 weeks. We also don't have a reason/cause. All the testing came back fine.

I'm now 10 weeks pregnant. I just remind myself that today I am pregnant and try to stay calm. Some days are more difficult than others. I did ask my OB for an early ultrasound for peace of mind. However, I still feel like I'll be holding my breath until I'm holding a healthy baby. 

carrieandr

I'm actually 23.5 weeks pregnant right now. I can't begin to imagine what you've been through. I did have two losses, though, and I know the anxiety is tough to control. If I could go back and give myself advice at the beginning of this pregnancy it would be to try not to analyze every symptom and feeling. Instead I would focus on relaxing, meditating and doing things I enjoy. Like you said -- what will happen, will happen. All you can do is try to be at peace while you wait. Good luck. 

EmmieAnn22

I'm so sorry for you loss. I lost my son at 37 weeks this past September.  Our only answer was that the placenta had began detaching early but no idea why.

I wish I had amazing advice for you but I think we are all have the same struggles.   I try just taking it one day at a time and focus on whatever positive I can.  Sometimes I just can't do that and I'm learning that's ok too.   I find this board really helpful to not feel alone in all the feelings I have.  

 

Aquarius923

Thanks everyone. 

I feel like shouting from the rooftops but also hiding from the world all at the same time! 

My daughters due date was Sunday so while I'm excited to be expecting, I'm gutted because I should have a newborn.

indy_chic

Aquarius923 said:

Thanks everyone. 

I feel like shouting from the rooftops but also hiding from the world all at the same time! 

My daughters due date was Sunday so while I'm excited to be expecting, I'm gutted because I should have a newborn.






This! I want to tell everyone but also no one at the same time. I wish that I (we) didn't have to feel this way.