my child was born 5 weeks early and because of that he is having a hard time breast feeding. He gets very tired at the breast after a few sucks and therefore is loosing weight. The dr has us feeding by bottle and if he is still hungry then putting him to breast. I'm ready to give up breast feeding and just go to pumping. While talking to my husband I inadvertently said I wish I had a normal child. I regretted it immediately but now my husband thinks little of me and I think even less of myself. How can I over come this small obstacle of thinking such awful things and being such a bad mom?