New Here. Just wanted to introduce myself.

ACAC25

Hi All.
      My name is Ashley and I'm 100% sure I belong on this board yet as I've only been TTC for 10 months. But I feel like I need support. I have lurked and posted a few times on the TTC board. Here are some of my details. My husband and I are 26. I was on BCP for 8 years and stopped taking it April 2015 and we started TTC immediately.  So far we have been unsuccessful.  There have been a few times where I thought I was pregnant and ultimately got BFN and AF eventually. It makes me really sad and kinda depressed. I didn't think it would be this hard especially because currently we do not know of any reason why we are having difficulties. Our family and friends do not know we are TTC and do not know we are having difficulties.  Sometimes I just sit and cry because I want it so bad.
       In a few weeks my doctor is sending off a referral to a fertility clinic in my area to get the ball rolling on testing. 
Thank you for reading my post. I look forward to talking with you ladies. 
Ashley

BrightenMySky

Hi @ACAC25 welcome and I hope your stay here is short.  I think getting a referral so that you can get to see an RE right around the 12-month mark is a great idea.  We told our parents around the one-year mark, and it was an awkward conversation.  Me: "We're thinking of starting a family soon."  Parents: "Yay, no wine for you!!!"  Me: "Well, actually, no.  We are working with an RE..." etc.  

It is very hard to get the BFN month after month.  It's not a good solution for everyone, but when we were in our first year of trying, we took a month off (I was on hold to do a bone marrow donation that would not have been possible if pregnant, but that ended up not happening), and I still remember how good it felt that month not to feel sad when AF came.  Easier said than done, but if you have an excuse, like I did, it can be a nice break.  

wifeinraleigh28

Welcome @ACAC25, hopefully you won't be here long and that the testing you get with the RE will provide some clarity and solutions!  Finding out something is wrong is never easy, but I actually find it easier than trying month after month and not knowing why it isn't happening.  I've met many women on this board who got pregnant pretty quickly after receiving a diagnosis and getting the appropriate treatment, so hopefully it will be quick for you!

ACAC25

@BrightenMySky thank you for your advice. Last month we ended up taking a month break mostly by force. We went to Mexico and were told that we could not try for a month after we returned because of the Zika Virus risk. It was nice to not have any pressure (mostly from myself), but I was eager to get started again this month. 
@wifeinraleigh28 thank you for your advice and encouragement.  I am anxious to find out what is happening and I agree it is scary to think that there is something wrong. But at the same time I feel like that I might be able to better get us on track instead of just blundering along blindly. 

ReesaAnne16

Welcome we've been ttc about the same length of time as you. I understand your frustration, especially feeling frustrated that others seem to get pregnant so easily. I hope you have a productive RE visit; I felt better after having all the testing done and it's made it easier to be patient. GL to you.

lablover78

Welcome! The emotions that come with tttc can definitely blind side you. Although I fully anticipated it being hard for me since I've always had irregular cycles I didn't expect to have my heart broken repeatedly for an extended period of time. This is a great place to get support and connect with others who know how you feel. You are not alone!