Introduction TW/TMI

CClark2014 · March 2016

I wanted to introduce myself to this board because I felt like I received so much support when it was needed during our initial TTC journey and then on our BMB. I really think this community is such a great resource no matter what stage you are in.

It still doesn't feel quite real that I'm no longer pregnant and we are at this stage, but here goes... (apologies in advance, this will be rambling and TMI)

My husband and I were overjoyed with our first BFP on Christmas Eve, after TTC since July. Unfortunately, my pregnancy seemed really rocky and difficult from the very beginning, only in the last few weeks was I feeling like I was finally starting to enjoy myself. Even though there were difficulties, we were always relieved to see a strong hb and normal US and Dr visits. I had pretty regular spotting from about 5-6 weeks, and last Thursday (13w6d) it actually seemed like it was lessening. But that evening I started cramping. I woke up around 12 and started to get really worried because the cramping was much more (but I could still walk/talk/etc), I walked out of the bathroom and immediately the pain had me doubled over. I felt like I had to have a BM, (I was clinging to the hope that maybe this was all just horrible gas or constipation) but as soon as I sat down there was a pop and a gush of fluid and I knew my water had broke. I screamed for my husband, but my body was already starting to contract and trying to push. I started to pass the baby, but it wasn't progressing, so I just grabbed a towel and we left for the hospital. Luckily we live only about 10 min normally from the hospital so at 1230am, and with my husband flying, we were there in just a couple min. I was so lucky to have had 2 amazing nurses to help me with everything, but I ended up fully delivering shortly after we got there. I didn't require a D&C that night. We went home around 6 the next morning. I feel like I've been in a fog ever since.

They are going to be doing genetic testing on the baby, and my Beta levels were already at 2,000 on Monday morning.

Prior to even TTC (before we were even married), my husband was positive that he didn't want kids, but we finally came to the decision that 1 would complete our family. And even though we were actively trying and then he was really happy when we got pregnant, he told me the other night that until this happened, he didn't realize how much he was wanting a baby. He has been so amazingly supportive during all of this, I don't think I could have done it without him.

So, that's what has brought us here, sorry it was so long, I just started typing and I all just came out.

catiecatp · March 2016

My heart goes out to you - I'm sorry to see you join us, but we're a great group and we'll support you as best as we can

dpjennifer · March 2016

I'm sorry for your loss. But welcome to the group, I've found it to be tremendously helpful!

cooaladoll · March 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. Lovely though that your husband had been so supportive and realizes how much he does want a child. Rambling and venting here has helped me a lot and hopefully will for you too .

beff12 · March 2016

I'm so sorry to hear your story and hope that you can find comfort and support here.

ETA this group has done wonderful
things for me!!

ThePax89 · March 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss and for your pain. How terribly traumatic. I'll be thinking of you.

fivetimesnoluck · March 2016

I am so sorry for your loss but happy you have found us here.

glamakitti · March 2016

Sorry for your loss. We'll be here when you need to rant and rave x

penelope4612 · March 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome.

megsbrock · March 2016

So very sorry for your loss, I was in tears reading your story. How scary. Thank you for sharing and I hope you are taking care of yourself on your healing journey.