Hi all- Introduction ***Child mentioned***

mamma1614

Hi ladies, I am new to this board and would like to introduce myself. I am a mother of a baby boy who is two years and a couple of months old. With our first we got pregnant very quick-within the first few months of trying. We've been trying for our second child for about a year now. After about 9 months of nothing happening I thought something was off and decided it wouldn't hurt to contact a fertility Doc and take some tests. Turns out I have a sizable polyp in my uterus. Now we have put off TTC until we have it removed. The Dr said there is a chance of a miscarriage with having a polyp, so we decided its best to wait until after the procedure.

 At this point I am waiting to get an appointment to get it removed possibly in May, which feels like forever to me, but in the grand scheme of things my logic knows its really not that long. Anyway, that's my story. I was searching around for a while on this board and the internet for some positive stories after having this type of procedure but not much luck. I hear from the Dr and many other boards is that the polyp is usually not the reason for IF. I am really hoping that for me it is.
This journey so far has been kind of like a rolling snowball. It all started out small, but then every time I found out bad news or went through some test, I collected it and bottled any bad feelings, shake it off and tried to stay positive like going to the gym or eating healthy.

Now, after holding it in for so long, I finally broke. I get emotional in front of my son many times and can't control myself. For God's sake- I cried the other day watching with my son an episode of the cartoon Peppa pig where Peppa is showing off her little brother and raving about how brilliant he is. Its pretty sad.
I try my best to thank God that there isn't anything worse in my life, but its not very reassuring. This has also taken a toll on my relationship with my husband as well and we fight much more. Its just not good or healthy for any of us.

Thank you and wishing everybody best of luck on your journeys!

vssbrm

Welcome and I am sorry you have to be here. I'm am sure the time will fly by for you! Hopefully the polyp is the only thing standing in your way. You will find the group of women here very supportive!

I did want to mention that you should include a **trigger warning** in your post when referencing having a son. If you are not sure how to do this the first few new-b threads in the infertility forum describe it. Most of the women here do not have other children (but thankfully have noticed more lately) and when this is their safe place to come to it can be hurtful/painful when reading about someone else having a child, especially on a very crapy day.

good luck to you, and again - Welcome!

tvh1982

Hi and welcome!
Youve come to the right board to get support. 
These ladies have given me more support then they would ever know.

I have no experience with polyp in uterus, but I'll cross my fingers that the polyp is the 'only' thing in your way.
Waiting is the worst, but we are almost through the first week of March..so we are getting there!

Do talk to us on here to get some of the frustration out and not let the emotional part flowing over. We are great listeners/readers. 

A *trigger warning* is preferable when mentioning a child like @vssbrm mentioned above. But let that not stop you for posting more! 

GL on your journey, keep us posted!

mamma1614

@tvh1982 & @vssbrmThank you so much for accepting me into your group. Secondary infertility is more common than I thought, that's why I knew I'm not the only one. It is just as frustrating if not more having difficulties having more kids than one might think. I will make sure to include the trigger warning next time I post something that mentions a child. Thanks for listening! 

vssbrm

I can imagine it is very frustrating - your body worked the first time, why isn't it working now?! I know my friends who took a while to get pregnant were very relieved when they were able to naturally, I'm sure the 180 from the relief of thinking you don't have to worry about infertility to it occupying your mind all the time is miserable. Hopefully your wait is not too long, in the meantime cherish all the one-on-one time with your son - I hear #2 can rock a family's world!!

oxinfree

@mamma1614 welcome my dear! sorry you've found yourself on the infertility journey this time around. Big hugs. Don't bottle it up. Cry it out! We're here to support you!!! xx