Is this PPD?

2winterbabies

I did not like being pregnant with DD. I am a STM and this pregnancy was a lot harder than the first one. However, now that it is all over I am extremely sad almost to the point of being depressed. DH and I want 2 kids only and I was so sure of it until after DD was born. She is not easier than DS was...but just something inside of me makes me so happy to care for her than anything else. When DS was born I had PPD. I was constantly crying and told myself I wasn't ready to be a mom, now with this baby it's the total opposite. I love being a mom and never realized before how much hard work it was yet it is so rewarding to me. I just feel so good even though I am sleep deprived and hungry that I told myself I can do it all over again but I would like to have another baby within the next year if that is the case but DH is 100% not on board with a third child. For this reason, I feel depressed because there is no changing his mind. I don't know if what I am feeling is just a temporary feeling. I just hate that this chapter of my life could possibly over -- it brings me to tears thinking about it. Would you call this PPD? I made an appointment to my doctor because I am starting to feel more sad than the past couple of weeks about it.

Edit: 8 weeks PP here

Bigboobsmcgee

That's a tough one. I'm not sure that's exactly PPD but could be. Feeling intense emotions whether positive or negative could be a result of hormones being out of whack. Maybe you need to talk to your husband about these feelings since he plays a part in all of this.

2winterbabies

Bigboobsmcgee said:

That's a tough one. I'm not sure that's exactly PPD but could be. Feeling intense emotions whether positive or negative could be a result of hormones being out of whack. Maybe you need to talk to your husband about these feelings since he plays a part in all of this.

Well I am almost 10 weeks PP. I was thinking it may be hormones, but at 10 weeks could they still be out of whack? I see my doctor tomorrow so I will get all the answers I am looking for. I have talked to my DH about it and he is worried that I am thinking of another child so soon. I told him no, not at this minute, our DD just turned 2 months! But if we wanted a 3rd that it may be in our best interest to do it within the next year because of our age. He will be 35 next year and I know fertility decreases starting at that age for females (not sure about men).He told me he is completely done. Financially he believes it's for the best of us, and I agree, but I think anything is doable if you really want it. 

Thinking more about it, I am starting to get this guiltiness that men have when they are the only child and need to carry on that last name. My DH is one of those guys. He needs to carry on his last name and I only could give him 1 boy. It's fine because we both wanted 1 boy and 1 girl -- no regrets AT ALL about any of our children, but is one boy enough? I feel like I should TRY for another boy. I thought about if baby ended up being a girl. I believe I would be happy either way. I never had that "gender disappointment" that some people experience. I am happy to just have a baby and experience the whole pregnancy process. From my first ultrasound, to the 20 week anatomy scan, to the glucose test... all of it. I enjoyed picking out the clothes and making a nursery. I miss it all, @Bigboobsmcgee

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Update: I went to my OB today and poured my feelings to her. She said it's okay to yearn for another child soon after baby but for it to bring me to tears and feeling extreme sadness everyday by not having another child is not. She diagnosed me with PPD and prescribed me two medications. Although I have no ill feelings toward DD nor do I dislike being a mom. Just these intense emotions are still from my hormones being out of whack.

I hope I get better day by day. I miss pregnancy! Ugh!