So..DH bday is tomorrow and he has had a big weekend in Tulsa (only 2.5 hours away from us) planned since I was pregnant. I stupidly thought "oh she'll be 2 months old it'll be okay" at the time and now I'm second guessing. I'm terrified to get her out of her element here. We have my step children this weekend also. I'm worried about everything to do with the trip. We are supposed to stay with one of DHs friends (who I've never been fond of) and Now that I'm back to work it's like she wants to nurse constantly again when I am home, which is fine but I don't want to feel weird doing it CONSTANTLY at his house or feeling the need to leave. She's also just started her second leap in the wonder weeks so maybe that's why. Anyway im worried we are gonna screw up her sleep schedule also. She's done amazing at night. I'm worried about taking her to restaurants (which she never does well during).
the point is..I told DH to take the kids and enjoy their weekend and I'd stay home with Lyncoln. Which breaks my heart because will be the first birthday since we've been together we won't celebrate together and I feel so guilty, and also a little left out . Just wanting to see if you guys think I should just suck it up and try to go and make the best of it for DH? I'm afraid I won't enjoy myself at all due to worrying about everything!