@FiancB So sorry about your loss. Sending good luck vibes for next weeks clinical! Also, leaving if you need to does not mean you're weak, it means your a human with human emotions, and that's okay. You seem familiar, were we in the same BMB group possibly?
@cooaladoll I had a coworker who conceived immediately AL. She went on to have a full term pregnancy, so it is possible! Hang in there. I definitely understand the hibernating/isolating, I do the same.
@GhanimaAtreides FX for a BFP this cycle. Your DD sounds so darn sweet!
@Aquarius923 So sorry to hear about your loss. Sending love and hoping AF stays away!
@FiancB So sorry about your loss. Sending good luck vibes for next weeks clinical! Also, leaving if you need to does not mean you're weak, it means your a human with human emotions, and that's okay. You seem familiar, were we in the same BMB group possibly?
Not sure, I was in July '16. I do post here pretty regularly, but always re-introduce myself since I don't expect people to remember my circumstances. Thank you for your kind words.
LFAF/Nov 16 challenge: Bad TV moms that shouldn't be celebrated
BFP #1 10/30/15 MMC found 11/30/15 D&C 12/11/15 EDD 7/9/16
healing comes in waves, and maybe today the wave hits the rocks and that’s ok, that’s ok, darling. you are still healing, you are still healing- Ijeoma Umebinyuo, be gentle with yourself BFP #2 3/21 EDD 11/28/16
Thanks @bornready I'm using the Advanced CBE which measure both. I'd be more apt to believe it if I had any fertile CM, but I've had nothing. You had acupuncture and it shortened your LP??? That is the thing about starting acupuncture right after a loss is there is no way to know if acupuncture caused the issues or if your loss caused the hormone issues. It just seems weird that I'm worse 3 months after my loss than I was 2 months after it.
@Chloe77Yes, my LP has been very short since my MC in November and it wasn't really ever positively effected by the acupuncture. I don't think it necessarily caused it, but I was done considering that as a factor. I may go back when my body feels a little more balanced and I feel like I won't assume the negative things I'm experiencing are attributed to that. I think I was just in a place where I was looking to place blame and that happened to be it in the moment. It was also getting ridiculously expensive.
I use the Advanced CBE OPKs too. I usually get several days of flashing smily faces before my peak, but it usually matches up with other signs as well. Are you on any supplements that might be impacting your estrogen or have you had an issue with estrogen dominance in the past or PCOS? Hope your new RE gets this all figured out for you!
So, I tested this morning at 12 DPO and saw ghosts of lines (not even worth calling squinters) on a Wondfo and an FRER. They showed up right at the time limit for the Wondfo and 30 seconds past the time limit for the FRER. I'm not sure if they're evaps or not. H saw the lines too, so at least I know I don't have crazy line eye, but I'm not sure what to make of it. With my last pregnancy, I was testing faintly, but clearly, positive at 10 DPO, and had what I thought was a squinter at 9 DPO, so I've totally thought I was out this cycle. Wish me luck for tomorrow, I guess? I'm not sure I'm a fan of being hopeful...
@RiverSong15 I missed your post right before mine!!FX!!! I've been hoping to see some BFPs on this board soon!!!
@BornReady I'm ready to chalk this late ovulation up to EPO. I stopped it on cd 17, the day I was supposed to ovulate- since all signs pointed to ovulation. It did nothing for my CM whatsoever, so I'm not going back on this. I did a chart overlay of my past 2 cycles and this one. Every cycle, I've had a HUGE dip 3-4 days before FF confirmed ovulation. I had that dip on Monday, so I'm wondering if I'm just off a few days. I ran out of CBEs this morning so no idea if I still have the flashing smile, but if I had to guess, I'd say yes. I keep checking CM and HIO EOD. I'm hoping there's still hope!
*****Question/Chart stalk requested************* My Dr wants to do the 7 day before period progesterone test. My cycles were regular and now they aren't, so should I wait til next cycle??? Or have her take them after I (hopefully ovulate)
See my chart overlay before- based on the dip, does it just look like my body's a bit behind on ovulation this month? (NOte Decembers temps are from when I used my old app which only measured .1- this is why they look funky, but you will get the point)
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
@chloe97, it looks possible that O for you was a few days ago. It's hard to tell for sure, but the pattern seems consistent. I got caught off guard this month because I also have had noticeable O dips the day or two before O, and I didn't have that this month. So, you may O without seeing a huge drop, too. It's also possible you have a slow-rise or stair-step rise pattern. Good luck!
@RiverSong15 so exciting! Can't wait for your update!
me 30; DH 35 TTC since May 2014. Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d. Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1). AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW. Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining. Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining. Short LP (8 days). Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Thanks for the well wishes everyone! You all are awesome!
The Wondfo was stark white this morning, but the FRER was very faintly positive and slightly darker. Temp is still up, and usually it takes a dive for the CL the day before AF, which is due tomorrow. I have exactly zero symptoms to spot. At most, I think I could be off on O by one day because of a bad temp.
I'm not sure what to think, and I'm afraid of getting my hopes up. I know the new curved FRERs are notorious for evaps, and the fine print on the damn box even says false positives are possible since they are sensitive tests. Gah! I need patience.
@RiverSong15 Fingers crossed for you, my friend!!!
Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 TTC 09/15 *TW Loss mentioned* BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16 MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3 TTCAL 3/2016 Acupuncture 11/16 Dx December 2016: unexplained January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI = BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby! EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 Ambrose born on his due date!
@RiverSong15 Have you thought about the CBE digital test? I know they are expensive, but the one I bought makes the same promises as the FRER in terms of early detection. Also, if you have tests to spare- try another WONDFO, I swear that there are some tests that just aren't as sensitive as the others. At least that is what I'm learning with the OPKs. FX the lines darken!!
@chloe97, I do have a pack of those sitting in my cabinet. I'd always heard that digitals were much less sensitive though, so I figured it would be a waste of a test. I'll try tomorrow morning with all three (no pretenses here... I'm on the crazy train) because I apparently like peeing on my money.
@RiverSong15 I probably spent $50 on tests confirming I was pregnant, even after my first very clear BFP test. So yeah, I say pee away if it's unclear!
I may have a different test than you have, the ones I bought were the week estimators. They also say "get results 6 days sooner" so I assume they are as good as FRERs, but I may be wrong!
2. Status: TWW... ~10 DPO based on OPK and CM... Didn't temp this cycle
3. Rants/raves: I feel like I'm going crazy. It's only been about a month since my mc, and I've got my hopes up already for this cycle. ive been testing since 8dpo despite starting the cycle just hoping to get my body back to "normal". I was thinking I just had line eyes yesterday, thinking that might be the case today too, but there's a little part of me hoping it was real.
4. GTKY: Christmas! Mainly bc that's when I know we will for sure get to be with grandparents, aunts/uncles, and cousins.
Me: 32 DH: 31
Married since 2010
MC January 2016
BFP February 2016 Baby Girl born 11/2016
BFP 8/16/2018 EDD 4/29/2019 MMC 10/3/2018 BFP 12/16/2018 EDD 08/26/2019 MC/CP 12/20/2018 BFP 03/28/2019 EDD 12/07/2019 Hoping for our rainbow
@RiverSong15 I probably spent $50 on tests confirming I was pregnant, even after my first very clear BFP test. So yeah, I say pee away if it's unclear!
I may have a different test than you have, the ones I bought were the week estimators. They also say "get results 6 days sooner" so I assume they are as good as FRERs, but I may be wrong!
I don't have the weeks estimator, just the regular ones. They say "5 days sooner" but also "99% accurate from the day of your expected period". I'll find out tomorrow I guess.
ETA: I deliberately didn't buy the weeks estimators. I've seen too many women on here drive themselves crazy trying to decide if the PG was progressing by watching the estimated weeks change over time (treating them like pseudo betas) And I do not need that anxiety if I do have a BFP. Despite my recent posts (which make me feel BSC, sorry all!), I do plan on putting the tests away once I'm confident in the BFP.
@riversong15 FX for you. I drove myself nuts with FRERs last cycle. For me it was clearly an indent line (gray) and not a line but I just kept telling myself it was a real line.
Well, it's official now! Last night I came home from work and just felt like I had to know either way, no more fussing over lines! So I broke out the CB digital. It took the full 3 minutes to turn, but it was a BFP! I'm nervous, afraid, and anxious as hell... H is thrilled but hesitant to get happy, because he's afraid to "jinx" the pregnancy.
I just wanted to say thank you for all the well wishes. You kept me from going crazy the last two days. And this board has been awesome since my loss in December. I don't know how I would have made it without this awesome support network.
I may hesitantly intro on PGAL, but I'll be lurking, love titting, and hoping for many more BFPs here!
Mini rant: I just got a little emotional this morning with DH over... baby names of all things. I know it's stupid. I'm not even KU yet. It wasn't a fight, but I was upset with him. I feel silly for being upset even. Downloaded an app last night which is like Tinder for names... it's nice because we can go at our own pace and only get notified of matches... so I don't have to deal with his reaction on something I fell in love with. He barely messed with it. We have two meh matches.
Anyway, it was afterwards I was in the shower when I realized: I can't control if I get KU, I can't control if I miscarry again, but I feel like I can control the baby name list... until H vetoes 95% of it. Anyone else do this with anything similar?
@RiverSong15 YAY!!!! Whooooo hoo!! I'm so happy for you! Fx for a happy healthy 9 months.
I still hope to join you in November- I just got my 1st positive OPK ever! I had o bleeding yesterday too, I think. Having weird cramps today. No idea what's going on, but gonna just BD and hope to have good results in 2 weeks or so.
@ghanimaatreides H and I actually have 3 good girls names and 1 boy name that we are both ok with. He's been pretty amenable to my ideas- not all of them, but most them. But I think that's because it's still been prett hypothetical at this point. We'll see how it is when I'm 8 months KU
@RiverSong15 that is absolutely wonderful news! I do hope you keep popping in for a bit as you always have such warm caring advice.
@GhanimaAtreides yup! DF definitely vetoes a lot of my choices, though I've also been surprised at the ones he's been ok with. BUT I know him well enough to know that the real fight for us will be at 9 months when we're both staunch supporters of one name each that we picked separately. In the end it may just come to rock, paper scissors to see who wins
@chloe97 FX on both hands for a BFP before the month is out. Pretty sure I'm out this month despite all the symptom spotting (which of course all mysteriously vanished last week) but the fat lady hasn't quite sung yet, so I've still got an ounce of hope, lol.
@RiverSong15 yay!! That is so exciting, I'm so happy for you!
@GhanimaAtreides DH and I could agree on only one name. I've actually been pretty friggen upset at him because he was so closed minded. Even on names that had a special meaning for me. Anyways, basically wanted to record my voice saying the name I loved most and play it while he slept, but I found some self control and refrained. And the name arguement definitely began before we were pregnant.
@GhanimaAtreides we used that app when I was pregnant. I deleted it after we found out I would miscarry, but I'll probably use it again. I'm so picky about names.
Me: 29, DH: 29 Married 9/27/14 TTC #1 since 8/15/15 BFP: 1/2/16, EDD 9/13/16 - MMC 2/10/16 BFP: 3/17, EDD 11/23/16 November 2016 April Siggy Challenge - April Showers
Re: TTCAL check-in 2/22
@cooaladoll I had a coworker who conceived immediately AL. She went on to have a full term pregnancy, so it is possible! Hang in there. I definitely understand the hibernating/isolating, I do the same.
@GhanimaAtreides FX for a BFP this cycle. Your DD sounds so darn sweet!
@Aquarius923 So sorry to hear about your loss. Sending love and hoping AF stays away!
I hope I got everyone
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
BFP #2 3/21 EDD 11/28/16
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
I use the Advanced CBE OPKs too. I usually get several days of flashing smily faces before my peak, but it usually matches up with other signs as well. Are you on any supplements that might be impacting your estrogen or have you had an issue with estrogen dominance in the past or PCOS? Hope your new RE gets this all figured out for you!
So, I tested this morning at 12 DPO and saw ghosts of lines (not even worth calling squinters) on a Wondfo and an FRER. They showed up right at the time limit for the Wondfo and 30 seconds past the time limit for the FRER. I'm not sure if they're evaps or not.
@RiverSong15 I missed your post right before mine!!FX!!! I've been hoping to see some BFPs on this board soon!!!
@BornReady I'm ready to chalk this late ovulation up to EPO. I stopped it on cd 17, the day I was supposed to ovulate- since all signs pointed to ovulation. It did nothing for my CM whatsoever, so I'm not going back on this. I did a chart overlay of my past 2 cycles and this one. Every cycle, I've had a HUGE dip 3-4 days before FF confirmed ovulation. I had that dip on Monday, so I'm wondering if I'm just off a few days. I ran out of CBEs this morning so no idea if I still have the flashing smile, but if I had to guess, I'd say yes. I keep checking CM and HIO EOD. I'm hoping there's still hope!
*****Question/Chart stalk requested*************
My Dr wants to do the 7 day before period progesterone test. My cycles were regular and now they aren't, so should I wait til next cycle??? Or have her take them after I (hopefully ovulate)
See my chart overlay before- based on the dip, does it just look like my body's a bit behind on ovulation this month? (NOte Decembers temps are from when I used my old app which only measured .1- this is why they look funky, but you will get the point)
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Married 9/27/14
TTC #1 since 8/15/15
BFP: 1/2/16, EDD 9/13/16 - MMC 2/10/16
BFP: 3/17, EDD 11/23/16
November 2016 April Siggy Challenge - April Showers
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
DD born 7.27.2014
BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
BFP #1 Nov 2015 ended in MC Dec 26 2015
BFP #2 Feb 2016, EDD Nov 8 2016
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
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Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
Thanks for the well wishes everyone! You all are awesome!
The Wondfo was stark white this morning, but the FRER was very faintly positive and slightly darker. Temp is still up, and usually it takes a dive for the CL the day before AF, which is due tomorrow. I have exactly zero symptoms to spot. At most, I think I could be off on O by one day because of a bad temp.
I'm not sure what to think, and I'm afraid of getting my hopes up. I know the new curved FRERs are notorious for evaps, and the fine print on the damn box even says false positives are possible since they are sensitive tests. Gah! I need patience.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
I may have a different test than you have, the ones I bought were the week estimators. They also say "get results 6 days sooner" so I assume they are as good as FRERs, but I may be wrong!
Chiming in late this week
2. Status: TWW... ~10 DPO based on OPK and CM... Didn't temp this cycle
3. Rants/raves: I feel like I'm going crazy. It's only been about a month since my mc, and I've got my hopes up already for this cycle. ive been testing since 8dpo despite starting the cycle just hoping to get my body back to "normal". I was thinking I just had line eyes yesterday, thinking that might be the case today too, but there's a little part of me hoping it was real.
4. GTKY: Christmas! Mainly bc that's when I know we will for sure get to be with grandparents, aunts/uncles, and cousins.
BFP February 2016 Baby Girl born 11/2016
BFP 8/16/2018 EDD 4/29/2019 MMC 10/3/2018
BFP 12/16/2018 EDD 08/26/2019 MC/CP 12/20/2018
BFP 03/28/2019 EDD 12/07/2019 Hoping for our rainbow
ETA: I deliberately didn't buy the weeks estimators. I've seen too many women on here drive themselves crazy trying to decide if the PG was progressing by watching the estimated weeks change over time (treating them like pseudo betas) And I do not need that anxiety if I do have a BFP. Despite my recent posts (which make me feel BSC, sorry all!), I do plan on putting the tests away once I'm confident in the BFP.
BFP February 2016 Baby Girl born 11/2016
BFP 8/16/2018 EDD 4/29/2019 MMC 10/3/2018
BFP 12/16/2018 EDD 08/26/2019 MC/CP 12/20/2018
BFP 03/28/2019 EDD 12/07/2019 Hoping for our rainbow
keep us updated!
BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks;
BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016
TTC #1 started Aug 2014
BFP Apr 3 2015
natural M/C April 20 2015 @ 6w6d
BFP Nov 18 2015
natural M/C Nov 23 2015 @ 5w4d.
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019Well, it's official now! Last night I came home from work and just felt like I had to know either way, no more fussing over lines! So I broke out the CB digital. It took the full 3 minutes to turn, but it was a BFP! I'm nervous, afraid, and anxious as hell... H is thrilled but hesitant to get happy, because he's afraid to "jinx" the pregnancy.
I just wanted to say thank you for all the well wishes. You kept me from going crazy the last two days. And this board has been awesome since my loss in December. I don't know how I would have made it without this awesome support network.
I may hesitantly intro on PGAL, but I'll be lurking, love titting, and hoping for many more BFPs here!
Anyway, it was afterwards I was in the shower when I realized: I can't control if I get KU, I can't control if I miscarry again, but I feel like I can control the baby name list... until H vetoes 95% of it. Anyone else do this with anything similar?
I still hope to join you in November- I just got my 1st positive OPK ever! I had o bleeding yesterday too, I think. Having weird cramps today. No idea what's going on, but gonna just BD and hope to have good results in 2 weeks or so.
@ghanimaatreides H and I actually have 3 good girls names and 1 boy name that we are both ok with. He's been pretty amenable to my ideas- not all of them, but most them. But I think that's because it's still been prett hypothetical at this point. We'll see how it is when I'm 8 months KU
@GhanimaAtreides yup! DF definitely vetoes a lot of my choices, though I've also been surprised at the ones he's been ok with. BUT I know him well enough to know that the real fight for us will be at 9 months when we're both staunch supporters of one name each that we picked separately. In the end it may just come to rock, paper scissors to see who wins
@chloe97 FX on both hands for a BFP before the month is out. Pretty sure I'm out this month despite all the symptom spotting (which of course all mysteriously vanished last week) but the fat lady hasn't quite sung yet, so I've still got an ounce of hope, lol.
DD born 7.27.2014
BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
@GhanimaAtreides DH and I could agree on only one name. I've actually been pretty friggen upset at him because he was so closed minded. Even on names that had a special meaning for me. Anyways, basically wanted to record my voice saying the name I loved most and play it while he slept, but I found some self control and refrained. And the name arguement definitely began before we were pregnant.
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
@GhanimaAtreides we used that app when I was pregnant. I deleted it after we found out I would miscarry, but I'll probably use it again. I'm so picky about names.
Married 9/27/14
TTC #1 since 8/15/15
BFP: 1/2/16, EDD 9/13/16 - MMC 2/10/16
BFP: 3/17, EDD 11/23/16
November 2016 April Siggy Challenge - April Showers
BFP #1 Nov 2015 ended in MC Dec 26 2015
BFP #2 Feb 2016, EDD Nov 8 2016
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017