Introducing myself! (Loss briefly mentioned)

srh18

Hi everyone! I am new to the bump and was hoping to interact with others who understand what I'm going through. My husband and I have been TTC for a little over a year now. We started fertility treatments in October after I was diagnosed with PCOS. We have a follow up tomorrow, actually, to discuss next steps. I've been surging at random times in my cycle and my nurse seems to be puzzled with what's going on, so we're checking in. We have been sticking with timed intercourse, because the doctor was confident we would see success with ovulation induction, but my random surges have led to some not so ideal timed intercourse cycles. Coincidentally, my beta is tomorrow as well but I don't feel pregnant (which I know is silly, especially since I convince myself one way or the other several times a day, haha) so I guess we will see! 

I'm struggling with the waiting, and especially with feeling frustrated because having a baby is supposed to be one of the benefits of being a woman. I get stuck on the supposed to be's a lot. I had significant support from my best friend, who miscarried in November, but she got her BFP last week and that has made me feel especially alone. Don't get me wrong, I am so unbelievably happy for her, but it has been hard. Hence my being here. Anyways, I would love to hear from anyone who would like a buddy through their process!  This is a tough thing to do, but it seems like everyone is really supportive here and that's what I'm hoping for.  

Tusername

Hi @srh18, nice to 'meet' you. My husband and I have been ttc since jan 2013. (There were a couple deployments during all the time that has passed though) After 8 months, I saw a regular doctor. After a year 1/2 we had some preliminary testing done that all came back normal. I figured since there wasn't any issues, we would just keep trying and be more patient. Another 6 months went by and then we finally sought out help again and have never been diagnosed with anything...just unexplained. We tried one unsuccessful cycle with clomid before he deployed and then started up again when he returned. I think I've done a total of 5 cycles with meds and 3-4 IUI's. Im currently 10 dpo and early testing has so far been negative. I also don't 'feel' pregnant. 
So, that's my situation. 
I'm happy for your friend too but also completely understand how you feel. Hopefully you have some good news tomorrow! I struggle with all the waiting too and all the injections that haven't yet amounted to anything. It's a true rollercoaster of emotions. 
-T

wifeinraleigh28

Welcome to our community @srh18.  I'm sorry you find yourself here but it's a good spot to find support.  I personally have no experience with PCOS but wanted to welcome you anyway.  I know how it feels when friends become pregnant and we've been trying so hard and failing each cycle.

Are you currently working with an RE?  Good luck with your beta tomorrow!  A handful of women I connected with through this community got their BFPs and didn't "feel" pregnant.

srh18

Thanks for the welcome @wifeinraleigh28 I appreciate it. I am definitely keeping my fingers crossed for a BFP!! 

I am working with an RE. After six months of trying with increasingly irregular periods, I went to see my OBGYN who suggested I see an RE right away. Being me, I thought no way do I need fertility help we just need to keep trying, so I put off making the appointment for another three months. Then I was given the PCOS diagnosis and after a few months of testing we got started on clomid and timed intercourse. Of course, now I kick myself for three months of wasted time. But what can you do? 

Where are you in your cycle? Wishing you the best for whatever stage you're in!!

srh18

Hi @Tusername ! Thanks for sharing your story...hugs to you for all you've been through! 

I agree-the pills and suppositories and ultrasounds and injections are all way too much! I swear, people look at my bruised arms from all the blood draws and must think I'm a junkie!! But I tell myself to keep my eyes on the prize and to just keep going...hopefully there's a positive end for both of us sometime in the near future!!

tvh1982

Hi and welcome.
This place is such a great place to be as everyone is so lovely.
Of course it would be nicer if we met in another group!
I got diagnosed with PCOS after my 3rd try of IUI.
My fertility clinic was a little confused as my periods can't be more regular and I do get positive on ovulation tests. But turns out, my body makes the right hirmones, it just releases immature eggs.

Of course we are happy when dear friends get pregnant, specially when they been through a loss. But the 'why not me' part will be there. 
Dont feel guilty when that pops up, as it is a natural feeling, and most of the time passes by again.

Im actually on my way to get my FET done in about 5 hours (travel to a different country) so I'm full off "let's do this" "we can do this" and "life is pretty great right now" as this is the only day in my cycle that makes me happy and relaxed because one of my embryos is getting placed back in its momma

GL on your beta. Remember, not everyone feels pregnant right from the start!

wifeinraleigh28

@srh18 - Today I'm 9 days post IUI, so in week 2 of the wait.  The 5 day count down to test day has officially begun.  This is my 2nd IUI.  If this one is unsuccessful, we will take next month off and then do our 3rd and final IUI in April before turning to IVF thereafter.

Can't wait to hear how your beta goes today!