Scared it is happening again - Probable overeaction

strickland8052

Hi! I just introduced myself a couple of days ago, but I need some more support! DH and I got a BFP on our first try in November, but lost it at 5 weeks. We skipped TTC in December per doctor's orders, and now I'm KU again. I got my BFP at 9DPO on Tuesday. Yesterday I had some light brown spotting (only after BM on toilet paper). I immediately freaked out and had the worst night of sleep ever. Fortunately, my BFP hasn't faded (but it hasn't gotten any darker since yesterday) and my temp is still rising. Unfortunately, my mind is in sheer panic and my scant "spotting" has turned pink. I don't really have any symptoms at all, unlike the first pg when I had ALL the symptoms. However, my BFP is a much stronger line than the first one. I'm so scared it is happening again.

I know you guys have no way of knowing what is going on. I called my Dr. and am waiting to hear back. I also have an acupuncture appointment this afternoon. Just wanted to vent and see if anyone could say anything to talk me off the ledge. I spent hours crying last night, convinced I was having another loss. Now I feel like I totally overreacted, but I also don't want to get my hopes up too much. I'm not sure how to feel or what to think. Blah......

FireInWonderland

First - congrats on your BFP!!!!! I'm glad to see you over here from TTCAL!!! 

Second - I was right there with you last month around my 3-4 week mark. Try to distract, likely it was implantation bleeding that got caught up and is old. Even pink spotting isn't a bad sign as long as it's really light. Hopefully your doctor calls back soon! I know being in limbo is so rough. I have my FX for you for a sticky baby this time! Lots of positive thoughts and vibes!!!!! 

2015dee

Welcome. I can totally relate to how difficult it is to be pregnant after a loss. To me, every single twinge sends me in a panic. I've had various fertility treatments over the years, and I recently called my RE because I've been having some cramping. They told me cramping is totally normal and that they often even see women with heavy bleeding go on to have healthy pregnancies. HTH!

lfh22

I know how hard it is to get through those early weeks when you've had a loss. I too had light spotting around that time and am now 13 weeks with a healthy boy. Every pregnancy is different so it's usually pretty unproductive to compare to your previous one (and it can make you crazy!) my mantra is "Today, I am pregnant" - take it day by day! Good luck! 

msuzannah

I know it is so hard to be pregnant after a loss but you have totally got this. It's easier said than done but really try to find ways to calm your anxiety. I like to take bubble baths with candles and soft music and I tell myself a lot that "today I am pregnant". I'm sending lots of positive thoughts and prayers your way! You've got this!!

strickland8052

Thank you guys so much! I'm going to the doctor today to do my first HCG and progesterone test, and then I'll go again on Monday to make sure HCG is rising.

I went to the acupuncturist last night, and she actually did a point to stop the spotting. Within an hour, the spotting was gone and *knock on wood* hasn't come back since then. I can't believe she was able to do that!

Anyway, I did another pg test this morning and it is clearly getting darker, so I'm feeling much more optimistic! I greatly appreciate your support. This is tough!

@fireinwonderland - Thanks for the warm welcome! I'm glad to be here with you other TTCAL ladies. I'm trying to avoid my BMB until I get in for an ultrasound in a couple of weeks.

carrieandr

Good luck!!

strickland8052

Hey guys! Just wanted to update this. Betas are rising and progesterone is good. First ultrasound is March 1. Yay!! 

bntfroggie

It will be here before you know it!!

carrieandr

Yay!