Hello, Everyone

blessedmama82

So, I guess this is my story. DH & I have been together for almost 15.5 years. We are getting ready to celebrate our 2nd wedding anniversary. DH just turned 54 and I will be 34 this year. DH had a vasectomy in his previous marriage after having 2 children. Almost 10 years ago now, he had it reversed so that we could have a baby together. The reversal was a success, but he never went back for an SA. Oh, how I wish he would have. It would have saved years of heartache. Finally, we got a new doctor, who got us in contact with a fertility clinic in a nearby city (London, Ontario, Canada). We found out that yes he has live sperm, but low motility. But that's not all. We also discovered that part of uterus is inviable (a fertilized egg cannot implant there). Apparently, I have a heart-shaped uterus. So we started looking into IVF to make our dreams come true. With life getting in the way, we let having a baby fall to the bottom of the priority list. Last October, our doctor referred us to a fertility clinic in our city (Kitchener, Ontario). After months of waiting for a reply, DH called the doctor, who suggested calling the clinic to find out what's going on, which he did. Tomorrow is our first appointment with them. I am excited, nervous, anxious. Over the years, I have watch so many people in my life have the baby I so badly want so easily, yet I have struggled so hard for only to be brokenhearted when AF shows up. Against my better judgment, it brought up feelings of hatred, anger and not wanting to be around them. Tomorrow is a new beginning for us. Thank you for allowing me to share what I have not been able to share with anyone else. I guess part of me knows that a lot of you have probably felt the same way at some point.

tvh1982

Hello and welcome.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Everyone here is lovely so you have come to the right place.
Yay for tomorrow, the start of a new adventure. A tough one, but in the end worth it.
So do use this forum when you feel like you need to share tears, laughter, frustration or just a happy story!
Good luck on your journey xoxo

2015dee

Welcome! Thank you for being so open with us. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and hope that you find the support that you need here!

cmm012

Welcome to the group.  I hope you get your BFP soon.  I have actually visited London, Ontario, so I know the area where you are located (a little bit).

blessedmama82

Thank you. I just started using the community to share recently, but I intend to share whatever I'm feeling at the moment -- happy, sad, frustrated, selfish, whatever.

KidShrink

Hello, and sorry you have to be here. Not sure which clinic you're going to, but I'd highly recommend Dr Michael at Astra Fertility (the main clinic is in Mississauga, but they recently opened one in Chatham). Considering your uterus shape, a hysteroscopy would probably be a good idea (to correct the shape and therefore increase chances of implantation). I live in the west end lf the GTA and saw him, and he fixed my t-shape uterus, allowing for our little miracle to happen. Someone I know has also gone to him for a very similar issue (husband has a failed reversal, and after a few transfers, they realized she had a septate uterus which prevented proper implantation). Feel free to inbox me if you have any questions, and best of luck on your journey to a baby!

wifeinraleigh28

Welcome and best of luck today with your appointment!  IF is a long and difficult journey for many, but we deal with it so that we can one day have our little miracle(s).  Keep us posted on how things go at your new doctor!