N00b alert! *loss mentioned...and described*

DinosaurJumper

Greetings, while I am new to this forum, I am not new to TTC, but please excuse me if my etiquette is incorrect. I made a point to lurk a lot, but maybe I did not lurk enough...
DH and I have been TTC for over two years now. Our first month of TTC, we did! Unfortunately the next morning proved to be a chemical pregnancy. We kept trying, and got another BFP two cycles later. Overjoyed, we called the OB GYN immediately. They scheduled our first appointment for three weeks later, so I would be 8 weeks along and the ultrasound would be easier I suppose. When we finally made it in, the OB GYN said that I was only five weeks along. I argued with him, knowing exactly when I ovulated, but he didn't care. He said I must have ovulated later. Which makes no sense because if I was only five weeks along, then I called for an appointment the day I ovulated. Five days later I miscarried. I still hold a grudge against that dr. DH and I were sad but kept trying. Kept trying for two long years, and have not seen more than one pink line this whole time. We have a plan to go to the infertility specialists in the spring. I've been in a dark place for awhile, trying to control the green monster in my heart that screams when everyone around me pops out unplanned babies. I've been trying to manage it on my own, DH tries to help but he doesn't understand exactly what I go through each month, and I've decided that I need help. I know that I haven't had a recent loss,but I was hoping I could join this community.
Thank you for your time.

catiecatp

I'm so sorry for your losses - you are certainly welcome in this community. 

PeggyOlsonFTW

I'm so sorry for your losses and that you're having a hard time dealing with them. Have you thought of seeing a therapist?

DinosaurJumper

Thank you for the warm welcome! On the therapy, I had done it a few times in high school, but hadn't thought of it recently. I may look into that as we start infertility testing. I have (as most everyone does for the new year lol) taken up exercise and that has made me feel pretty great.

PeggyOlsonFTW

I really find exercise to be amazingly stress relieving. I do a variety of classes - TRX, boot camp, cardio and resistance training, and cardio kickboxing. I also run and train for races in the spring, summer and fall. The ones that I find to be most stress relieving are cardio kickboxing and running. I'm actually itching to get outside and run again (treadmill running blows) and maybe train for a race, but I'm kind of hoping I end up pregnant before then and won't want to race!

I also recently started acupuncture and I can't even begin to describe how stress relieving it is!

cjs260

Creepy hugs and welcomes, you've found a great group for support. I'm so sorry that you've had such a hard road - I sincerely hope that changes soon. Lean on us until then!

decoycandy

I have the reverse story to yours. Ttc for 2.5 years and then had a miscarriage. It's been a long road. I fully understand that feeling of dread and anger when af arrives. Good luck to you.

queenklau

Welcome and I am very sorry for all that you have been through. I found this community to be healing, supporting and huge source of knowledge. I try to participate often, but sometimes lurking seems to do the trick. I hope that your stay here is short and ends with a rainbow baby in your arms.

silentP

I'm so sorry you find yourself here, but welcome. I hope 2016 is your year. All the best.

strickland8052

So sorry for your losses. We are here for you! I hope your stay here is short and you can move on to PGAL very soon. *hugs

Wishilivedinflorida

Hi and welcome. This is a great place for support. So sorry you are in this place and hoping 2016 turns out better for you.

SuperKristy85

Welcome! I'm so sorry for your loss and Shame on that doctor for being so rude to you!

valleric

So sorry you are Joining us. My story is similar. TTC started March 2014. 8w mc in April of 2015. Miscarriage plus my husband's low sperm count is a double suck whammy.

DinosaurJumper

Wow! you must be a beefcake Miss.Peggy!! Very impressive! Meanwhile, I don't want to run unless there's a donut in front of my nose I have had my current healthcare practitioner that started me on vitex and has been doing my blood work, she recommended acupuncture as well. How well does that work you? Just curious

Thank you ladies all for the warm welcome and internet hugs )  It's already very comforting to have so many that understand and have been down this somber road. 

PeggyOlsonFTW

haha, definitely not a beefcake @DinosaurJumper! I work out a lot because I need/enjoy exercise endorphins, but mostly this:



One of my favorite gym shirts says this:

MissPrint1219

I am so sorry for all that you have been through, but certainly join the other ladies in welcoming you to the community. I'm sure you will find the support you're looking for here!

admac3

I'm so sorry for your losses. Exercise has really been helping to get me out of the funk that I'm in. 

ThePax89

You poor thing. I'm so sorry about your losses. I understand the frustration of being told that your dates are off. Mama knows best.

Sending good vibes your way.