N00b alert! *loss mentioned...and described*

DinosaurJumper

Greetings, while I am new to this forum, I am not new to TTC, but please excuse me if my etiquette is incorrect. I made a point to lurk a lot, but maybe I did not lurk enough...
DH and I have been TTC for over two years now. Our first month of TTC, we did! Unfortunately the next morning proved to be a chemical pregnancy. We kept trying, and got another BFP two cycles later. Overjoyed, we called the OB GYN immediately. They scheduled our first appointment for three weeks later, so I would be 8 weeks along and the ultrasound would be easier I suppose. When we finally made it in, the OB GYN said that I was only five weeks along. I argued with him, knowing exactly when I ovulated, but he didn't care. He said I must have ovulated later. Which makes no sense because if I was only five weeks along, then I called for an appointment the day I ovulated. Five days later I miscarried. I still hold a grudge against that dr. DH and I were sad but kept trying. Kept trying for two long years, and have not seen more than one pink line this whole time. We have a plan to go to the infertility specialists in the spring. I've been in a dark place for awhile, trying to control the green monster in my heart that screams when everyone around me pops out unplanned babies. I've been trying to manage it on my own, DH tries to help but he doesn't understand exactly what I go through each month, and I've decided that I need help. I'm so terrified of what may happen this spring, and I know I have no diagnoses of infertility, but I was hoping I could be part of this community and learn.
Thank you for your time.

SummerBrooke13

I'm fairly new here too, so I'm probably not one to welcome you.
But I just wanted to say I'm proud of you for reaching out to find help when you're down.
Even if the help is from strangers on the internet. That's one of the reasons I started coming here. I needed an outlet.
I hope your road is not much longer, and that you find some comfort in this community!

LGW2015

Hi there. I just wanted to say that I can relate to what you are saying about the emotional ride every month and DH not quite understanding. My DH and I are going through a rough time right now with the same issue. It can be very difficult to not be on the same page especially on top of all the other emotions. Infertility is an incredibly difficult and stressful journey for all.

As a side note, I know everyone feels differently, but I was happy to start infertility testing and whatnot because then I felt like at least we were doing something and getting some answers.

I hope you are able to find the comfort and support you need here. xoxo

DinosaurJumper

Thank you ladies for the warm support I am hoping that being on this forum will help ease the fear of a diagnoses. I wish you ladies all the best

lablover78

@LGW2015 I can relate! My DH is a good man but he just doesn't get the emotions that come along with this. He thinks that I shouldn't get so down about it while we are still ttc. Infertility has definitely put a strain on of marriage! I am happy that I am validated here as my emotions seem very normal after hearing from all the ladies!