All I've eaten today is a bag of pizza rolls and 3 Klondike bars. So good going in the belly, but now I feel like crap (duh). It's veggies and water all day tomorrow!
For me, I had to undergo IVF to conceive after three ectopic pregnancies and scar tissue damage from surgery. I felt like a medical experiment all through the process. I then had to see the high risk OB in addition to regular OB because of some issues. Again, felt like a medical experiment. Then my little guy came in on the larger size with a 15" head. It was determined I needed a csection to deliver. I was given grief and guilted over it. So the only thing I can hold out hope on is that I can breastfeed. It makes me feel like superwoman. Many women feel it throughout their pregnancy or delivery. I never did. And was shamed by women for having a csection. So for me to be able to feed my child just by functioning on a day to day basis, that makes me feel good about myself. I've been dealing with PPD and depressive issues for the past month or two. So while it's painful, I feel like I owe it to him to try my hardest to breastfeed. I would never ever look down upon anyone that formula feeds. That baby is being fed and has a healthy and happy momma. That means more than what he eats. But I just want to feel like I did something for him that no one else could do. We didn't bond well during the pregnancy. Three ectopics and IVF will make a woman jaded. So I'm trying everything. And if we do end up formula feeding, I will do it. But I will feel awful about myself. Again, that's just my own personal issues with myself. I fully support FFing.
@Wicked4589 I'm sorry you had to go through everything you did. You truly ARE superwoman. Don't let other people shame you for having a c section, it what was best for you and your baby and that is all that matters. So many people have them because it is what is needed. You have done so much for your little one and worked so hard to get him that you should not be shamed for anything, including breastfeeding or formula feeding. You sound like you're a wonderful, loving mom and don't let anyone take that away from you! Don't get yourself down about feeding. You do what you can. We live in a judgy society and we have to all try to let it roll off our backs and do whats best for us and our child.
@Wicked4589 So sorry people shamed you. That is awful You've got a healthy baby and that fact alone makes you a rockstar (even if FF happens). I can't believe that even after all you went through people still felt the need to shame. Jeez.... Good luck with the BFing I hope it becomes less painful (I've heard about rough starts getting much more enjoyable, I hope this is the case for you)
Re: FFFC
It's veggies and water all day tomorrow!
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