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wendyp28

I'm 35 years old, DH 32, one DS 2. We have been TTC 18 months. We wanted a big family and new time was against us since I was already 32 when we got married so we started right away. It took nine agonizing months to get pregnant with DS, then we had a pretty uneventful pregnancy ending with our beautiful child. I figured everything was good to go since we did conceive eventually. When  DS turned 6 months we started trying again after 15 months of zero luck I finally went to see what was going on. Diagnosed with lean PCOS two rounds of Lotrazole and one round of injectibles later with 3 BFN. They say I'm young and healthy and obviously can make a baby so I have a great chance of success. Problem is I expected it to work the first time and now I'm moving on to try #4. I'm feel defeated and isolated. My DH is amazing but is a fixer so he wants to fix me instead of just allow me to be sad. So now I don't want to show him any emotion because I know it's hard on him too. We live on the opposite coast of our support group r/t to his job and even if they were around my friends are all getting pregnant easily, and if I hear the women in my family say how easy it was for them one more time I might explode. So here I am isolating myself more and more trying to wrap my head around maybe I only get to do it once. I hope someone can relate. Thanks

rachlee2010

Welcome @wendyp28 You are def not alone.  I had a very easy time getting pregnant with my son and figured I would have no problems the next time either.  After 8 months we finally got a BFP but it ended in miscarriage at 7 weeks so I finally went to an RE and got diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve.  I was 32 at the time (33 now) and couldn't believe it.  I also am so sick and tired of seeing everyone getting pregnant with no issues what so ever with baby #1, 2, 3, even 4.  It's just not fair but remember you aren't alone and try to keep your head up as much as possible that it will happen for you again!

GK2009

Welcome!  My story is similar to Rachlee although I am a bit older (now 37)... it is very difficult to be here, but you are among others who understand your feelings.  Just try to remain optimistic and stay strong.  I hope your stay here is short!

wendyp28

Thanks for the support ladies. I just found out do to timing issues I'm going to have to take a month off which is a bummer but hopefully I'll be able to relax. GL to you

meaneycab

Good luck! In the same PCOS boat, and want the big family too!