As I lay here with a sleeping newborn on my chest.... I post to you my concerns I guess of the life ahead.
My son is three days old, he was born 12/26 and we finally got to go home today. I'm so scared I can't think straight. I'm alone most of the time... Which in itself is terrifying... I am so tired I literally pass out when I close my eyes.... Im scared I will fall asleep and my son will be crying and I won't wake up (this happened in the hospital)
What's life going to be like if I'm constantly scared? My mom offered to stay with me for a few days but,when she brought us home from the hospital she left as soon as she could... I'm trying to be independent, but I'm hurting so it's still awkward to move..
Lord, please make this fear go away.
Luckily- I don't feel sad, the only time I've cried post partum is when I sent him to the nursery for a few minutes to eat while in the hospital. I just feel scared and confused.,,