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Aquarius923
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Intro: 23.5 week loss
Aquarius923
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Hi everyone,
My name is Carmen. On December 9, I went in for my second level 2 scan at MFM. Before the tech put the probe on my belly, I looked at her and said "I can't look at the screen, I know she is gone." I sat on the chair all alone as she offered her condolences. A doctor who I had never met before came in and told me the placenta was thickened and fluid levels were low. Both had looked great a week prior. He was able to contact my regular ob 45 minutes away, order testing, and promised he would help me search for a reason.
I delivered my sleeping angel, Abigail, 12 hours after being given cytotec. My body had already been gearing up for labor. I didn't get to hold her first. I was rushed to the OR so they could stop the bleeding and remove the rest of the placenta.
I am so deeply hurt. I somehow knew I would never get my take home baby girl. I have an empty purple room that is making me so angry.
I want to try again, but I had a MC prior to this loss. I'm so scared. I have delivered a healthy baby boy, but I feel like that will never happen again.
Thank you for reading, I have nowhere else to let it out.
My name is Carmen. On December 9, I went in for my second level 2 scan at MFM. Before the tech put the probe on my belly, I looked at her and said "I can't look at the screen, I know she is gone." I sat on the chair all alone as she offered her condolences. A doctor who I had never met before came in and told me the placenta was thickened and fluid levels were low. Both had looked great a week prior. He was able to contact my regular ob 45 minutes away, order testing, and promised he would help me search for a reason.
I delivered my sleeping angel, Abigail, 12 hours after being given cytotec. My body had already been gearing up for labor. I didn't get to hold her first. I was rushed to the OR so they could stop the bleeding and remove the rest of the placenta.
I am so deeply hurt. I somehow knew I would never get my take home baby girl. I have an empty purple room that is making me so angry.
I want to try again, but I had a MC prior to this loss. I'm so scared. I have delivered a healthy baby boy, but I feel like that will never happen again.
Thank you for reading, I have nowhere else to let it out.
Re: Intro: 23.5 week loss
Me: 33 H: 36
Married: 12/14/13 DS: 1/29/09
BFP2: 10/9/15 MMC: 11/12/15
BFP3: 4/6/16 DD: 12/12/16
I just want answers, though I know it's not likely that I will get any.