Share your Crazy ;)

MrsAlT68

Struggling with fertility issues can make you crazy...I mean literally, like our brains just stop working the way they did before, with like...logic, haha  Share your crazy!  I will start with one I just experienced a few minutes ago that inspired me to write this post.

-I am a little late for my period, I have had some brown spotting but no new flow yet.  I have all the symptoms of starting my period, but I thought, I don't want to put a tampon in, that might start my period. like, WHAT?  that makes no sense Alyssa?!  Tampons don't really start periods, and if they do, that's because your going to actually have a period, and your not pregnant!! Haha, I still haven't put in a tampon though...

katiebee2814

Last month I knew my period should start anytime so whenever I would get a little cramp I would hold very still as if that was going to make a difference whether I started or was pregnant........Haha glad it's not just me who feels like I'm losing it!

@MrsAlyssaT

blueyedfloozy

Last cycle I refused to bd during the tww. I figured, it's something I hadn't tried yet. Obvs I know it won't matter, but I was just like, no. And I got af anyway, right on schedule!

clt2pwm11

I've been changing the words to "I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas" to "I wanna BFP for Christmas." And I sing it on repeat in my brain like some kind of deranged mantra.

MrsAlT68

clt2pwm11 said:

I've been changing the words to "I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas" to "I wanna BFP for Christmas." And I sing it on repeat in my brain like some kind of deranged mantra.

How about "all I want for Christmas is my B. F. P. my bfp, my bfp..." haha

ShallowSeas

I get worried about exercise in the TWW.  I know its ridiculous and my doctors have even told me that running and yoga are fine and encouraged...but it makes me anxious any way so I usually just avoid it during that time. This is actually the first TWW that i went to the gym.

guzmancw

We just did our first IUI on Friday and since then, when I sleep all I dream about is taking pregnancy tests (never seeing the results), or running out of pregnancy tests, I don't know how I will get through 12 more nights of this nonsense in my dreams!!

kwetsell

I feel like I am jinxing myself if I look at pregnancy stuff on pinterest or estimate the month a baby would be born if we conceived this month. It's like I think if I ignore those thoughts I will get a "surprise" pregnancy. 

Also, I think if I have some wine I will find out that I am pregnant... but if I don't drink I am sure to get my period. Crazy! 

Ttcwishful5882

This is so relatable. Thank you ladies so much!!!!

Plainjanie

Oh I am a whole bag of crazy. @kwetsell I am the same way. I don't like looking at baby things or thinking of names because I don't want to jinx us.

I also lay on my back with my hips up after BD'ing. Before anyone says anything I know it really doesn't help and I know it can cause UTI's but I have not ever had one *knock on wood* and I am fully prepared to take all responsibility if and when I do get one.

SmileyMcGee

@kwetsell I completely get you!!

kwetsell

lol! @Plainjanie, I can totally relate. Last night before DH was even out of bed (post BD) I had my feet on the headboard and my hips elevated. He got out of the shower 20 minutes later and asked how long I was going to stay that way. :-) Can't hurt, right?

SmileyMcGee

I'm laid up in bed ill & hubby is out having a few drinks with his friend. I've just text him to tell him that I'm having twinges- just got to hope he knows what I'm talking about and his friend doesn't read his message for him!!!

wifeinraleigh28

@Plainjanie I do that too!  Whenever we finish BD I lay with my hips up for at least 15 minutes!  So crazy.

Today I got the brilliant idea to pay for a FF membership and order a BBT thermometer thinking that if I spend all this money on fertility stuff that's the only way I'll get a BFP this month... because if I don't spend all that money I'm assuming I won't need it.  Stupid crazy BS!!!

lablover78

Hi ladies, I've been hiding out due to a case of the infertility crazies lately but am starting to snap out of it. This is how crazy I am- I literally just ordered this off of Amazon: "The Infertility Workbook: A Mind-Body Program to Enhance Fertility, Reduce Stress, and Maintain Emotional Balance" -

jbal918

I always think that once I get to the Drs, they are going to say all the tests were wrong and I'm actually pregnant. Oh, and I had a dream and the dr was in it... He told me I was pregnant after putting eye drops in my eyes!

vnegron87

@MrsB627 i can so relate...when they tell me its negative i get so upset and say "what on earth do they know, i bet I am pregnant and they got it wrong"...still waiting for that BFP lmao...i guess I'm the one that's not to smart lol

jbal918

@vnegron87 I had yet another test today and I was like oh hey look, they can be wrong... LOL

heincm

I'm glad its not just me! This month I was 5 days late and I am never late, so I got really fixated on being pregnant. I got really bad cramps and started light spotting and even then I was just convinced I was pregnant, but of course I wasnt:( I wish my brain could stop thinking about babies and BFP's..