It's weird that a person can become so attached to something or someone in such a short period of time, and then become so devastated when it's gone. I'm hating myself so badly right now - I didn't even realize how much I wanted to have a baby until I lost it. I found out I was pregnant Mother's Day of this year. My husband and I were so freaked and happy. I'm 33 and he's 37. June 12, I had a miscarriage and my world crashed. I was flip flopping from angry/sad to numb for the first two months after. Had a D&C a week after the miscarriage and waiting for 3 months to get my period. Nothing. So my doc put my on progesterone. Never been so happy to have to my period. But the next month passed, and now period and no pregnancy. So I'm being put back on the little pills to get my stupid cycle back and I'm wondering WTF is wrong with me? What is wrong with my body? WHY can't I stop thinking about my little blob and that we aren't pregnant again?! I've been so stressed and angry and snappish that my friends are hiding from me. My husband doesn't know what to do to try and make me laugh anymore. I can go days feeling good and then BAM! The doc gave me something for stress and of course, I'm subconsciously obsessing over wanting to get pregnant and have a baby - just one little baby - and I'd be happy. I can't read the news and hear one more story about some ungrateful monster who kills their kids. I feel alone and don't want to feel so numb. I'm hoping another woman will understand. I need a cold slap to the face - I need SOMETHING to get me away from this obsession so I can be myself again. Now I know that I DO want kids - that i want a little family with my dorky husband and I was happy with just him before so why WHY WHY can't I be happy again with just him? He deserves happy me, not moping me. Help. Please.