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blondie1314
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It was too perfect
blondie1314
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Sending thoughts, prayers, hugs and love to all the ladies (and their families) going through a MC or loss of a child.
We just found out last night our June baby has recently passed during a missed miscarriage.
I have always had a slight obsession with twins. Not sure why, but it's always been in the back of my mind. I wished I had been one, and since I can remember I have dreamed of having them. Didn't help any that a psychic once told me I'd have twins.
When I found out I was pregnant with DS I had joked that it was twins and even named them (honestly I do not believe I'll ever have twins, but I just love entertaining the idea) before our first sono. DH did and still does think I'm crazy. Anyways, DS was a singleton and we couldn't have been more excited for a BABY! Also, a June baby which we had hoped for as I am a teaching assistant and only missed a week of work before summer break (not enough sick days for a paid maternity leave). It was perfect timing. He is a happy, healthy, baby boy born June 22, 2015.
So back to the twin thing. As the arrival of DS got closer, I had stronger and stronger urges for Irish Twins. DH had many financial reservations, however, another June baby would mean a summer off with both babies. I planned to exclusively breastfeed DS and knew you "usually" do not get your cycle back or ovulate during this time. A pregnancy at this time, although rare, could be possible though. Well while exclusively breastfeeding I got my period back 6 weeks pp! I could not believe it. I told DH it was a sign and I was meant to get pregnant again. And I did. After 2 cycles. I instantly knew I was pregnant as I had that same "hungover" feeling as I had with DS. I had a bag full of dollar store tests and sure enough I had 3 positives a week and a half after implantation.
DS EDD based on my LMP was June 6, but through a sono they changed it to June 16. My cycle was normal, but I ovulated late. I could not wait to see if the same happened with LO as my EDD based on my LMP was June 7. Sure enough after a sono last week with a healthy baby with a heartbeat they moved my date from June 7 to June 15!
As you can imagine, my imagination has been running wild. June babies, Irish twins, their bond, possible tandem nursing, I have a stroller that converts to a double, etc. My whereabouts this time next year had completely built up over the last 8 weeks. As with all of you, we were thrilled.
They scheduled me for growth sono a week after my dating sono. DH and I were hit with a ton of bricks last night when the tech said there was no heartbeat this time; that the baby had passed within the last day or two. Very hard to accept when I still feel pregnant. I had also never heard of a missed miscarriage before. I was naive and assumed for a miscarriage there would be signs before confirmation.
We can go back Monday for a final sono, but I'm not sure what we will do. I do not know if it will bring closure or more pain.
I love a good glass of wine day or night, so there was absolutely no fooling either of our families. We told them at 6 weeks. Unfortunately, many of them have not been great at keeping our secret, so many, unplanned outsiders know as well.
I am wishing you all peace, strength and support through your own journeys. May the next be your rainbow baby.
Lots of love
We just found out last night our June baby has recently passed during a missed miscarriage.
I have always had a slight obsession with twins. Not sure why, but it's always been in the back of my mind. I wished I had been one, and since I can remember I have dreamed of having them. Didn't help any that a psychic once told me I'd have twins.
When I found out I was pregnant with DS I had joked that it was twins and even named them (honestly I do not believe I'll ever have twins, but I just love entertaining the idea) before our first sono. DH did and still does think I'm crazy. Anyways, DS was a singleton and we couldn't have been more excited for a BABY! Also, a June baby which we had hoped for as I am a teaching assistant and only missed a week of work before summer break (not enough sick days for a paid maternity leave). It was perfect timing. He is a happy, healthy, baby boy born June 22, 2015.
So back to the twin thing. As the arrival of DS got closer, I had stronger and stronger urges for Irish Twins. DH had many financial reservations, however, another June baby would mean a summer off with both babies. I planned to exclusively breastfeed DS and knew you "usually" do not get your cycle back or ovulate during this time. A pregnancy at this time, although rare, could be possible though. Well while exclusively breastfeeding I got my period back 6 weeks pp! I could not believe it. I told DH it was a sign and I was meant to get pregnant again. And I did. After 2 cycles. I instantly knew I was pregnant as I had that same "hungover" feeling as I had with DS. I had a bag full of dollar store tests and sure enough I had 3 positives a week and a half after implantation.
DS EDD based on my LMP was June 6, but through a sono they changed it to June 16. My cycle was normal, but I ovulated late. I could not wait to see if the same happened with LO as my EDD based on my LMP was June 7. Sure enough after a sono last week with a healthy baby with a heartbeat they moved my date from June 7 to June 15!
As you can imagine, my imagination has been running wild. June babies, Irish twins, their bond, possible tandem nursing, I have a stroller that converts to a double, etc. My whereabouts this time next year had completely built up over the last 8 weeks. As with all of you, we were thrilled.
They scheduled me for growth sono a week after my dating sono. DH and I were hit with a ton of bricks last night when the tech said there was no heartbeat this time; that the baby had passed within the last day or two. Very hard to accept when I still feel pregnant. I had also never heard of a missed miscarriage before. I was naive and assumed for a miscarriage there would be signs before confirmation.
We can go back Monday for a final sono, but I'm not sure what we will do. I do not know if it will bring closure or more pain.
I love a good glass of wine day or night, so there was absolutely no fooling either of our families. We told them at 6 weeks. Unfortunately, many of them have not been great at keeping our secret, so many, unplanned outsiders know as well.
I am wishing you all peace, strength and support through your own journeys. May the next be your rainbow baby.
Lots of love
Re: It was too perfect