In 40s, want a baby badly but so scared after 2 losses..

nyc2015

Hi all, after two miscarriages (last pregnancy was a mmc I found out about at almost 10 weeks), I still want a baby so badly but my fears are getting the best of me.

I keep thinking of awful complications and feel I will be simply too afraid the entire pregnancy of something going wrong.  It's a terrible way to be, I know! I talked

with a therapist but all she told me was my fears have gotten too over powering.  I know that-- but how do I change it?!   My doctor advises

an egg donor given my age and says I am perfectly healthy to carry a baby.  But I still keep focusing on the risks.   Surrogacy is too expensive and

adoption I am told can take 5 years.   I guess I'm wondering if anyone else is out there who can relate and have any tips on how you got over the fear?

Thank you!