PGAL weekly check in (10/19/15)

babycakes8214

Week:

Upcoming appointments:

Questions for the group:

GTKY: What is your favorite movie?

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically?

babycakes8214

Week: 8

Upcoming appointments: 11/2- 1st ultrasound

Questions for the group:

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? Love Actually. I'm pretty sure I've watched it about a thousand times. I'm a sap.

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? Physically, I'm nauseas and exhausted still. I still haven't puked, which is great. Emotionally, I just want my appointment here. Time is passing so incredibly slowly that I just can't seem to keep my brain in check. I let myself get excited last week because a friend told me she as pregnant and expecting in June. That means I now I have friends expecting in March, April, me in May, and in June. I'm super excited to do this again with them (we did it last time around too) but terrified that something is going to be wrong at my appointment and then I will be angry that I let myself get excited. I just need November 2nd to be here. Last Wednesday I was 7 weeks 2 days, which is when I had spotting the last time. I was checking almost every hour that day... When does the paranoia end? Does it ever? Ugh.

gardenandread

Week: 10

Upcoming Appointments: Have an appointment Friday. They will most likely just use Doppler to check for heartbeat.

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? Sixteen Candles I watch it anytime I need a laugh.

How are you feeling? Really anxious for Friday. Technically we have passed all of our loss milestones, but I still know something could easily go wrong yet. If we have a good appointment we also plan on telling people so that makes me anxious too. Letting people in, knowing something could go wrong later.

LondonToSavannah

Week: 9 weeks

Upcoming Appt: Tomorrow we have our first ultrasound, I'm super excited/terrified. Hope everything is on track.

Questions for group: Anyone else on the guilt train for buying preggo stuff? I went and bought some maternity jeans this weekend, and then stupidly thought I had jinxed myself...can't get out of my own head most days!

GTKY What's your favorite movie: the movie I can watch over and over is Steel Magnolias 

How are you feeling? Terrified, but excited. It is such a mindf*ck after a loss, you want to be thrilled and giddy, but I have this nagging voice telling me anything can happen. Ugh.

babycakes8214

@londontosavannah

 

I can't bring myself to buy anything yet. 2 more weeks and I probably will start. My GUT tells me everything is OK, but I my brain says not to trust my gut. But don't let yourself feel guilty for buying things! You are allowed to be happy.

lisaren

Week: 11

Upcoming appointments: Next Monday, October 26--Midwife appt

Questions for the group: None that I can think of

GTKY: What is your favorite movie?  I love wizard of Oz!

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? Emotionally I feel okay, I found out today that our genetics test--Harmony, came back normal!!! This eases a lot of stress!! and we're having a boy! Physically, tired and tired. 

babycakes8214

@lisaren

 

I'm obsessed with the Wizard of Oz. There is stuff all over my house, particularly the wicked witch. I got really obsessed when I read Wicked.

 

Also, congrats on your great news! And on the baby boy!!

m6agua

babycakes8214 said:

@lisaren

 

I'm obsessed with the Wizard of Oz. There is stuff all over my house, particularly the wicked witch. I got really obsessed when I read Wicked.

 

Also, congrats on your great news! And on the baby boy!!

Lurking....

I love wicked! I've seen the musical 3 times and read the book. Did you read Son of a Witch? I tried but haven't finished it. It was harder to get into.

jessiedee13

Week: 11

Upcoming appointments: Thursday! 1st ultrasound

Questions for the group: none for now

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? That's honestly a hard one. I like alot of movies. Since its October I'll go with The Nightmare Before Christmas

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? I'm super moody and have lost all patience as well as still fighting the nausea, but since this is my 3rd pregnancy I was expecting it to be alot worse so I'll take it

YouGoGlenCoco31

Week: 8+6

Upcoming appointments: My RE released me on Friday, and I had my first OB appointment today!

Questions for the group:  When are you all getting your flu shots?  My RE nurse recommended waiting until the second trimester, but that's still four weeks away.  My OB nurse said I could get it any time.

GTKY: What is your favorite movie?  Another Wizard of Oz fan, followed closely by Charlotte's Web.

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically?  Physically, not bad.  I can't seem to shake the fatigue, and the bloating and waves of nausea are getting old.  But I can't complain too much.  Emotionally, I'm a trainwreck (but I feel like that's normal).

stiches221

Week:
9w3d
Upcoming appointments:
Oct 30
GTKY: What is your favorite movie?
101 Dalmatians

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically?
Emotionally: total wreck. Husband has been going to hang out and get shitfaced and blow entire paychecks with his lil 19yr old coworker and not come home about once every couple weeks. A month ago the kid totalled husband's company truck. I told him to stop hanging out with this kid. 2 weeks ago he disappeared for the night again when he finally texted me the next day from work I told him if he pulls this bs one more time I will kick his ass out and divorce him. Last Friday he did it again. He text me the next day saying I have to come pick him up he fucked up. Turns out he wrecked my car that I haven't even been able to pay off because he blows hundreds of dollars at a time and I can barely get the bills paid and make sure our toddler is taken care of. Our checking acct is going to be over drafted several times plus the fee for each OD cause I paid the electric bill with an echeck that hasn't cleared the bank yet and he made several charges that went below the amount needed for the bill. I couldn't even kick his worthless ass out cause he now has no vehicle to get to work so he now takes my truck to work and I am terrified he'll disappear with that and destroy it too. The car will take several hundreds of dollars if not a thousand or more to fix so a LONG time before that'll happen. I just want him out of my life for good but he is the father of my children so stuck with him for life. Effed up part I still love the bastard but I have to protect my babies. Plus I will have random spotting that freaks me the f*** out!!
Physically: exhausted, achey, crampy, nauseas having trouble sleeping cause of stress and not being able to get comfy. I feel like s***.

babycakes8214

m6agua said:

babycakes8214 said:

@lisaren

 

I'm obsessed with the Wizard of Oz. There is stuff all over my house, particularly the wicked witch. I got really obsessed when I read Wicked.

 

Also, congrats on your great news! And on the baby boy!!

Lurking....

I love wicked! I've seen the musical 3 times and read the book. Did you read Son of a Witch? I tried but haven't finished it. It was harder to get into.

I tried and never could get into it either. I liked the book more than the musical, TBH.

babycakes8214

@KatyPatrick

I am so sorry you are going through that. Im surprised you let him take your truck at all. How has he not lost his license?

I hope he smartens up.

soralette

Week: 8wks tmw!

Upcoming appointments: Well, haha, not pregnancy related, but I'm doing a sleep study tonight and tmw. Next pregnancy appointment is next week, when I'll be 9+1 -- another ultrasound to confirm everything's growing just right, then they pass me off from the RE to the midwife! Woohoo!

Questions for the group:

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? ... Gosh, I have no idea. Maybe Stardust? I love the mix of fantasy and fairy tale and romance, haha.

Flu shot -- I got mine last week (at 6+6), but I got the special preservative-free/pregnancy-safe one.

Buying Stuff -- I haven't bought any maternity stuff yet, but I did buy some before we started TTC as well as have some left from last time, haha, so I don't especially need to.

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? ... Emotionally, okay. Starting to believe this is real, I think? I still get flashes of anxiety, but they're pretty easy to talk myself out of. Physically, tired (no nap allowed before sleep study!) and starting to get nausea from morning sickness, UGH.

@KatyPatrick -- Omg. I am so sorry you're having to deal with his sh!t! That's awful. Is driving his sorry behind to work so he absolutely CANNOT screw up your car an option?

linzandjer11

I had an appt today with my midwife and we did an ultrasound on her rather outdated equipment. We saw a shadow of a baby and maybe saw it wiggle, but her equipment wasn't good enough to tell if it had a heartbeat or not. So we scheduled another appt for nov 7.

I was feeling so hopeful and full if peace.

But tonight after dinner i had started spotting. I'm so sad. Even though it's super light, it's starting to turn pink and i just feel like i'm going to loose my third pregnancy this year around the 8wk mark.

To make it worse, this week is so full! I'm throwing a giant 30th burthday for my husband and hosting his whole family for through the weekend. I've hosted while miscarrying before and it just sucks.

babycakes8214

@linzandjer11

 

I'm sorry. Hopefully the bleeding does not indicate you are losing the baby. It could be anything.

 

How about going to the ER and hopefully getting an ultrasound on a higher quality machine?? That way at least you may get some solid answers. Hugs. Sorry you are dealing with this.

YouGoGlenCoco31

linzandjer11 said:

I had an appt today with my midwife and we did an ultrasound on her rather outdated equipment. We saw a shadow of a baby and maybe saw it wiggle, but her equipment wasn't good enough to tell if it had a heartbeat or not. So we scheduled another appt for nov 7. I was feeling so hopeful and full if peace. But tonight after dinner i had started spotting. I'm so sad. Even though it's super light, it's starting to turn pink and i just feel like i'm going to loose my third pregnancy this year around the 8wk mark. To make it worse, this week is so full! I'm throwing a giant 30th burthday for my husband and hosting his whole family for through the weekend. I've hosted while miscarrying before and it just sucks.

Sending you positive vibes - hope the spotting goes away and baby is OK.  Hugs.

YouGoGlenCoco31

@KatyPatrick So sorry for what you're dealing with.  That's so stressful for you.

lisaren

linzandjer11 said:

I had an appt today with my midwife and we did an ultrasound on her rather outdated equipment. We saw a shadow of a baby and maybe saw it wiggle, but her equipment wasn't good enough to tell if it had a heartbeat or not. So we scheduled another appt for nov 7. I was feeling so hopeful and full if peace. But tonight after dinner i had started spotting. I'm so sad. Even though it's super light, it's starting to turn pink and i just feel like i'm going to loose my third pregnancy this year around the 8wk mark. To make it worse, this week is so full! I'm throwing a giant 30th burthday for my husband and hosting his whole family for through the weekend. I've hosted while miscarrying before and it just sucks.

OH NO! Please keep us updated. Sending good positive juju to you.

jessicalacey1226

Week: I'll be 9 tomorrow!

Upcoming appointments: Monday

Questions for the group:

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? Can't pick one!!


How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? I feel like I'm still waiting for things to sink in. I think subconsciously I was so scared of loosing this baby that I didn't get overly excited. I feel like I'm still in the rut of things still being unreal, like I have to stop myself sometimes and remind myself I'm preggo (although the increase in MS is helping). I'm hoping once I have my next u/s next week that it'll help calm me down and get me more pumped about everything.

I also finally gave in and ordered maternity pants this weekend. I did feel weird placing the order, and it's still making me a little nervous. I just can't take my tight pants anymore! Even the pants that used to be supper baggy on me are starting to get tight. I actually had a day last week that I went to work without my pants zipped! The only thing holding them together was a hair tie and the long tank I wore under my sweater.

nerdymama15

Week: 9

Upcoming appointments: Just an OB one tomorrow for a pap smear and initial blood test results from where they took blood at the very first appt

Questions for the group:  Some cramping is normal right?  I know it is, but sometimes it just helps to hear another person say it is.  It is like my own brain's answer does not count. 

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? The Wizard of Oz.  A couple of years ago my DH took me to see it in 3D and then he surprised me with all the Wizard of Oz happy meal toys.   I am a huge Wizard of Oz fan.  I want to eventually one day visit the Wizard of Oz themed park that opens up once a year in NC.  By once a year, I literally  mean one day a year, or maybe it is one weekend.  Not sure.

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically?
Just started getting more symptoms.  Whenever nausea comes it is really bad.   Getting dizzy a lot more too.  Except usually the dizzy and nausea are together and it feels similar to when I get motion sickness.  Go figure.  I just had some cramps this morning and it freaked me out.  I know some cramping is normal, but it still freaks me out.  

babycakes8214

@nerdymama15

yes, some cramping is normal.

 

All of the losses on the board lately have my anxiety through the roof. I called my doctor and they are brining me in for an ultrasound to try to ease the anxiety. Going in in a few hours! Will let you all know how it works out.

 

Being on this board is great, but its also making it really hard to keep my mind off of losing this baby. Anyone else?

linzandjer11

I'm out again. Have safe and lovely pregnancies, ladies.

babycakes8214

I am so so sorry @linzandjer11

 

Sending lots of hugs and thoughts and prayers your way!

YouGoGlenCoco31

So very sorry for your loss, @linzandjer11.  Be kind to yourself.

jessicalacey1226

Having a rough day today ladies. I've had a head cold the past few days. Yesterday I was able to stay home and just take it easy. By dinner time I was actually starting to perk up and feel better. Until I went to the bathroom and saw spotting. It wasn't bad at first, but last night I woke up a couple times with stomach issues and found bright blood. Wtf? I was just starting to feel like things were good, I made it to 9 weeks with 2 good u/s, and was just anxiously awaiting an u/s on Monday since the previous ones were done prior to 8 weeks. Even yesterday I still had my ms. I'm so scared that I'm going to lose this baby.

baybeekay

Week: 13 weeks tomorrow!

Upcoming appointments: 16 week appointment on nov 20. I've had 2 appointments already


GTKY: What is your favorite movie?
Most people don't know this one but it's Murder in the First.

How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? I'm feeling great. Nausea has gone away. Fatigue is fading. Yay 2nd trimester. Lol.

daphne814

Week: 8 (almost 9)

Upcoming appointments: I had my first OB appointment yesterday and I'll have my first u/s on Monday.

Questions for the group:

GTKY: What is your favorite movie? Love Actually.


How are you feeling, emotionally and physically? Super tired, off and on nauseous, whenever my symptoms stop for a bit I get paranoid. I wish I could just be thankful I'm not suffering, lol.