Something has changed...always on egg shells

cammlyn

So when I found out that I was pregnant this last time on Sept 3rd I went and picked up our yorkie poo Ellie and that is how I told my husband that we were going to be parents. It was super cute . Anyways. So fast forward to the weeks after our miscarriage on oct 4th.... 

I feel like I am watching Ellie contently. I make sure she is breathing while she is sleeping. I worry about leaving her at home while we are at work. I panic if I think she is getting sick. I have an overwhelming fear that she is going to die. I feel like she has all of my "motherly instincts". Like while writing this post she is sleeping in floor beside me and I have looked at her 10 times and just watch to make sure she is breathing. She had shots today and I am worried she will get sick. 

I know this sounds crazy. But is it possible that she is my surrogate baby??  

Edit because I can't spell lol

lilp2015

Maybe because she signifies the way you told your husband and now you've lost the pregnancy? I'm sure it's normal and will get easier. If not I would talk to your dr about seeking counseling and maybe short term anxiety meds. I know they helped me a lot while going through both my losses. Sorry for your loss.

cammlyn

Yeah I am just going to let it ride a little longer and if not then I will have to go back to the doctor. I had to get a week or two of anxiety meds with our last loss I was hoping I wouldn't need them this time

queen_frostine

Well, yes, but then again our pets have always been our surrogate babies long before we had a miscarriage. When bad things happen, sometimes it's hard not to be nervous about everything else. 

cammlyn

@RainMira9e that's what my husband keeps saying just that I am picking up on it more now.