I'm pretty sure I'm out this month. 12 dpo and AF is supposed to arrive tomorrow. I normally spot 3 days before she shows up and that didn't happen. But, my cervix is pretty low and hard. On 10dpo it was super high and I couldn't even feel the opening. I got way too excited and hopeful. Now that it's dropped I just want to cry. I've resisted the urge to test all week! I can't stand to see another BFN. I know I'm not officially out until the beast arrives but I just don't feel positive this time. Even though we did everything "right" this month.
I'm living a nightmare. Yesterday, at 14dpo, I woke up and my BBT had plummeted from 99.2 to 98.8. I tried to absorb the shock and keep my cool but ended up breaking down sporadically throughout the day, thinking that AF was approaching. To add insult to injury, last night I went to the bathroom and saw a slight spotting. While sobbing I thought "Screw this!", and went to bed.
This morning my big, puffy, frog eyes woke up to a 99.1 temperature again....
I'm hoping some of you guys are around here to keep me company because I'm seriously losing my mind. I know you'll say to just test but I can't bring myself to... I'm not out of the danger zone as I had a 16 day LP before....
If this doesn't work out I'm seriously going to need a grief counselor because this shit is driving me to a nervous breakdown. I'm just not cut out for this at all
@BulgariHeart I'm literally feeling the same way. I'm 12dpo and my temp is still up around 98.42 which is high for me. Usually my temps are in a much lower range and they start dropping anywhere from 9dpo-12dpo. I've gotten 2 bfn's so far but afraid to test this morning. I did use OTC progesterone cream from 3-7dpo, but I didn't think that would affect my temps at 12dpo? I don't know what to think. I'm sorry you're going through this. Xo
TTC#1 since Jan 2015 BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36) BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
BFP 11/18/15 • DD born at 41 weeks (age 37/38)
TTC#2 since May 2017 BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39) BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40) 9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied) RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy. BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
BFP 5/11/19 • Fraternal twins • MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w) • Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)
@thistle8677, @BulgariHeart -- I'm sorry you're both in such limbo. Post-ovulation temps completely screw with your mind.... Keeping my fingers crossed for you both!!
*** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl!
I reallt doubted this day would ever come. I thought for sure I was out! My cervix was so low the day before AF was supposed to be here. I managed to wait until the day after she was to arrive to test. I tested in the middle of the day and thought MAYBE I saw a super faint line. But was really afraid it was just an evap line. I waited until this morning and ran to Walmart and bought frer and some .88 walmarts. BFP!!! On both. I'm about to die. I've been balling my eyes out! AND DH is at work until 6 pm!!! I had to tell somebody so here I am. I know I don't post much but I've been a lurker for a while and this place has helped me through so really dark times!!! We ttc back in 2007 and gave up. It just wasn't happening and my emotions couldn't handle it. We started "not preventing" in 2012 and really trying a little over a year ago. He has been taking fertility blend and I have been taking serrapeptase, cassava root, and prenatals for about 4 months. The one thing we did different this month was preseed. Good luck ladies!!!! Don't give up!!!
TTC#1 since Jan 2015 BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36) BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
BFP 11/18/15 • DD born at 41 weeks (age 37/38)
TTC#2 since May 2017 BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39) BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40) 9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied) RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy. BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
BFP 5/11/19 • Fraternal twins • MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w) • Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)
Sorry for going MIA on you ladies. Today is CD3. AF arrived later on Saturday although my temp never dropped. It's still in the 99 range and today is CD3, so basically if it doesn't drop, either my overall body temp is shifting as a consequence of the TCM protocol I'm following to warm up my body, or this cycle I will have no cover line on FF.
Anyway, I've now seen it all. And I mean ALL. It took my sweet hubby a really long time to cheer me up this past week end. At one point he took me and looked straight in my eyes and said "would you calm down please! You've only just had a normal period after years of painful ones. Clearly what you're doing is working but your body needs TIME to adjust and we've only tried a handful of times!"
Anyway, today I have a lovely mugwort vaginal steam bath on my to do list and then I'll be off finding something else to obsess on, while I regain what little is left of my sanity. If I don't post for a few weeks it's because I'm trying to not go crazy, but know that I'll be back and will be thinking of all of you.
Ah, @BulgariHeart I'm so sorry. I was so hoping for different news from you. But I'm so glad your husband had such a good point--getting a normal period is a huge step in the right direction! Please take care of yourself and know we're all thinking of you and cheering you on.
@BulgariHeart, I'm so sorry! I contributed to getting your hopes up! How strange that your temps stayed up without progesterone. I guess it's the TCM protocol, like you said. @Thistle8677 can tell you that I've curbed my excitement quite a bit to avoid contributing to other people's emotional roller coasters. But with your chart, I was so sure...
I know the crushing disappointment you're feeling. I've been there multiple times now, between the losses and the symptomatic months that gave me such hope. I hope you feel better soon. This is definitely hard.
TTC#1 since Jan 2015 BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36) BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
BFP 11/18/15 • DD born at 41 weeks (age 37/38)
TTC#2 since May 2017 BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39) BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40) 9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied) RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy. BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
BFP 5/11/19 • Fraternal twins • MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w) • Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)
@BulgariHeart - Oh no!! What a bummer. I'm so so sorry. But it is good that your cycle is getting more on track. I hope your time is just around the corner!
ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14) 11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!! Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805 12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)! 1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm) EDD: 8/10/16 8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches 5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo) Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
AF arrived 3 days ago, I'm gonna start a new discussion updating everyone on our latest medical situation. I need to center for this one, it's been emotionally rough the last few days.
TTC#1 since Jan 2015 BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36) BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
BFP 11/18/15 • DD born at 41 weeks (age 37/38)
TTC#2 since May 2017 BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39) BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40) 9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied) RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy. BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
BFP 5/11/19 • Fraternal twins • MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w) • Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)
Re: TWW post (week of 10/12 - 10/18)
To the rest of you ladies, FX for the future! You got this!
Married 5/30/15
TTC #1 June 2015
BFP #1 9/28/15, EDD 6/10/16. DS born 5/23/16!
TTC #2 May 2017
BFP #2 m/c 11/18/17 5w5d
BFP #3 12/17/17 EDD 8/25/18. It's a boy!
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
Omg!!!!! Those temps @BulgariHeart!!!!!
Me: 37, DH: 36
Started TTC #1: 9/2015
Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
BFP: 6/22/2016 EDD 3//6/2017
I've gotten 2 bfn's so far but afraid to test this morning. I did use OTC progesterone cream from 3-7dpo, but I didn't think that would affect my temps at 12dpo?
I don't know what to think.
I'm sorry you're going through this. Xo
BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
TTC#2 since May 2017
BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
I reallt doubted this day would ever come. I thought for sure I was out! My cervix was so low the day before AF was supposed to be here. I managed to wait until the day after she was to arrive to test. I tested in the middle of the day and thought MAYBE I saw a super faint line. But was really afraid it was just an evap line. I waited until this morning and ran to Walmart and bought frer and some .88 walmarts. BFP!!! On both. I'm about to die. I've been balling my eyes out! AND DH is at work until 6 pm!!! I had to tell somebody so here I am. I know I don't post much but I've been a lurker for a while and this place has helped me through so really dark times!!! We ttc back in 2007 and gave up. It just wasn't happening and my emotions couldn't handle it. We started "not preventing" in 2012 and really trying a little over a year ago. He has been taking fertility blend and I have been taking serrapeptase, cassava root, and prenatals for about 4 months. The one thing we did different this month was preseed. Good luck ladies!!!! Don't give up!!!
BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
TTC#2 since May 2017
BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
Me: 37, DH: 36
Started TTC #1: 9/2015
Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
BFP: 6/22/2016 EDD 3//6/2017
I know the crushing disappointment you're feeling. I've been there multiple times now, between the losses and the symptomatic months that gave me such hope. I hope you feel better soon. This is definitely hard.
BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
TTC#2 since May 2017
BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
TTC#2 since May 2017
BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)