This is the first weekly check-in for May 2016 moms who have previously had a loss.
I know my interest thread said PAAL check-in, but I think I used the wrong acronym. Sorry about that.
How many weeks are you?
What is on your mind today? Any vents? Anyone feeling relief because of a recent appointment? Anything goes!
Re: PgAL Check-In (10/5)
I am currently 6 weeks today.
Up until last week I was getting my HCG levels checked because it just made me feel a bit better to see them going up. The doctor called on Friday and said that going forward HCG levels would not be a good indicator of anything because they are going to stop doubling. She did agree to do an ultrasound early if I wanted to (they don't do them until 10 weeks) but then I won't get another one at 10 weeks. I'm struggling with this. My H can come with me at 10 weeks but can't if I go any earlier. I was 9 weeks since LMP when I lost my last baby so I think waiting until 10 weeks will provide me the most reassurance. But... I don't want to wait. I don't want 4 more weeks of worry. I am supposed to let them know today what my decision is, and as of right now, I still don't really know.
My husband said to me yesterday "I thought you loved being pregnant." Yes, yes I did and I do. BUT, it is so much harder after a loss. The worry and anxiety is eating me alive. I sure hope this gets easier.
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I'm anxiously awaiting my next appointment. I haven't fully accepted this pregnancy and I don't want to tell anyone. I'm hoping the next u/s will make it more real for me, make me excited, and finally make me want to tell people.
I'm 9w6d today.
My US was 3 weeks ago, and my first appointment isn't until next week. I'm bugging out. I will probably call my dr's office at some point today and ask if I can come in this week instead.
@nay09 I am feeling the same. It is so hard to let myself get excited about it. I hope that your next ultrasound gives you the relief you need and allows you to finally be excited.
@lest12 I hope you can get in earlier if that's what you need for you to feel a bit more at ease!
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8w1d
What is on your mind today? Any vents? Anyone feeling relief because of a recent appointment?
I'm still not feeling attached to this pregnancy yet. I had my Ob intake appointment this morning which was just a bunch of questions and blood work. I did get to schedule my first u/s for 10/21, which is DH birthday! I just want to hear a heartbeat!
Thanks, @babycakes8214 - my dr is great about it but the receptionist can be tricky.
I get that you are in a tough spot but crazy me would go for the US now, because around 10-12 weeks, they're going to be able to hear the HB on the Doppler and that always makes me feel a lot better, anyway! Good luck either way. It is a tough call!
Adopted our rescue fur baby 11/30/14
BFP 8/28/15, EDD 5/9/16, MMC 10/6/15, D&C 10/8/15
BFP 1/6/16, EDD 9/16/16
Our Miracles: BFP- May 14, 2015... diagnosed with SCH. Collapsed Sac- May 29, 2015. Determined to be failed twin tetraploidy pregnancy.
"Never in my arms, Always in my heart"
What is on your mind today? Any vents? Anyone feeling relief because of a recent appointment? All I can think of is my first ultrasound in the afternoon. Praying for a healthy baby.
I'm feeling some relief after my US last week and I could see the heartbeat fluttering away.
I will feel better after anatomy scan time. I experienced a late loss last time due to a very rare (non-genetic) heart abnormality. Praying every day for a healthy baby! Praying for healthy babies for all of you, as well.
Married in 2011
Baby 1: Stillborn at 27 weeks (April 2014)
Baby 2: Due May 2016
@hellogoodbye2
Good luck at your US today!! Keep us posted on how it goes!
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I have my NT scan and genetic appointment next Tuesday. I'm very anxious about this. Last year I lost a little boy to trisomy 18 in my 2nd trimester. There was no indication anything was wrong before hand.
I'm attached to this baby already, but by anxiety and my level of stress is super high.
How many weeks are you?
7w2d
What is on your mind today? Any vents? Anyone feeling relief because of a recent appointment? Anything goes!
I have my first appointment tomorrow. I'll also be getting a dating ultrasound but I am so nervous. I cant help but think the worst. I wish this day would just hurry up and end.
How many weeks are you?
5w6d
What is on your mind today? Any vents? Anyone feeling relief because of a recent appointment? Anything goes!
I'm going in to the RE's office to discuss our most recent IVF retrieval tmw, and ask them to keep the embryos at the clinic there for as long as possible before they transfer 'em to long term storage, since I'm so paranoid about losing this one, too. I asked for an hCG draw while I'm there -- I know they aren't much use past 6wks, but darned if I don't want that one last draw to confirm everything's still increasing okay up to that point! My first scan isn't until next week, and I know I'd be having a lot of trouble waiting for it if it weren't for the hCG draw I've got scheduled for tomorrow.
My therapist suggested asking for another scan juuust before the RE passes me off to the midwife, so I'll definitely be asking for that, too -- so I'm looking forward to a scan at 7wks, one at 9-10wks, the NT scan at ~12-14wks, and then the big anatomy scan at 20wks. I'm hoping that'll be enough to keep me feeling sane and stable, but I guess we'll see.
♥ Married since June 2009 ♥
TW: Living children & Losses:
Pregnant after 4 losses via IVF/FET with daughter "Gamma" (EDD Oct 2, 2019)
My first pregnancy was last November / December, but I started bleeding at 4w2 then and at the first ultrasound at 5w5 there was already nothing there. The actual miscarriage came later, and included me spending Christmas Eve at the hospital, calling my parents in tears and telling them I couldn't see them over Christmas.
Got pregnant the second time right away, at 5 weeks there were two gestational sacs, at 7 weeks there were no embryos, at 9 weeks I had surgery.
Since then I have been I'm therapy for depression.
I am really nervous this time. I had my first ultrasound right away at 4w3, but my doctor wasn't sure whether he saw anything and I need to come back in tomorrow for another one. He didn't do any blood work and the only symptom I have is sore boobs, so by now I have convinced myself that this is another miscarriage... I hope I can write something more cheerful here in 24 hours, but it's a small hope. I have no idea how to make it through tomorrow.
♥ Married since June 2009 ♥
TW: Living children & Losses:
Pregnant after 4 losses via IVF/FET with daughter "Gamma" (EDD Oct 2, 2019)
How many weeks are you? I am 6 weeks 4 days
What is on your mind today? Any vents? Anyone feeling relief because of a recent appointment? I just had my first US appointment this morning. I am measuring exactly as I calculated and the baby's HB was 130 BPM (we even got to hear it!). I am going to be extremely nervous this entire pregnancy and I feel like my doctor knows exactly what I need to curb the anxiety. I go back in on 10/26 for another US and at that time he will do pictures, since there will be more to see. I asked about the rest of the pregnancy and it sounds like I will get an US every four weeks and then they will start NST's at 32 weeks. He said they want to do anything possible to make me and themselves feel good about the pregnancy and that they are going to do everything possible to not let a stillbirth happen again. I love my OB
Thanks @babycakes8214 !! It went really well. I was so nervous going in. Baby measured 3 days ahead and had a healthy heartbeat :-) I posted a pic on the u/s thread.
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I got my Doppler out yesterday and found baby, which was VERY reassuring, and I'm so thankful for that little gadget! I had an US last week where everything looked fine and my OB deemed me "routine", so I don't see him again until 13 weeks. Trying to relax and try to enjoy being routine!
Prayers for you and your husband! I cannot imagine PGAL brain with that kind of stress. I hope your US goes well tomorrow!
I'm 6 weeks 5 days. I had a MC back in May. I started having occasional bleeding which my OB kept thinking was normal. I went for my first u/s at 7 weeks. The baby had measured a little under, but there was a strong heartbeat even though the OB warned us that it might be too early to see. I started breathing easy because the baby seemed healthy. That weekend I had some more bleeding. Called the office that week because I wanted to keep them up to date and next thing I knew they were squeezing me in only to find out my little bean no longer had a heartbeat. Went back a week later, got our confirmation and had a D&C that Saturday.
I'm so on edge about this pregnancy!!! My symptoms are just so much different than last time!! Last pregnancy I was constantly nauseous, severely fatigued, had big cravings and some food aversions. This time I have the sore boobs and the bloat but everything else comes and goes. I'm just starting to get more ms. Which is great as long as everything is normal! For now it's just making me a nervous wreck! My OB tested my progesterone levels at 4 weeks and he said they looked great. I go for my first u/s next Mon (also DH bday!) I'm praying for good news! I'm dreading bad news on his bday!! I'm also nervous because he leaves for a business trip tomorrow. Last time I found out about the mc while he was away, so I'm hoping this time is different!! I don't think I'm going to be able to breath until after the anatomy scan!!!
I am 7w3d.
Had first appointment with the doctor today to finally get my bloods done. I have not rushed to get anything done this time after a MMC back in June. Booked ultrasound too today for Thursday so hoping for a positive outcome. I think that's when I will finally be able to relax a little.
I have been feeling terrible (headaches, nauseous, tired) for the past week. I am struggling to get things done especially at work.
I hate the waiting game too!
@Rocka1 Please keep us posted how everything goes on Thursday. I have my fingers and toes crossed that everything goes ok!
@jessicalacey1226 Your story sounds pretty similar to mine. Good luck at your US next Monday! Can't wait to hear how it goes!
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I'm 7w4d
Haven't been able to see an ob or schedule any appointments because I had just gotten a new job and my insurance has been processing this whole time. I will be checking in regularly to see when I can get in there!!
My loss was natural and early on, at 5 weeks back in May.
Having a loss that was on the "easier" side has made it so that I am pretty calm so far and just patiently waiting, my new job has also helped to keep me distracted so that's nice ...
Can I suggest for next week that we add a GTKY(getting to know you) question, so that we can feel more familiar with one another ...
So something like,
Weeks:
Physical update (appointments, baby growth, etc.)
Emotional update (how you are feeling, rants/raves)
And a GTKY - so like what's your hobby? Or what's your favorite weekend activity, or how did you and your husband meet, etc......
Would everyone be ok with that?
But it went well! Measuring at 5w6 (which would put my due date at June 1) and there was a heartbeat! Too early to measure it, but it was there.
Next ultrasound next Wednesday.
I actually had initially typed out something very similar to the weekly ticker change and then deleted it. I will do this for next week. Feel free to send me suggestions of GTKY questions. I suck at that sort of thing.
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I'm 6w3d today and every morning i wake up and thank the Lord that i'm still pregnant.
Both of my previous losses happened around 9w, so i don't feel like i'm out of the woods AT ALL yet. I'll hopefully have a scan that finds a strong hb next week. However, i'm wondering how people are reacting to progesterone. I forgot to take mine one day and my symtoms became much less apparent. Also, i'm feeling like my uterus is still really small, even though i've been super achey down there with supposed growing pains. But no spotting yet! PTL
Adopted our rescue fur baby 11/30/14
BFP 8/28/15, EDD 5/9/16, MMC 10/6/15, D&C 10/8/15
BFP 1/6/16, EDD 9/16/16
However, the worries are creeping back in. Something could still happen, and I won't know until the next appointment at the 27th. I'm trying to take any symptoms as a good sign, but for 6 weeks, I had plenty of symptoms while knowing there was no baby, so I don't trust my body to tell me anything useful.
I'm not sure how I'll make it through this month-- probably the same way I did last month, which is just desperately clinging to hope one day at a time. I'm thinking if everything is good at 12w maybe I will be less apprehensive?
♥ Married since June 2009 ♥
TW: Living children & Losses:
Pregnant after 4 losses via IVF/FET with daughter "Gamma" (EDD Oct 2, 2019)