After trying for 5 years I finally got pregnant in 2013. My husband and I were so excited. I had a great pregnancy. No complications at all. Our little girl was Due December 21, 2013. I woke up Thanksgiving morning feeling a little weird. I could not explain what it was just weird feeling. Around noon that day, I started bleeding. I went straight to the hospital and while they were checking me out they could not find a heartbeat. They rushed me in for an emergency C-section. Our little girl was born stillborn. I completely lost it. I blamed myself. I could not figure out what I had did. The doctors told me sometimes this just happens.
We found out early this year we were pregnant again. My husband was excited. I on the other hand was not. I love children and always wanted my own but was afraid to get excited that I would again lose this baby especially after the doctor gave us our due date. We are due December 21. Then we found out we were having a girl. I still was not excited. My husband keeps telling me that everything will be ok. I am having a hard time even doing the baby registry. (I donated everything after the lose) I want this baby but afraid to get excited that the same thing will happen.
I have had people tell me that the way I am feeling is normal. I have also had people tell me that I need to just get over it and not think about the baby I lost. Is the way I am feeling normal? Is it also ok to get excited after a lose?