For me it's always there, made harder with each additional unsuccessful month and when people we know/work with are KU. It's a constant struggle to push sad thoughts from my mind, but it's often a battle I lose.
Each time I find out some one is pregnant it gets harder and I get jealous. I have frinds/family that have had 3 kids in the amount of time we have been trying. But october is going to be great and so many of us are going to get BFPs. When ever I see a BFP here I feel no jealousy only joy for that person and the knowledge that it is possible!!!
Married May 2009, TTC since November 2012 (Together since 2006 ish - had my eyes on him since 2001)
Me: 32 (33 in May), Him: 37 (January)
DX: Me: High Prolactin, Possible Autoimmune Disease Issues, though RE not concerned (?) New RE has a plan!!
Him: Minor Varicocele, low morphology, slightly low count
History:
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!! Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!) Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016 HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
I find it very challenging to stay positive and fight the jealousy. Been trying for a couple of years and have watched others having multiple kids in that time. I try to be optimistic and view all of the other positives in my life!!
One of the best things I read was to be happy and support those people you know who just got their bfp the way you want them to react when you finally get yours.
Ok, anyone who knows me by now knows I am NOT good at this. For almost everyone I know, I am extremely happy and I live it 100% but I FAIL when it come to our (not any more now that we have moved to ivf) donor's wife. She's awful, I truly think she won't make a good parent, and her snide comments have been over the top. Lol, but the rest of the world (like my cousin who is having her third) I am over the top excited and loving her and the baby. You know why? Bc I KNOW she will be there jumping up and down for joy with me!
RE DX for me: Anovulatory cycles/Mild PCOS RE DX for DW: Endometrioma on left Ovary. Reciprocal Ivf Feb 2016. DW eggs and I am carrying. EDD: 10/27/16
Re: Baby Fever
It's a constant struggle to push sad thoughts from my mind, but it's often a battle I lose.
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!!
Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!)
Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own
Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen
Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016
HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
Trying to conceive since November 2012
Ok, anyone who knows me by now knows I am NOT good at this. For almost everyone I know, I am extremely happy and I live it 100% but I FAIL when it come to our (not any more now that we have moved to ivf) donor's wife. She's awful, I truly think she won't make a good parent, and her snide comments have been over the top. Lol, but the rest of the world (like my cousin who is having her third) I am over the top excited and loving her and the baby. You know why? Bc I KNOW she will be there jumping up and down for joy with me!
RE DX for me: Anovulatory cycles/Mild PCOS RE DX for DW: Endometrioma on left Ovary.
Reciprocal Ivf Feb 2016. DW eggs and I am carrying. EDD: 10/27/16