Forgot to mention: Brie and wine planned for dinner (I'm that completely paranoid TWWer who stops all questionable stuff during TWW) What do yoU guys do on Day 1?!
So I'm 15dpiui and my RE finally gave up hope (I had given up last Saturday after I started spotting). I can't really drink normally, but I want some fruity drink this weekend. I want raw cookie dough too. When AF comes in the next coming days I will feel hopeful for the upcoming cycle.
Today is CD1, so because AF came - I will devour a bottle of wine and some Ben and Jerrys this weekend;) Then move the hell on because this is THE month!!
**child mentioned** Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid DH(43)Low T/ED MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012 TTC #2 since 04/2014 BFP 8/26/2016
I get really sad, upset, frustrated. I am grouchy to my husband. I eat lots of sweets. Then I put my big girl panties on and get over it. Moving on to next month.
I eat all of the chocolate!! I'm avoiding all sweets for the rest of my cycle but I lose total control when AF comes. I also drink kombucha (my acupuncturist has me avoiding it because of the sugar/carb content). And this last time I had a massive bowl of popcorn with lots of butter. Yum.
ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14) 11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!! Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805 12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)! 1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm) EDD: 8/10/16 8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches 5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo) Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
99% of me feels sad, anxious, frustrated, broken, incapable, guilty (for disappointing myself and DH, although he's pretty calm and rational about the whole thing.)
1% of me feels a tiny bit of relief somehow... Despite wanting to be a mother so much, I'm also scared shitless - so many people experience terrible losses or developmental disorders or sudden infant loss or... Can you tell I'm a worrier?!? I need to stop, but I can't help but see all of the possibilities and many of them are just too scary. I think, in many ways, the decision to try to become a parent is BRAVE, and sometimes I am not sure I'm brave enough. Does that make any sense?
@Infantino22 - I totally understand! I get really scared sometimes too. I think it's just the unknown that's so scary. But I know that when the time happens, I'll just take one day at a time and hope for the best! At least that's what I'll TRY to do. I'm a bit of a worrier too :-)
ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14) 11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!! Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805 12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)! 1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm) EDD: 8/10/16 8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches 5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo) Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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Married 5/30/15
TTC #1 June 2015
BFP #1 9/28/15, EDD 6/10/16. DS born 5/23/16!
TTC #2 May 2017
BFP #2 m/c 11/18/17 5w5d
BFP #3 12/17/17 EDD 8/25/18. It's a boy!
Today is CD1, so because AF came - I will devour a bottle of wine and some Ben and Jerrys this weekend;) Then move the hell on because this is THE month!!
Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid DH(43)Low T/ED
MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012 TTC #2 since 04/2014
BFP 8/26/2016
Sorry about AF @piperella.
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
1% of me feels a tiny bit of relief somehow... Despite wanting to be a mother so much, I'm also scared shitless - so many people experience terrible losses or developmental disorders or sudden infant loss or... Can you tell I'm a worrier?!? I need to stop, but I can't help but see all of the possibilities and many of them are just too scary. I think, in many ways, the decision to try to become a parent is BRAVE, and sometimes I am not sure I'm brave enough. Does that make any sense?
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1