Now that I have the U/S in hand, I want to just shout it to the world that I am pregnant! Probably not the best career move, but I am just too damn excited to care.
Also, as much as I say I hate it, I kinda want to go back to the hospital and be waited on again. It was nice to press a button and have someone there. Now when I vomit or need something to drink I have to either get my butt off the couch or just deal with it here at work. Blah.
Last one: I haven't had a full 5 day work week since school began on September 1. And yet I still feel over it. What is wrong with me?
I ate eggs and a smoothie for breakfast. I forgot we have (fancy) bagels at work today. I'm totally going to eat that too (even though I don't need to).
I was out running errands with DD yesterday evening. I got done at the Dollar Tree at 4:20 and knew I should have gone home because my MIL was planning on getting here at 4:30. Instead I went to Kohl's because I didn't feel like entertaining MIL any longer than I needed to. She ended up getting here early and sitting in the driveway waiting on DH to get home. Ooooops
June Siggy Challenge: Dad Fails
Married 7.28.2012 DD born 7.27.2014 BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
I cried this morning because of a dream. (I dreamt our pool was done and we were swimming, when in reality our yard is just a bunch of dirt and it probably won't get done before it gets too cold.)
This pregnancy was a very big surprise... I have some health issues and had scheduled a surgery later in the year, and my 18 month old still wakes up multiple times at night so I'm still very tired. I was having some bad cramping the other day and felt like I might be spotting, and instead of being worried, my first reaction was relief. Everything is fine, but now I feel guilty that I felt that way.
@katykatykaty don't feel guilty! They were concerned I might have an ectopic pregnancy due to my high HCG and HG, and for like a hot minute I was almost relieved thinking they would just go in and scoop out my ovaries and I wouldn't have to worry about the pregnancy and affording another little one. But, after seeing the healthy U/S I also felt super guilty. Hey, it is normal to be freaked out and not want things to change, especially when you are dealing with a sleep averse toddler!
Here Friday is again and here I am again not wanting to do a thing. And I really don't care. I feel like crap... Headache, nauseous, tail end of a cold, etc. It really took all my strength not to text my lead and tell him I was going to work from home today. Looking forward to 5 today... Aka nap time.
DH has diverticulitis, and it can be pretty bad at times. He is having a flare up now, and I am moody and just want to tell him to shut up. Guys are such whiners when they are sick. But then I feel bad and think of how great he has been with me since the exhaustion hit. I am a beotch.
@katykatykaty I totally agree with @laurenmdrn16 No reason to feel guilty there. When people are stressed, I think it's natural to feel temporary relief if there's a glimpse of an easier path. I'm sure you're still a wonderful mother.
Concerning the night wakings, I completely sympathize. DS is nearly 18 months and night weaned very recently. We were just working on longer sleep stretches when he got sick last week...and then we picked up 2-3 night feedings again because I needed to keep him hydrated and wanted to comfort him. It can be exhausting. I finally begged DH to take the after midnight wakings last night since we're working on weaning back down (again!) and got a solid 4.5 hours of sleep last night in my own bed before heading off to work. It was amazing. I really hope that you are able to find a balance for yourself and your family that gets you a bit more well-rested.
@katykatykaty I totally agree with @laurenmdrn16 No reason to feel guilty there. When people are stressed, I think it's natural to feel temporary relief if there's a glimpse of an easier path. I'm sure you're still a wonderful mother.
Concerning the night wakings, I completely sympathize. DS is nearly 18 months and night weaned very recently. We were just working on longer sleep stretches when he got sick last week...and then we picked up 2-3 night feedings again because I needed to keep him hydrated and wanted to comfort him. It can be exhausting. I finally begged DH to take the after midnight wakings last night since we're working on weaning back down (again!) and got a solid 4.5 hours of sleep last night in my own bed before heading off to work. It was amazing. I really hope that you are able to find a balance for yourself and your family that gets you a bit more well-rested.
Thank you! And that's encouraging to hear that you've made progress with night weaning. I know that's what we need to do in order to finally get some sleep, but right now my son spends most of the night in our bed, and honestly it's just easier to keep going like this than to make the effort to wean and get him to spend the whole night in his crib. I've told myself I will do it after the first trimester, so hopefully I'll stick to that goal. 4.5 hours sounds amazing!!
I'm meeting my brother's girlfriends family (seriously) tomorrow and I kinda hope that they are really awful so my brother finally realizes that she is awful too. I know that's really mean but I just can't stand the girl. Yes, I want my brother to be happy but I also see the train wreck that this will be. Flame away.
I forgot to add my confession! I'm buying lunch today because the thought of leftovers this morning made my stomach turn. We've tightened our budget again, so this isn't really something I should be doing. I sold a few things on TpT this week though, so I'm pretending that it evens it out.
Oooo, @aamm04 you made me think of another! Last night was the Haunted Happenings Parade (I live in Salem MA so October is a really big deal) and my son was really excited about it. I was *too tired* to take him so MH took him. I watched Project Runway and then pretended to be asleep when they got home.
My DS daycare is closed today for a training actually yesterday too and I fully intend on not doing a dang thing! We may or may not get out of our PJ's!!
I'm trying so hard to be patient with MH, but his procrastination the last three days on something I've asked him to do for the last three weeks is driving me bat-shit insane. I've been staring at him and thinking some really mean things in my head. Like really mean.
I sometimes really love that I live in a neighbourhood that isn't considered 'nice' (it's safe and green, but very white-trashy) because I can go to the store with bed hair wearing my trashiest outfit and no one will bat an eye.
@mrstmoose you will have no flames from me. I honestly wish I could have met my brothers (now) wife's family earlier to warn them to get her away from him, because he is the terrible one. I didn't meet them until her baby shower, and by then it seemed to be useless.
So maybe that is my FFFC, I fervently wish my brother's marriage would be over. Because he is an emotional abuser and no one, especially a child, deserves that.
@mlangblom that's sad. I understand wishing you could get someone away from someone else. She's not emotionally abusive but she is definitely a "victim" and plays the part accordingly. I personally think she could have some traits of a certain personality disorder (Histrionic) but my brother plays right into everything she says/does.
@mlangblom I know I'm that sister. My brothers know it too. I've come to embrace it because I view it more as honesty than anything. They know that I won't sugarcoat things for them. So this brother knows I don't like his girlfriend, but I'm also not rude about it. He definitely doesn't ask for my opinion often.
I went to bed at 7pm yesterday because I was "exhausted".
I was exhausted, but I really just wanted to look through Lucie's List and watch Grey's Anatomy in peace.
@mrstmoose glad to hear I am not alone! I don't try to be mean, but when asked I will give you my actual thoughts. Coming from Minnesota, aka the land of passive-aggression, honest opinions are rare.
Got another one, though this may be more of a complaint. I'm disgusted that one of our district's solutions to budget cuts is to reduce janitorial services. Our garbage cans aren't actually cleaned nor do they get the bags replaced weekly even-- they just dump them out each day. We only occasionally get proper floor cleaning/sweeping. The garbage can/bag in my room wreaks and has been adding to my nausea the past two days, and the staff bathroom has had a damn dead cockroach on the floor for almost 2 weeks. (I'm not about to pick it up.) I got used to cleaning my own boards, tables, and desks a while ago, but I just can't get used to these new cutbacks. Yuck.
@kbrands7 that is disgusting. Working in catholic schools, I'm used to cleaning my own boards and things. I once did a long term leave in a district that cleaned everything and was spoiled rotten. Regardless, no where have I worked where I have heard of that type of garbage policy to save money. That's just gross.
My SIL doesn't want anymore kids after having my nephew. Which I take no issue with, obviously, but she constantly judges me for how I'm raising my DD because her son and my DD are only 10 months apart. Right after DD was born she gets into these jealous fits over her son not being everyone's sole focus whenever we come to visit from out of state. My sister had a DD, and they didn't even see the baby for months even though they only live an hour or so apart. Now that i'm pregnant she's doing it again and making snide remarks about my parenting choices, all because she doesn't want any attention taken away from her son. It's infuriating. I actually think my brother has a part in all of this too.
For instance, my daughter is learning sight words at school. Well their son is in the same grade as our DD, and apparently I'm "rushing the learning process." They also made a sarcastic remark about her age, and why is she learning sight words. I asked on my FB for tips for beginning readers, not for your opinions on whether she's the correct age or at the right stage of development. They are always doing this....If their son isn't doing it yet, then it's too soon for my DD. It's like they are in some sort of sick contest of who's kid is better.
This is actually my smallest issue with her. I have many, many others.
I sort of hope that a few of the newbies that post once or twice decide TB isn't for them and hopefully that will help thin the herd, have more regulars and help with the organization of the board.
I sort of hope that a few of the newbies that post once or twice decide TB isn't for them and hopefully that will help thin the herd, have more regulars and help with the organization of the board.
Flame away.
Amen.
I'm also hoping the newbies learn that the report button isn't a dislike button.
Re: FFFC
Now that I have the U/S in hand, I want to just shout it to the world that I am pregnant! Probably not the best career move, but I am just too damn excited to care.
Also, as much as I say I hate it, I kinda want to go back to the hospital and be waited on again. It was nice to press a button and have someone there. Now when I vomit or need something to drink I have to either get my butt off the couch or just deal with it here at work. Blah.
Last one: I haven't had a full 5 day work week since school began on September 1. And yet I still feel over it. What is wrong with me?
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019DD born 7.27.2014
BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
Married in 2011
Baby 1: Stillborn at 27 weeks (April 2014)
Baby 2: Due May 2016
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Married: Oct 20, 2013
BFP 1: Aug 31, 2015
EDD 1: May 12, 2016
DD1 Emma born May 12, 2016
An Honest Account of New Motherhood (with Postpartum Anxiety, Depression, and OCD)
BFP 2: October 07, 2019
EDD 2: June 20, 2020
I was exhausted, but I really just wanted to look through Lucie's List and watch Grey's Anatomy in peace.
BFP #1: 9/12/2015
DD: 6/1/2016
BFP #2: 1/16/2018 MC 2/2/2018
Our nursery, nursery furniture, and every item for our registry (minus a monitor) is picked out.
Not everyone can breastfeed - Mammary Hypoplasia/Insufficient Glandular Tissue Awareness
So maybe that is my FFFC, I fervently wish my brother's marriage would be over. Because he is an emotional abuser and no one, especially a child, deserves that.
Like all you want is to save everyone the headaches that will probably happen (divorce, for example), but how dare you question their love!!
Lucies List is the shiz. I swear by her reviews.
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For instance, my daughter is learning sight words at school. Well their son is in the same grade as our DD, and apparently I'm "rushing the learning process." They also made a sarcastic remark about her age, and why is she learning sight words. I asked on my FB for tips for beginning readers, not for your opinions on whether she's the correct age or at the right stage of development. They are always doing this....If their son isn't doing it yet, then it's too soon for my DD. It's like they are in some sort of sick contest of who's kid is better.
This is actually my smallest issue with her. I have many, many others.
Edit: wasn't done typing
Flame away.
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019I'm also hoping the newbies learn that the report button isn't a dislike button.