Hi everyone, let me just say it makes me feel hopeful and not alone when I read everyone else's stories.
I found out I was pregnant at home on a at home pregnancy test the test showed 2-3 weeks. I was so happy and couldn't wait to tell my partner. I made a doctor appt as soon as I could to confirm for sure, and I was 5 weeks along. I was so excited! We kept up with our apts and my insurance took forever and come to find out I wasn't covered I had to get another insurance so i wasn't able to see my doctor again until 8 weeks. One night after me and my partner had sex I saw I was bleeding, I immediately freaked out I went to the bathroom and some more came out. We both looked up things online right away and it put us both at ease when everyone was stating that they bled aster intercourse and it was normal. So we brushed it off and later on about 30 minutes I felt bleeding again and checked in the restroom and I was still bleeding i was so scared again so I called the doctor on call. And he said it sounds normal because of intercourse but to come in the next day to check on the baby. So right away in the morning I called and they got me in around 10:30. I talked to the doctor and she said everything is probably fine but she wanted to do a ultrasound to check on the baby. Me and my partner were so excited to actually be able to get our first ultrasound! I was 10 weeks almost 11. When my doctor came in she told me that my first visit when I was 5 weeks I had an abnormal pap. She didn't call and tell me cause that's not how she practiced she said. I was really mad and worried because maybe if she would have told me earlier things would have been different and saved.. But anyways, when she did the ultrasound she was telling me she saw the sac and it was developing well, but she couldn't see a fetus. She then proceeded to tell me that she was going to do a vaginal ultrasound. So when she did that she told me again that she couldn't see the fetus and all there was was a sac. I immediately got emotional. She told me the options that it could be and she ordered me to go to the ER to get a ultrasound by a technician that does it everyday with better equipment than her. She told me that a blighted ovum is probably what I had
Re: Blighted ovum miscarriage
I am sorry about your lose. It was so hard hearing from my doctor that I had a blighted ovum I had never heard of that before. I was so extremely depressed. I want to try again soon but scared cause I don't want it to happen again. That's all I want though is to be a mommy because when I got that opportunity that's all I want back now. I feel like it's my purpose in life to be a mommy. I hope I can be one soon. Prayers to you and your husband on having another baby! :x
And it's also comforting to know I'm not alone and that others have been thru this before too. I felt I was the only one
I had my first period since my MC about 3 weeks ago, it was very hard and depressing. Because I haven't had one in 4 months. My body went thru a lot of changes, from 4 months of pregnancy symptoms and then over night they are gone. It's depressing getting back to normal and when I look at my belly I just want to have a bump back again. It gets hard some days and then others I try to get better but then the littlest things can pop up and upset me. I see baby's everywhere and my cousin just had a baby and she is now 5 weeks old so it's hard to see her and be happy. And I'm starting a new job this Thursday and I'm happy but also depressed because I didn't work during my pregnancy and now I am. I really don't want to do anything I didn't do during my pregnancy. I'm just stuck in my depressed feelings I just want it all back
That is so good for you to be going to school and working and keeping yourself occupied. I haven't been working and now I got a good job offer and couldn't pass it up, but all I want to do is stay home and so does my partner. But we both know it's a good opportunity. I think it might keep me occupied but also I am scared to go back, cause I was lucky enough to stay home and focus on being healthy and getting rest for my baby. I just try and think positive and think God has this plan for us and this job came in for a reason and everything will fall into place. All I truly want is to just be a mommy. That's my life goal. I like how you said you know it will happen and you will have your rainbow baby, I believe you will too, and I will too. It really helps me slot to talk about this and have positive feedback and from someone who understand also. Hugs to you and Prayers for us :x
I also wanted to say I'm so sorry for your loss of your dad, and your pets. You seem like you are strong and can get thru a lot of things. Just try and keep up the hope and faith and know everything will be okay and get better. When it rains it pours, but it always clears up. Hugs to you sweet girl :x
Thank you!
And I want to really soon, my partner and me are looking for a place of our own right now, so he thinks when we get our own place we will try again. That it would be good so we have more space and on our own. And that's always hard for me cause I want to right now, but we need our own place and I understand but then again I don't I just want to try now. So that's a little depressing to me
Oh wow, that must be so hard to always get it brought up. We told his family his mom and dad and they were super happy for us. They were revolving there life around the baby to and they even said this news was what they were needing. I think getting our own place could be a start then we can start planning for our family again. I try to tell myself Gods plan is taking action. I just have mixed signals of this job you know
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