This is the point in pregnancy that I want to murder DH. All he has to do is exist and I want to bite his head off. He took DS to the park this morning so I could clean in peace (another sign of pregnancy for me: obsessive need to clean) and the entire time I was seething that he wasn't helping me. Never mind the fact that I ASKED him to get out of the house. Oy.
Now we're supposed to be at a BBQ at my parents house in an hour and he's trying to get a little painting done on our farmer's porch before we go. I know it's going to make us late (not a big deal at all, my parents couldn't care less) but all I want to do is tip over the beer he has sitting on the railing.
I applied to a job that I'm perfect for (a little over qualified if anything). They let me know that they would leave the ad up until August 31 and would then start inviting people. I haven't heard anything yet, not even a rejection. I really hope they'll get back to me soon but I'm feeling less hopeful every day (and the ad is still up on their website!). Just pick meeeee!
I am so freaking tired it is unreal. I actually made it through today without a nap (two days in a row!) and I am now looking at the clock and seriously considering if 7:15 is too early for bed.
First trimester fatigue with a toddler is a little rough. On the weekend I still need the time during naptime to keep the house in order but I want to sleep while he's sleeping so badly. Saturday, I tried to coax DS into a second nap when I hit the 2:00pm exhaustion wall...he cuddled with me for a few minutes, then squirmed so suddenly that he accidentally kicked me in the head.
@kmalls I've felt that way too! DH has been trying to help out a little more, and I swing between thanking him for pitching in, and bitching that he's still not doing enough. I feel bad.
All in all though, I'll take mood swings and fatigue for a baby. : ) Thankfully, MS hasn't kicked in full force yet! Edited-- apparently spelling is hard today for me.
My Fiancé left this morning for business on the other side of the country and won't be back until Friday night. I hate that he's gone during my first trimester. What if something bad happens?! I made him promise to have his phone on him always. He is gone again for 4 days later this month too! Grr
My husband is getting ready to deploy and we are trying to pack our house so the kids and I can move back with my family. Packing and feeling nauseous is no fun!
My husband keeps wanting to DO things and I just want to nap forever. He is currently knee deep in some crazy project and I am lying on the couch just watching my son tear up the playroom. When is bedtime?!
I'm actually 2.5 miles north of Rosepine and the neighborhood I live in consists mostly of military families. We are probably some of the only civilian families in here lol
I want this persistent cramp to go away and Thursday to be here so I can get beta draw AGAIN and U/S done. It is torture not knowing what is going on with my little bean. Is my beta's going up, down, or what. Is my little bean in my uterus or my tube? Is this a healthy pregnancy or not. I'm going crazy!!!
I start work again tomorrow, I'm a teacher.. I am totally happy and grateful that I had off with my little guy for the summer but I don't want to go back!!
I'm pretty sure Starbucks can make those decaf, so we're good.
Sadly, I tried to get a latte from another local breakfast place, and they didn't have decaf 'twas sad indeed.
They also make a nice Pumpkin Spice Chai though it does have caffeine in it.
And it can't be made without caffeine! Devastating! Luckily I know someone that works at Starbucks. She got me the hookup way before they had released their pumpkin flavor!
Finally came to a decision on my doctor so appt will be made tomorrow, but omg I hate my insurance, looking up reviews of doctors, practices, hospitals, etc. I found one amazing doctor who normally delivers at the hospital I wanted but she is only taking new gyn patients at this time. Wah.
I found one who wasn't too bad and is about 5 mins from my house and delivers at a decent hospital (A little farther than the one I really wanted but oh well) so we'll see how this goes.
Edit: and Starbucks just sent me a text reminder about Pumpkin Spice Lattes and it made me sad.
Ok, hold on to your hats for this one: My husband offered to do the laundry since my son is getting his 2yr molars and is super clingy. So he left for work and all I can see are 3 baskets filled with crumpled clothes. Are they clean? Dirty? Only the nose knows! After doing sniff test, they are all clean (hallelujah!) so I trudge them upstairs with my whiney boy trailing behind.
We get upstairs for bedtime and what do I see but his pee stained sheets from his nap still on his bed! I swear I told my husband to throw those in the wash! Maybe I didn't so I start ripping off the sheets while my over tired toddler pulls at my shirt, pleading for "Uppies!" Suddenly, what should land on my hand but THE BIGGEST FUCKING SPIDER OF ALL TIME! I screamed and dropped the mattress while my son darted out of the room. As the mattress fell, the pee sheets slingshotted off and whipped me in the face, starting my nose a-bleeding.
So now, I am covered in blood, about to vomit from the smell of stale pee and my son is crying in the other room. What to do but put my son to bed in my bed, clean up what I can, take a shower and curl up with my little guy for an early night. Where will my husband sleep? No clue, and I don't care because somehow this is all his fault!
@laurenmdrn16 oh my god. You win Monday Bitchfest. Clingy toddler, a spider, blood...I can't even. I got anxiety just reading your post! I wish I could send you a glass of wine, but oh yeah...you're pregnant on top of all that. Go to bed and hopefully tomorrow is a better day!!
I know. I am so sad to give up my chais. I guess I can switch to decaf pumpkin lattes but they are not the same.
I was trying to find out how much caffeine was in a chai so I can bargain my way to one if I am dying for the taste. It's probably better not to know!
I swear I am so moody that I can't even stand myself! I want a beer and I want this 90 degree heat wave to end. And all I want to do is lay around bc I'm so tired. I'm a psych nurse and feel like I should be the patient! Ugh!
I swear I am so moody that I can't even stand myself! I want a beer and I want this 90 degree heat wave to end. And all I want to do is lay around bc I'm so tired. I'm a psych nurse and feel like I should be the patient! Ugh!
You totally just described my day. Add to it the fact that all day long I'm dragging then can't sleep at night. I swear. If my DH snores and hogs the bed again tonight, I am not responsible for my actions.
Married: 1/2008 ~ DD#1: 3/2012 TTC #2: Started 4/2014 BFP 7/30/15 MC 8/3/15 BFP 9/4/2015 EDD 5/16/2016
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EDD 1: May 12, 2016
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EDD 2: June 20, 2020
@kmalls I've felt that way too! DH has been trying to help out a little more, and I swing between thanking him for pitching in, and bitching that he's still not doing enough. I feel bad.
All in all though, I'll take mood swings and fatigue for a baby. : ) Thankfully, MS hasn't kicked in full force yet!
Edited-- apparently spelling is hard today for me.
DS: Born 5-17-16
Married: Oct 20, 2013
BFP 1: Aug 31, 2015
EDD 1: May 12, 2016
DD1 Emma born May 12, 2016
An Honest Account of New Motherhood (with Postpartum Anxiety, Depression, and OCD)
BFP 2: October 07, 2019
EDD 2: June 20, 2020
Beer and wine are my weakness, seriously. Especially craft beer. Sometimes after a hard day at school coming home and drinking a beer is what I need.
BFP#1: 11/15/2010 * Missed M/C 12/28 * D&C 12/29/2010
BFP#5 12/26/2017 *SURPRISE* Due 09/02/2018
BFP#1: 11/15/2010 * Missed M/C 12/28 * D&C 12/29/2010
BFP#5 12/26/2017 *SURPRISE* Due 09/02/2018
BFP#1: 11/15/2010 * Missed M/C 12/28 * D&C 12/29/2010
BFP#5 12/26/2017 *SURPRISE* Due 09/02/2018
BFP#1: 11/15/2010 * Missed M/C 12/28 * D&C 12/29/2010
BFP#5 12/26/2017 *SURPRISE* Due 09/02/2018
BFP#1: 11/15/2010 * Missed M/C 12/28 * D&C 12/29/2010
BFP#5 12/26/2017 *SURPRISE* Due 09/02/2018
Sadly, I tried to get a latte from another local breakfast place, and they didn't have decaf 'twas sad indeed.
Married: Oct 20, 2013
BFP 1: Aug 31, 2015
EDD 1: May 12, 2016
DD1 Emma born May 12, 2016
An Honest Account of New Motherhood (with Postpartum Anxiety, Depression, and OCD)
BFP 2: October 07, 2019
EDD 2: June 20, 2020
LFAF September Siggy Challenge
ETA also before I knew I was KTFU
I found one who wasn't too bad and is about 5 mins from my house and delivers at a decent hospital (A little farther than the one I really wanted but oh well) so we'll see how this goes.
Edit: and Starbucks just sent me a text reminder about Pumpkin Spice Lattes and it made me sad.
I was trying to find out how much caffeine was in a chai so I can bargain my way to one if I am dying for the taste. It's probably better not to know!
LFAF September Siggy Challenge
My husband offered to do the laundry since my son is getting his 2yr molars and is super clingy. So he left for work and all I can see are 3 baskets filled with crumpled clothes. Are they clean? Dirty? Only the nose knows! After doing sniff test, they are all clean (hallelujah!) so I trudge them upstairs with my whiney boy trailing behind.
We get upstairs for bedtime and what do I see but his pee stained sheets from his nap still on his bed! I swear I told my husband to throw those in the wash! Maybe I didn't so I start ripping off the sheets while my over tired toddler pulls at my shirt, pleading for "Uppies!" Suddenly, what should land on my hand but THE BIGGEST FUCKING SPIDER OF ALL TIME! I screamed and dropped the mattress while my son darted out of the room. As the mattress fell, the pee sheets slingshotted off and whipped me in the face, starting my nose a-bleeding.
So now, I am covered in blood, about to vomit from the smell of stale pee and my son is crying in the other room. What to do but put my son to bed in my bed, clean up what I can, take a shower and curl up with my little guy for an early night. Where will my husband sleep? No clue, and I don't care because somehow this is all his fault!
Married: Oct 20, 2013
BFP 1: Aug 31, 2015
EDD 1: May 12, 2016
DD1 Emma born May 12, 2016
An Honest Account of New Motherhood (with Postpartum Anxiety, Depression, and OCD)
BFP 2: October 07, 2019
EDD 2: June 20, 2020
Married: 1/2008 ~ DD#1: 3/2012
TTC #2: Started 4/2014 BFP 7/30/15 MC 8/3/15 BFP 9/4/2015 EDD 5/16/2016