Hey all, I don't get on here much, but wanted to kind of vent my frustrations with my body. My period just started and I am so frustrated, more than I usually am for some reason. I think I was actually hopeful that it worked this month and I feel betrayed by my body once again. We have been trying for about 5 years. 2 surgeries for endo, and abdominal myomectomy to remove fibroids last November. We were given the ok to start trying again(after everything healed), 3 months ago. I have regular 28 day cycles with 14 day leutal phases and ovulate every time so it's just so aggravating to know that the reproductive parts seem to be working...my doctor made a comment on my last visit that I have a very tight cervix(he was having trouble getting the catheter through to do an hsg test), I wonder if that may be an issue. Ugh, ok Ty for the space to vent. Not much people that I can talk to about this.
2 Laps and 1 Abdominal Myomectomy 6 rounds of clomid 5 rounds of iui Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month) IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide ER 12/1/2016
ER-Retrieved 22 eggs 10 fertilized 4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls FET 1/10/2017 Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017 FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
I totally understand! I do all the things you are supposed to do to keep your body healthy, and yet, here I am on the trouble ttc board! If I were in charge of babies, I'd give you one, stat.
DX PCOS + mild male factor
TTC since Dec. 2015
Current Treatment: Metformin, Provera, Letrozole, Trigger, IUI Past Treatment: Clomid + Metformin x 3 BFN Letrozole 5 mg + Trigger shot + IUI = BFP! Beta confirmed 8/22 EDD 5/1/17
Thanks @clt2pwm11 ☺️ it is comforting to know that there is a group of women that know exactly what you're going through and can have compassion. Between the glass of wine, chocolate, and Netflix marathon, I think my day may just end up ok
2 Laps and 1 Abdominal Myomectomy 6 rounds of clomid 5 rounds of iui Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month) IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide ER 12/1/2016
ER-Retrieved 22 eggs 10 fertilized 4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls FET 1/10/2017 Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017 FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
I understand your frustration. We are going on year number 5 of ttc. I just did another IUI and thought it worked because I was late 4 days but oh no period came today. Great. Can't understand why some can have a baby and others have such a hard time. It makes you mad.
@WA85 Hugs to you. I understand completely. I have normal periods and ovulate regularly. My hormone tests and HSG came back normal, and hubby's analysis came back normal. We've been trying on and off for the past 5 years. It's frustrating not getting answers and absolutely devastating each month when AF comes around.
@sophiemgelesh Hugs to you as well. I'm sorry to hear your IUI didn't work this cycle. My fingers are crossed for you for next cycle. It doesn't make sense to me either why some can have babies so easily. Here we are, two people who love each other, been married for 5 years, have the means to raise a child...and nothing. And then there's 16 year olds who have sex once and end up KU. Seems like a cruel joke.
Me: 31 DH: 32 Dx: Unexplained TTC #1 off and on since 2010 11/15 - Clomid + TI = BFN 12/15 - Clomid + TI = BFN 1/16 - Clomid + IUI = BFN 2/16 - Clomid + IUI = BFN 4/16 - Follistim + IUI = BFN 5/16 - 11/16 - Life / WTFing / Pity Party / Saving $ 1/17 - IVF #1 (Fresh Transfer / 6 frosties) = BFN 3/17 - FET.... BFP! EDD 11/29
It's good to vent. Makes me feel less stressed. And it's great to know that there are a lot of people here who are going through the same things you are.
I know people having multiple kids and they don't have stable jobs or a home. So frustrating!
Ladies, I am thinking of all of you! This is such a frustrating journey. Everyday, I case manage for individuals/families on welfare. Many of the girls are pregnant with their other children in tow, have no means, no job, no plans. I swear, these girls look at a man get pregnant. I do my best not to feel jealous and judgemental, but I really suck at it and find myself throwing pity parties. I am no more deserving of a baby than anyone else (regardless of their preparedness), yet, when a young 20 something comes in with a round belly and multiple children I just want to scream " why not me" and "don't you know what bc is?!?!". Then I want to calmly ask them why they are so fertile, despite smoking and eating only processed foods.
Your TTC journies are all so heartbreaking to me. I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts...
@paisleybrown Maybe we should all start eating unhealthy and quit our jobs?! Maybe we would have better luck. I agree with you, it is so frustrating seeing people like that with kids and we can't even get pregnant.
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
@paisleybrown I like your style. Cupcakes and whiskey all around!
@WA85 it is so frustrating to go through all that waiting and work (and pain), and Still have to wait more. Fx that your body is working just like the "average" after surgery and you'll be part of the 6-month statistic for now, though, go for all the wine and chocolates and venting!
Me(28) and Husband(39): 10/5/2013, TTC since 10/2013 Metformin 7/2014, BFP 8/14/2014, MC 11/1/2014 Dx: PCOS, cycles 38-72. As of 6/2015 trying to lose weight and fix cycles with diet and exercise!!
All, i am sorry to be late to responding and i really appreciate everyones support . After my period started i tried to just distance myself from everything TTC because i was tired of being an emotional wreck. I have been putting all of my energy into starting my photography business and getting healthy. I'm now in that window of ovulation so I'm crossing my fingers its successful! How is everyone else's week going?
P.S. - my healthy diet includes copious amounts of Blue Bell ice cream...
2 Laps and 1 Abdominal Myomectomy 6 rounds of clomid 5 rounds of iui Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month) IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide ER 12/1/2016
ER-Retrieved 22 eggs 10 fertilized 4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls FET 1/10/2017 Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017 FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
2 Laps and 1 Abdominal Myomectomy 6 rounds of clomid 5 rounds of iui Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month) IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide ER 12/1/2016
ER-Retrieved 22 eggs 10 fertilized 4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls FET 1/10/2017 Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017 FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
Don't give up! And focus on making yourself a happy and healthy person at least that's what I keep trying to tell myself. This week, a family that I work for told me that they are accidentally expecting ..... Then I went to a dinner with friends tonight and they announced their good news. I'm happy for them, truly. But it took all my willpower to not break down and cry right then and there in that fancy restaurant. Happy and healthy thoughts, deep breath, we will get there.
Ladies, I am thinking of all of you! This is such a frustrating journey. Everyday, I case manage for individuals/families on welfare. Many of the girls are pregnant with their other children in tow, have no means, no job, no plans. I swear, these girls look at a man get pregnant. I do my best not to feel jealous and judgemental, but I really suck at it and find myself throwing pity parties. I am no more deserving of a baby than anyone else (regardless of their preparedness), yet, when a young 20 something comes in with a round belly and multiple children I just want to scream " why not me" and "don't you know what bc is?!?!". Then I want to calmly ask them why they are so fertile, despite smoking and eating only processed foods.
Your TTC journies are all so heartbreaking to me. I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts...
@paisleybrown I did this same kind of work... In a residential substance abuse program. It's hard... I know. It's nice to hear what you have to say about this, it makes me feel... Well, not so bad...not so alone.
Married May 2014 TTC Nov 2014-Aug 2016 Aug 2015 Dx: Thyroid Cancer and Hashimotos Total Thyroidectomy October 2015 Ovarian Cystectomy Nov 2015 CANCER FREE and resumed TTC Dec 2015.
All, i am sorry to be late to responding and i really appreciate everyones support . After my period started i tried to just distance myself from everything TTC because i was tired of being an emotional wreck. I have been putting all of my energy into starting my photography business and getting healthy. I'm now in that window of ovulation so I'm crossing my fingers its successful! How is everyone else's week going?
P.S. - my healthy diet includes copious amounts of Blue Bell ice cream...
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Blue Bell!!!???? Ahhhh I need Blue Bell asap!!!! We just moved from Austin to Dallas, so no Blue Bell on our shelves yet. If we hadn't moved yet, I could be eating my weight in it at the moment! Very devastating bc I NEED it to help me through all this stress!!!!!
RE DX for me: Anovulatory cycles/Mild PCOS RE DX for DW: Endometrioma on left Ovary. Reciprocal Ivf Feb 2016. DW eggs and I am carrying. EDD: 10/27/16
I've been getting more depressed each unsuccessful cycle/month. It's tough feeling so bad about myself and then all my routine goes out the window (cooking, exercise, etc).
Re: Disappointment
Past Treatment: Clomid + Metformin x 3 BFN
Letrozole 5 mg + Trigger shot + IUI = BFP!
Beta confirmed 8/22
EDD 5/1/17
Fur-children: 3 dogs + 2 cats (all rescued)
6 rounds of clomid
5 rounds of iui
Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP
Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month)
IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide
ER 12/1/2016
4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls
FET 1/10/2017
Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017
FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
*Child mentioned*
Round 2 of Femara- BFP!!! First beta at 10dpo- 28 Second beta at 12 dpo- ?
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!@sophiemgelesh Hugs to you as well. I'm sorry to hear your IUI didn't work this cycle. My fingers are crossed for you for next cycle. It doesn't make sense to me either why some can have babies so easily. Here we are, two people who love each other, been married for 5 years, have the means to raise a child...and nothing. And then there's 16 year olds who have sex once and end up KU. Seems like a cruel joke.
TTC #1 off and on since 2010
11/15 - Clomid + TI = BFN
12/15 - Clomid + TI = BFN
1/16 - Clomid + IUI = BFN
2/16 - Clomid + IUI = BFN
4/16 - Follistim + IUI = BFN
5/16 - 11/16 - Life / WTFing / Pity Party / Saving $
1/17 - IVF #1 (Fresh Transfer / 6 frosties) = BFN
3/17 - FET.... BFP! EDD 11/29
I know people having multiple kids and they don't have stable jobs or a home. So frustrating!
Your TTC journies are all so heartbreaking to me. I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts...
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!@WA85 it is so frustrating to go through all that waiting and work (and pain), and Still have to wait more. Fx that your body is working just like the "average" after surgery and you'll be part of the 6-month statistic for now, though, go for all the wine and chocolates and venting!
Me(28) and Husband(39): 10/5/2013, TTC since 10/2013
Metformin 7/2014, BFP 8/14/2014, MC 11/1/2014
Dx: PCOS, cycles 38-72. As of 6/2015 trying to lose weight and fix cycles with diet and exercise!!
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!Fur-children: 3 dogs + 2 cats (all rescued)
6 rounds of clomid
5 rounds of iui
Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP
Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month)
IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide
ER 12/1/2016
4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls
FET 1/10/2017
Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017
FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!Fur-children: 3 dogs + 2 cats (all rescued)
6 rounds of clomid
5 rounds of iui
Several HSG's sprinkled throughout the years to up my chances of a BFP
Several dilation of cervix because they suspect the scar tissue is hindering it from fully opening (partially adds to the severe cramps all month)
IVF #1 Gonal F, Menopur and Cetrotide
ER 12/1/2016
4/4 day 5 embryos were normal for PGS!!! 2 boys/2 girls
FET 1/10/2017
Gallbladder surgery 1/10/2017
FET estimated end of Feb, beginning of March
This week, a family that I work for told me that they are accidentally expecting ..... Then I went to a dinner with friends tonight and they announced their good news. I'm happy for them, truly. But it took all my willpower to not break down and cry right then and there in that fancy restaurant.
Happy and healthy thoughts, deep breath, we will get there.
@yellingbanana I can't stand it when people accidentally get pregnant, but here we are trying like hell and having no luck!
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!Married May 2014
TTC Nov 2014-Aug 2016
Aug 2015 Dx: Thyroid Cancer and Hashimotos
Total Thyroidectomy October 2015
Ovarian Cystectomy Nov 2015
CANCER FREE and resumed TTC Dec 2015.
RE DX for me: Anovulatory cycles/Mild PCOS RE DX for DW: Endometrioma on left Ovary.
Reciprocal Ivf Feb 2016. DW eggs and I am carrying. EDD: 10/27/16