Rants, those crazy unshakable thoughts...

armywife8289

Hey ladies!! I just can't shake this crazy stupid feeling I'm prego with twins?! I have had a joke of an ultrasound to confirm my pregnancy, we will have insurance next month!!! (Can't wait) I thought when I first found out im prego crap its twins. Don't have a clue why!!!! Maybe it was my friends n co workers asking me before I even was late asking if I was pregnant? Odd right?? I don't have PMS, much less pregnancy symptoms but big sore boobs and growing belly, and some days extra tired feeling! At least with my first that's exactly how it went!!! I didn't get sick still, but always had the feeling of something is not right. Or more like something more is happening. I've felt extremely tired, and by eating fruit n more cold veggies it improved, but I have to sit down often! I began showing quicker as expected but grew much faster!!!!! Like 10 weeks faster! I'm double the size! Felt movements at 14 weeks... Then it began, I swear I feel a baby on the right and left. What made me feel like it was 2?! Clustered squished together movements. I felt different, off and had the stupid (the feeling) gut feeling. Its crazy right! Who has an ultrasound, (a joke or not) and doesn't see twins??? Now she put the abdominal thing on my belly, boom it was a head n neck! How it only showed head n neck no idea. It was like seeing a gigantic 18week baby. Then she took 5 min measuring the head every way she could. Then moved it to see the abdominal cavity ( no where past the ribs) and measured the heart, (no Doppler) and was like 167! Your done!!! Hummmmmm.... Okay... It bothers me my child didn't fit on the screen? And the fact I had began feeling like I was feeling two clusters of kicks in different areas... It doesn't feel like a free baby to swish, turn, kick and go. It feels controlled and feels like no room. But who am I kidding. It can't be twins. I'm an idiot! Plenty of ppl grow twice the size second time around! And everything including now hormones that feel extreme. I could cry all day!!! And then laugh all day, then I can't get out of bed depression. I feel like my stomach is protruding outward pushing like "baby their is no more room quit trying to make more!" You know that feeling when your 8 m. Pregnant and your belly feels sooooo full it hurts!! Woah wholly cow its going to bust like a balloon!!! I'm 22 weeks!??? But nothing else but my idiot brain keeps saying I'm telling you crazy person its twins, what if its not, that will be extra hard to cope with being excited its 2! Its too wild and crazy for it to be two right? My head is so screwed up with back and forth crazy debates I'm going insane!!! I just can't take it!!! Everything is a but its just one it has to be, but it has to be two because this.... But no way!!! I'm a crazy lunatic for thinging its 2! Then its back to...the reasons! Can't stand my flip flop mind or the crazy stupid thoughts!!! Ready for 3 weeks to be up!:( how will I survive another crazy day????! Is this normal? Or am I insane?? I'm so hurt for feeling like an idiot everyday!:(

hplunkett2883

Ummm.... Wow. Did you just type as you were thinking? Lots of back and forth in that post. First off on ultrasounds they zoom in and can only view one section of the baby at a time so likely explains why your child did not fit on the screen. I am sorry you feel it was not very thorough. You could just have a big active baby. Every pregnancy is different. You will experience each one differently. I thought I was having twins because my symptoms were 4x more intense than my previous 3 pregnancies. I am positive I am having one now. Just breathe and stop over thinking things. Twins or not your feeling lots of movement and seeing your belly grow all good signs here.

KittyCat84

It doesn't sound like you're crazy, it sounds like you're anxious. Maybe your heart's desire is to have twins, and so you're trying to convince yourself? No two pregnancies are the same, so increased symptoms do not always mean twins. I agree with PP, you need to relax and stop focusing on it. Whether it is or it isn't, worrying will not change anything. Recognizing that it's out of your control and releasing it has helped me tremendously, maybe that's something that will help you as well Best wishes, and take care!

armywife8289

Yea I was thinking n typing. Not sure if I even considered grammar! Thank you ladies. I feel sooo much more at ease! Knowing I don't sound so crazy!

cMichelle0423

armywife8289 said:

Hey ladies!! I just can't shake this crazy stupid feeling I'm prego with twins?! I have had a joke of an ultrasound to confirm my pregnancy, we will have insurance next month!!! (Can't wait) I thought when I first found out im prego crap its twins. Don't have a clue why!!!! Maybe it was my friends n co workers asking me before I even was late asking if I was pregnant? Odd right?? I don't have PMS, much less pregnancy symptoms but big sore boobs and growing belly, and some days extra tired feeling! At least with my first that's exactly how it went!!! I didn't get sick still, but always had the feeling of something is not right. Or more like something more is happening. I've felt extremely tired, and by eating fruit n more cold veggies it improved, but I have to sit down often! I began showing quicker as expected but grew much faster!!!!! Like 10 weeks faster! I'm double the size! Felt movements at 14 weeks... Then it began, I swear I feel a baby on the right and left. What made me feel like it was 2?! Clustered squished together movements. I felt different, off and had the stupid (the feeling) gut feeling. Its crazy right! Who has an ultrasound, (a joke or not) and doesn't see twins??? Now she put the abdominal thing on my belly, boom it was a head n neck! How it only showed head n neck no idea. It was like seeing a gigantic 18week baby. Then she took 5 min measuring the head every way she could. Then moved it to see the abdominal cavity ( no where past the ribs) and measured the heart, (no Doppler) and was like 167! Your done!!! Hummmmmm.... Okay... It bothers me my child didn't fit on the screen? And the fact I had began feeling like I was feeling two clusters of kicks in different areas... It doesn't feel like a free baby to swish, turn, kick and go. It feels controlled and feels like no room. But who am I kidding. It can't be twins. I'm an idiot! Plenty of ppl grow twice the size second time around! And everything including now hormones that feel extreme. I could cry all day!!! And then laugh all day, then I can't get out of bed depression. I feel like my stomach is protruding outward pushing like "baby their is no more room quit trying to make more!" You know that feeling when your 8 m. Pregnant and your belly feels sooooo full it hurts!! Woah wholly cow its going to bust like a balloon!!! I'm 22 weeks!??? But nothing else but my idiot brain keeps saying I'm telling you crazy person its twins, what if its not, that will be extra hard to cope with being excited its 2! Its too wild and crazy for it to be two right? My head is so screwed up with back and forth crazy debates I'm going insane!!! I just can't take it!!! Everything is a but its just one it has to be, but it has to be two because this.... But no way!!! I'm a crazy lunatic for thinging its 2! Then its back to...the reasons! Can't stand my flip flop mind or the crazy stupid thoughts!!! Ready for 3 weeks to be up!:( how will I survive another crazy day????! Is this normal? Or am I insane?? I'm so hurt for feeling like an idiot everyday!:(

QFP

celainev

Did you not already make a board topic about this? This really is a rant. I would trust your UT and say that even if you really want twins, having that feeling does not mean you're going to get them. It sounds to me as if you have anxiety, as PP said.

celainev

You can read the responses that @Countrygirl0289 got for her topic, if you want more advise.

shelbibrooke82

I am in the same boat lol maybe not so intense...yet! I am only going on 8 weeks so I haven't had a doctor's apt yet!! I had a dream it was twin boys...I'm getting big so much faster than the first and this one is so much different than the last!!

my sister keeps saying it's because I know what I'm looking for this time! I am starting to believe her! hopefully things get easier for your brain lol

nik6499

Size and severity of symptoms don't necessarily mean anything. I measure 6 weeks ahead, but that's just how my uterus is, there is only one baby. It's rare for an ultrasound to miss a second baby after 8 weeks. And I feel my baby up high and down low, just because she has both hands and feet to smack me with. Just relax and get some prenatal care.

ChiccoBeanz

I'm still confused from your other post about your insurance situation and doctor visits stuff. I also had a tough time keeping up with this post. What exactly are you asking? I'd like to be clear on the info you've given before I respond.