IVF/FET freakout. I have a question. Please help.

JaysensMom

First off I'm new here. Lol I joined a few days ago but it would never let me post until yesterday. A little background on me and my journey. I'm 25 with secondary infertility. I have a 6 year old son who is the biggest blessing I could ever hope for. Unfortunately his dad and I did not work out for multiple reasons and we broke up while I was still pregnant. Moving on, I got with my husband when my son was just about a year old and we got married when he was 2. We've been trying to have a baby for about 4-4.5 years now with no luck.

With my secondary infertility, they aren't really sure why other than the fact my periods are really irregular so I don't ovulate every month. I get a period maybe 3-4 times a year and they last 2-4 days at a time. My husband when we had him checked the first time, they said he had slow swimmers, however throughout our journey his body hasn't made up its mind. Lol once we started IUIs he also had a low count and I mean really really low like maybe 4mill sperm per try when they like the average to be about 20. and now that we've done IVF his numbers were all fine but his morphology was a little low. This man is going to give me gray hairs. Lol

We had 8 failed IUIs in Hawaii before we moved. Now that we're in a different state, we started IVF. The doctor gave us a 3% chance of conceiving on our own without it. That was heartbreaking news.

Anyways last month we had our IVF retrieval and transfer. I had 22 eggs retrieved and 17 were mature. Out of that 15 fertilized and 12 made it to day 5. We had 1 embryo transfered in July and I remember immediately regretting we only did one. Anyways I thought I was having implementation bleeding on day 5 after my transfer because u had a little brown with pink. I had it every day through my beta. Just a little. I was hopeful because I thought I was having all these symptoms. I got my beta and had a BFN. I cried for a few days. Worst part was that night we had to go to dinner with my husband's family and my sister in law is pregnant and I can't particularly stand her. So that was really bad and we had to break the news to everyone because they were asking. Talk about hell.

Anyways here I am now in my 2ww after my first FET. I go for my beta Friday.

Sorry for the long intro and I hope some of you are still here. Here's my question.

This time around his been different. I didn't have the constant cramping and no "spotting". I've been having weird dreams tho and I have been getting cramps but ONLY at night like when I'm going to bed and throughout the middle of the night and when I first get up. Other than that I don't have them. Has anyone else had this? Where you only get cramps at night and first thing in the morning? Also last time my progesterone dropped a little and this time it rose from 25.4-29.2 (day of my FET to Monday at my draw) that's a good sign right? I've read taht progesterone goes up to sustain pregnancy. So I'm kind of hopeful.

Ladies have you had any of this and gotten a BFP still? I'm not sure what to think

oxinfree

Hi @JaysensMom,

First off, welcome to the forums. Just a heads up, this is the infertility section so many of us have never experienced a BFP or pregnancy so you might be fishing to the wrong crowd. There is a secondary infertility group that may have more advice and support for you. I'd suggest trying them. 

Ultimately you don't really know until you know. If you feel eager the best advice I can give is to stop speculating and take a home pregnancy test. That being said, they urge you not to so you don't get pessimistic and stop taking your meds if its negative. The 2ww sucks no matter what way you slice it. Try and distract yourself and avoid reading in to signs too much. There have been many months I've experienced new symptoms, only to be disappointed once more. The mind is a powerful thing though so continue to stay positive.

I'm so sorry for your struggles. When the doctor gives you staggering statistics like 3% I know how heartbreaking that can be. Big hugs to you. I myself have been trying as long for my first, as you have for your second. I know secondary infertility is very painful, but it can be hard for us primary infertiles to put ourselves in your shoes when we're praying just for one even. If possible, try and avoid the "am I pregnant" shtick and be mindful that many of us would die to have a BFP but are still unsure if this will ever happen. I'm wishing you so much success and hope that you are indeed pregnant this time around. Good luck to you on this difficult journey!

beckihall

I experienced the same, cramping only at night, no spotting, and I'm 5 weeks pregnant now! Everyone is different so you never know what symtoms you'll have. Don't lose hope!

pmakrillos

Great advice @oxinfree ! @JaysensMom , I too wish you the best and never feel defeated no matter what the odds say...