Hello. I just wanted to see if there is anyone out there who is in the same boat. This is hard for me. Life didn't play out quite as I'd planned.
I am 40 (almost 41) and have never met a man that I could settle down and have kids with. Believe me, I have tried! The thing is, I have always wanted to be a mom. It makes me sad to think that I may not get the opportunity. This yearning is what has been driving me to look for a boyfriend or a husband. I can't sit back and evaluate if I'm in a relationship that is healthy or that will grow because I am so focused on having a family. This, I feel, is just really unhealthy.
So what have I decided to do? Go it alone. Try. I feel like if I at least try (whether it happens or not), I will not have failed. I just got my Mirena removed and I am getting ready to attempt IUI. I have an awesome support system with a lot of friends who are proud of me for going after my dreams.... even if I have to do it on my own. I also feel like I may seek a relationship for all the right reasons after I get this all out of my system.