Hesitant and emotional!

myparkers7 · August 2015

Hi! I have a long story, but short version is I was diagnosed with kidney cancer in February and by the grace of God the doctor was able get it all with no further treatment. However two weeks after my surgery I found out I was pregnant with baby number 5! (9 total pregnancies due to 4 MC's and IF) I had no idea I could be pregnant and tested negative right before surgery. Sadly we lost our little one at 9 weeks and decided that it wouldn't be wise to Not try again. Cancer, infertility, miscarriages, and less of right kidney, and being 39 pretty much sealed the deal. Guess what new plan!? 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant!! On one end I am over the moon the lost of our baby in April was devastating and my heart has not been the same, but obviously I'm hesitant to really attach myself to the idea. My DH and I are the only ones that know and I feel so alone right now.... Crying constantly...

imrachellea · August 2015

Wow what a story! Prayers for a sticky baby and h&h 9 months!

Brandi81012 · August 2015

Again, wow! Thankful for wonderful doctors! Wishing you a happy healthy 9 months.

rosalie12 · August 2015

Good luck! H&H 9 months!!

littlesocks · August 2015

That's quite a journey! Wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months. Repeat to yourself "today I am pregnant." Sometimes that helps me

Carazona5 · August 2015

Wow I'm so sorry you're having such an emotional time but it's certainly understandable. It's good that you came here. I don't know how your situation feels but I know how comforting it can be here and even just to pass the time and chitchat with others helps!! Especially if You don't want to tell your immediate circle yet but still want to talk!

. So welcome and good luck with everything!!

bearinabeesuit · August 2015

Wow my prayers with you and your miracle baby!

lilp2015 · August 2015

Congrats and prayers!

jonesl12 · August 2015

Sending good vibes for a healthy little one >:D<

myparkers7 · August 2015

Thank you all!! For now my betas and progesterone are at great levels. I have another draw on Monday. I feel truly blessed, but scared on many levels. Thanks again for a welcoming and supportive place to purge my emotions.

lawright · August 2015

My dad had kidney cancer. I'm so, so glad that they caught it early enough to be treated for both of you. I have my fx for a completely uneventful pregnancy and delivery for you.

TKaiser91 · August 2015

What a roller coaster! I'm happy to hear they got all the cancer! And congrats on your pregnancy and welcome! Praying for a sticky bean for you with a h&h 9 months!