Due date coming

ppreston123

Next week would have been my due date. Lost baby at 18 weeks in March. One of my close friends is pregnant and just announced the gender, meanwhile I am contemplating never being able to have a healthy baby (I'm 40 and both of us are carriers of cystic fibrosis, and have no prior children). Keeping a brave face thanks to Zoloft, without it I was having crying fits every day. No one wants to talk about this with me, I kept it pretty much a secret before the loss due to various issues and now it's just an awkward topic no one wants to bring up when they're having fun. We are still trying but I feel like I need a grieving period -- for the loss of my baby, and the hopes of a future with a family that may never be possible. There's no one who cares to discuss it with me, I feel like I'm just supposed to accept it, move on, and get over it, which I guess I will, but not without remembering and mourning. Anyone else relate?

valleric

Yeah, none of my few close friends who I told discuss my mc with me either. I'm sure they don't know what to say since they haven't gone thru it themselves and are too preoccupied with their kids. It sucks. They just don't get it.

cyntodd

I can totally relate and having people around me that are due around the same time as me has not helped. I am sorry you feel like you have no one to talk to. I have a decent support system and still sometimes I feel very alone. I think you are entitled to a grieving period. How ever long that may be. I did read a book that helped me validate my grief if you are interested it is called "I never held you " by Ellen Dubios. It made me realize that not only is my grief real but I need to move through it....it's a process. I miss my baby every day. I am sure when my due date comes I will be a mess. Just hearing the planning of a baby shower for the other people expecting sent me into the bathroom where I cried for 20 minutes. I hope you and I both can find a way to move past all this but until then let yourself feel what you are feeling. I am pretty sure most people here have felt the same way.

ceclarlinetlo

Oh @ppreston123 I am so sorry to hear you feel so alone after your loss. Feel free to PM anytime you need to vent. No one should have to do this alone.

DeleaJean

I am so sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through. It's hard to think about the due date... I miscarried a week ago at 11 weeks so it's far off and still hard for me to think about. Sending lots of love and hugs your way.

ppreston123

Thanks for the book suggestion and supporting words., they are much appreciated.